Oh man.

Fairway

Tumeric

Chilli

Chestnuts (266g, 0.6lb)

Apricot (100g)

Pistachio (600g)

Streaky bacon (12 rashers)

Turkey (18lb)

 

Specialty market

Pancetta (0.6lb, 266g)

Merguez (24in)

Goose fat (3.3oz)

 

New Jersey

Pork mince (1000g, 2.2lb)

Brussel sprouts (1.33kg, 2.93lb)

Yukon gold potatoes (3.33kg, 7.34lb)

Chicken stock (800ml)

Lemons (6)

Onions (3)

Tomatoes (4)

Rosemary springs (4)

Parsley (1 bunch)

Sage leaves (1 large bunch)

 

 

 

Tuesday. Xingese cuisine day. Roy watches a private in the lunch line plop a scoop of fried rice – a mushy mound of gruel specked with bits of red and green something – on to his plate. Some staffer somewhere had the brilliant idea of trying to raise troop morale by introducing themed lunch days in the cafeteria. A quick glance at Wednesday’s menu tells Roy tomorrow is Drachman cuisine day. What a treat, Roy thinks, what a treat.

 

Meanwhile, a tall blonde sergeant standing in front of Roy in line says expectantly to his shorter, bespectacled friend’s, “Sooo, did you ask Lieutenant Milly out?”

 

“No,” Glasses responds curtly.

 

“Oh c’mon, what’s the matter with you Marv?” Blondie makes a face at his friend, “LT is totally into you, man.”

 

“Do you mind? She’s our commanding officer!” Glasses hisses back.

 

Roy shuffles mindlessly behind them in line, holding a well-worn brown plastic tray in one hand, his other tucked in his pants pocket. No stranger to the pains of the military’s non-fraternization rule, Roy silently extends his sympathies to Glasses. He and Havoc had been curating a list of potential dates for as long as Roy could remember: Charlotte from Investigations, Gretchen down in library archives, Jenna from the hospital, just to name a few. Her name, though, well, she’s always been different.

 

“Oh c’mooon, Marv,” Blondie drones on dramatically. “Who is going to know?” Blondie answers his own question, “No one, that’s who! Seriously, man, it is just one date. No one’s going to find out. Just ask her out.” Blondie’s voice rises above the cafeteria humdrum, turning heads and drawing hushed murmurs in the pair’s direction.

 

Glasses is beet red and growing redder by the minute. “If you don’t keep your damn voice down everyone is going to know!” He hurls a scoop of stir fry on to Blondie’s plate with such force bits of bell pepper and carrot splatter all over the tall sergeant’s uniform.

 

“Whaddya do that for? You know I hate carrots!”

 

“Oh yeah? I hate loud mouths!”

 

“Just one date, huh,” Roy mutters to himself as he scoops some fried rice on to his own place. No one’s going to find out. No one…

 

 

 

Much to Roy’s dismay, a small army of paperwork had invaded his desk by the time he returns from lunch. A tall pile of civilian claims for lost and damaged property from Fullmetal’s latest misadventures nearly touches the ceiling. Next to it looms three more stacks of paperwork: two years’ worth of expense reports, travel logs, and ongoing operations briefs awaited his review and signature.

 

“And,” Riza drops another heavy box next to Roy’s existing paperwork with a thud, “an urgent delivery from Lieutenant Colonel Hughes.” Without evening opening the box, Roy could already see pictures of Gracia and Elicia’s smiling faces peeking out from under the lid.

 

“All work and no play makes Roy a dull boy,” he mutters, “Can’t we do something fun for once, Lieutenant?” Roy gives an exasperated sigh as he moves Hughes’ “urgent” delivery aside and begins flipping through the expense reports. He cringes internally as he thumbs past his personal expenses, having accidentally charged three dinners at some of the city’s most expensive restaurants to his military account last Valentine’s Day.

 

“That is entirely up to you, sir,” Riza replies, resuming work at her own desk, “As long as you finish your paperwork.” A bemused smile crosses her lips when she sees the Colonel is already doodling on his reports. Well, he’s managed to do five minutes of work, she thinks with an internal sigh, that’s a new post-lunch record.

 

If not for all this damn paperwork and the damn anti-fraternization rule, Roy muses back at his desk, he could be out on a joy ride with Charlotte or at the movies with Gretchen or at the beach with Jenna. Jenna loves the beach. Maybe, Roy starts drawing a hawk on the corner of a report, maybe he could have dinner with Riza. If he remembers correctly from his days as Master Hawkeye’s apprentice, Riza was quite fond of sweets. Maybe they could go to that dessert place that opened up on the corner before going back to his apartment…

 

When it dawns on him just who he had been daydreaming about and where his train of thought had been going, Roy crumples the report in front of him and hurls it across the office in one sudden, violent gesture. The report bounces off several times on the floor before rolling to a stop at Riza’s feet.

 

Looking at the ball of paper on the floor and then back at Roy, Riza asks hesitantly, “Is there something wrong, sir?” She picks up ball and straightens out the report. Roy had managed to leave a comically misshapen doodle – an avian creature that looked more like a slug with wings and less like a hawk – in one corner. Perhaps the Colonel was frustrated with his lack of artistic talent, she thinks, choking back a small laugh.

 

“No! Not at all, Lieutenant!” Roy does his best to feign a hearty laugh, “I was just,” he spots the waste basket in the corner and blurts out, “just practicing my basketball shot! Haha! That’s all!”

 

Riza returns the paperwork to Roy’s desk with a raised eyebrow. The waste basket is nearly five feet away from her desk. “Please don’t use the rest of your paperwork for sports practice, sir,” she chastises before adding, “Though your shot – and your doodles – both need work, sir.”

 

Roy shoots his adjutant the widest, most harmless grin he could manage before mentally sighing with relief that she had not somehow read his mind – his cursed, daydreaming mind. The rest of the afternoon, Roy vows, will be devoted solely to finishing his paperwork. No more doodling. No more daydreaming. Just wo–

 

One date! Just one date, Roy, no one’s going to find out, Blondie’s voice finishes Roy’s train of thought.

 

“Oh goddamnit,” Roy mutters, one hand slapping his face, “Not this guy.” Determined to rid his mind of Blondie’s annoying voice, Roy begins furiously tearing through the nearest stack of paperwork.

 

C’mooon Roy! Blondie drones on in Roy’s head, who is going to know? No one! Just ask her out already. You know you want to.

 

No! Roy shouts back mentally. Working a pace he never thought possible, he tries to mentally stamp out his internal nemesis by attacking an the entire stack of expense reports and travel logs.

 

Roy, live a little! Who is going to know? I’ll tell you who: no one! Blondie’s voice dips and twirls across Roy’s thoughts, evading the Flame Alchemist’s every attempt to snuff out the annoying sound.

 

Seriously, man, if you aren’t going to, then maybe I’ll take a pass at the lieutenant, Blondie taunts. I mean, Riza is a sweet piece of –

 

“Oh for god’s sake, shut up already!” Roy stands up abruptly, slamming both of his palms down on his desk. Shockwaves from his abrupt movement threaten to topple the various stacks of paperwork he had just completed.

 

Riza jumps at the sound

 

 

 

They had known each other for so long they could practically read each other’s minds

 

 

 

 

 

Glasses is silent, his knuckles white and face beet red.

“Marv, learn to live a little, man! Everyone knows the drill: just one date doesn’t break the fraternization rule.” Blondie drops a heap of stir fried vegetables and noodles on Glasses’ plate, having finally reached the food. “One date rule, Marv, one date rule!”

At this point other voices join the fray. “Quit teasing him, Jake!”

“Yeah, one date rule! Ask her out Marv!”

“Milly and Marv, sitting in a tree…K I S S—!”

“Do it, Marv! One date rule!”

By the time Roy digs into his fried rice and stir fry, the entire cafeteria is chanting “One date rule!”

Riza greets him with paperwork as soon as Roy steps back in the office. A small city of paperwork had apparently found its way to his desk during lunch time. A neat stack of civilian claims for lost and damaged property from Fullmetal’s latest misadventures along with expense reports and travel logs waited for his review and signature.

“And,” Riza places one last file in front of him, ”

“By the way, Hawkeye.”

“Yes, Colonel?”

“Have you heard of the one date rule?”

“No, sir, I can’t say I have.”

“I overheard some enlisted men talking about in the cafeteria. It’s probably nothing.”

“You’re burning the roux, Boy!” Father’s voice booms from his office. “I can smell it all the way from up here!”

 

Pots and pans clatter in the kitchen. A small voice calls back, “I’m sorry, sir! I’ll make sure to watch the pot, sir!”

 

I tiptoe over and peek inside the kitchen from behind a half-open door. The new boy is standing on a step stool and bent over a pot of curry on the stove like a witch over her cauldron. The sleeves of his white shirt are rolled up to his elbows, sweat dripping down from his furrowed brown to his red cheeks. Around the stool lay a circle of discarded onion peels, carrot tops, apple cores, and potato skins.

 

Stirring the pot with a wooden spoon, the boy’s jet black eyes are focused intently on the pages of my mother’s old recipe book. The first task Father gives anyone who wants to be his apprentice is to make my mother’s curry from scratch. No one’s come ever come close to Father’s expectations, so Father has never taken an apprentice.

 

The boy raises the wooden spoon to his mouth for a taste and his lips pucker immediately. He runs both hands through his mop of raven hair several times in frustration before suddenly leaping off the stool and racing across the kitchen. Frantically flinging open cupboards and drawers, he mutters to himself – coffee, yogurt, flour – as he searches for ingredients, completely oblivious to my presence by the door.

 

As the boy reaches for the flour, Father’s voice rings out again, “Don’t even think about adding more flour, Boy!”

 

The boy jerks his hand away from the flour bag and shouts back, “Yessir!”

 

To my surprise, by sunset, the house begins to take on an unexpected aroma. The smell dredges up half-forgotten fragments of a mother I hardly knew. Sometimes I feel her presence in the house calling out to me as if to remind me that she – my mother – had once lived here, but nothing evokes her memory as strongly as the smell of her curry wafting through my room that night.

 

And, sure enough, later that night, Father takes an apprentice for the first time.

 

A familiar smell pulls Riza back to the world of the waking. Curry, she thinks as she rubs the sleep from her eyes, this is smell of my mother’s curry. She starts to twist her hair into a bun as she sits up on the couch but suddenly decides against it. No, she thinks, leaving her hair down, not quite her mother’s curry.

 

Soft amber light filters in through the doorway, throwing long shadows into the darkened living room. She wraps a sweater around her shoulders and heads down to the kitchen. Peeking through the doorway, Riza catches the glimpse of a man hovering over a pot on her stove, the sleeves of his white uniform shirt rolled up past muscled forearms to his elbows. A pair of white gloves rest on the kitchen table, a black overcoat hangs over the back of a chair.

 

“You’re burning the roux, Boy,” Riza says with a smile. Crossing her arms she rests her weight against the doorway. When they are alone, she calls him whatever she wants. Sir. Colonel. Boy.

 

“Huummh?” Roy looks up from the stove with a wooden spoon in his mouth, his jet black eyes meeting Riza’s amber ones momentarily before he shouts, “Coffee!” He may have stopped dropping vegetable peels and fruit shavings on the floor, but her commanding officer still stumbles around the kitchen for ingredients the same way he did when he was a kid. The corners of Riza’s mouth could hardly keep from curling into a smile when he triumphantly waves up a can of instant coffee in her direction. “Can’t forget the coffee,” he says.

 

“You always make my mother’s curry,” Riza muses, giving the pot a stir. The aroma reminds her of lazy childhood afternoons. A Sunday maybe, or a school day after she’s finished her homework, and Father finally lets Roy stop scribbling alchemy circles long enough to cook dinner.

 

“Hers is the only curry I’ll ever make,” Roy replies, adding with a slight grimace, “even after all that abuse from Master.” Father never said a single good thing about Roy’s curry, always criticizing this or that. Add more pepper, Boy! You’ve ruined the flavor, Boy! And Roy never stopped tinkering with her mother’s recipe, always adding this or that – chocolate or orange peels or anything that would make Father lose his mind.

 

“But of course, I’ve tweaked a few things here over the years,” Roy comes up behind Riza and wrapping his arms around her waist. Burying his face in her hair, he plants a string of kisses along her jawline and down the crock of her neck, his breath hot against her skin as he whispers, “Though I’m not sure Master would approve.”

 

Closing her eyes, Riza falls back into Roy’s embrace. If only she had known she would the rest of her life with Father’s only apprentice. “Do you remember,” she asks, reaching back to run her fingers through his hair, “what life was like before we met each other?”

 

“No,” he hums back against her collarbone, “life without you is not worth remembering.” His answer is so remarkably cheesy that Riza only laughs in response. The world shrinks to a small quiet moment in her apartment, and they stay like this – holding each other, swaying to the tune of a song only they can hear – for a long time.

 

Then, Riza breaks the silence: “What did you do this time, sir?”

 

Roy peels away from Riza like a turtle drawing back into its shell – he only makes curry when he knows he’s in trouble. Chuckling, he jabs his index fingers together in front of his face. “Well, you know those operations reports, the ones you told me to finish last week,” he begins meekly before trailing off.

 

She looks at him expectantly. He steals small glances at her while twiddling his thumbs. Lazy Colonel Mustang must have forgotten to file his monthly operations reports, again. And Lieutenant Hawkeye, his trusty adjutant, is going to have slog through bureaucratic nonsense to get those reports filed properly, again.

 

For an aspiring Fuhrer-to-be, Roy has a terrible poker face. He knows it is all his fault for slacking off on his work, so Riza squares her shoulders and chastises him with the most solemn sir-must-do-your-work glare she can muster. When Riza finally drops her gaze with a roll of her eyes, the normally imposing Colonel Mustang collapses on his lieutenant’s kitchen floor with a long sigh of relief.

 

“You really should do more of your work, Roy,” she reprimands again, giving the pot of curry another stir before ladling several scoops of rich curry onto two plates of fluffy white rice.

 

“Yes, Master Hawkeye,” Roy replies in his apprentice voice as he adds crimson flowers of red pickles to each plate of curry before setting both down on the table. He swears he hears the safety on Riza’s handgun click off as soon as the last syllable leaves his mouth. “Erm, I mean, yes, Riza.”

 

“Thank you for the meal,” Riza holsters her sidearm before adding, “Boy.”

 

 

 

Back at the dinner table, Roy’s eyes are anxiously searching his lieutenant’s face for a sign of forgiveness. The colonel has a terrible poker face for a soldier aspiring to be a politician, Riza muses.

 

But she relents and declares: “Apology accepted, sir.” W

 

 

Riza’s plate is practically spotless when she finishes the last bite of her food. And before either of them knows it, they fall back old habits by the sink: he washes, she dries. That had been their evening routine back then. Two kids standing next to each other by the sink, elbows and arms bumping into each other, water splashing and sloshing all over the counters and floor as they scrubbed dishes.

 

 

 

“Yessir,” Riza nods.

 

Decades later, the two of them are not doing much better – she with her injured left hand and he with his broad-shouldered frame too large for her tiny kitchen sink. From one look at the way the colonel is handling the dishes in the sink, Riza could tell Roy hardly does the dishes these days. All that cafeteria food for lunch and takeout for dinner.

 

A heavy bowl slips through Roy’s clumsy hands and into the sink with a large splashing, throwing soapy dishwater all over the countertop and floor. An stray droplet finds its way to Riza’s eye. “Will you please pass me a towel, sir?” she asks, cradling her head in the crook of her elbow, “I’ve got soap in my eye.”

 

Roy scrambles to find a clean towel in the kitchen, comes up with nothing, and dashes out into the living room to continue his search. Riza nearly doubles over with laughter when he finally returns and presses a crumpled napkin into her hand. “You’d make a terrible house-husband, sir,” she says, choking back laughter.

 

“I’m sorry, lieutenant,” Roy says with an exasperated sigh, “Let me finish up with the dishes so I can get out of here and stop ruining what’s left of your day.”

 

“No, it’s alright, sir,” she replies with another chuckle, dabbing her eyes with the bit of napkin.

 

For a second time that night, a silence settles between the pair. The only sound in the kitchen comes from hush of water gushing from the faucet and Roy’s sponge scrubbing against pots and plates. He apologizes every time his forearms bump into her hands, every time water rains down on their clothes from the sink.

 

When the dishes are done, the two find themselves standing in Riza’s apartment doorway. “I’m sorry I made such a mess of things today,” Roy says. He is tugging at the sleeves of his black overcoat, and Riza is failing miserably at trying not to smile. Her normally confident and self-assured commanding officer is standing sheepishly in her doorway, restlessly running his hand through his hair, looking at her expectantly from the corner of his eyes. He wants a sign from her that he has truly been forgiven.

 

She draws herself up and squares her shoulders, chastising him with the most solemn glare she could muster. You should be glad that no one was hurt today, sir. You should be glad you were not seriously injured yourself, sir, not mention what would happened had there been any civilians on the road.

 

Roy replies with the most innocent smile he could manage. He turns back towards her as he steps out into the hallway, “Please, just forget tonight ever—”

 

Before he has a chance to finish his sentence, Riza pulls him close by the lapel of his overcoat with her good hand, planting a kiss firmly on his lips. Their lips touch for the briefest of moments but Roy remains immobile in her hallway, eyes wide in disbelief, even after their bodies separate.

 

“Thank you for the meal, sir.”

 

 

 

She looks at him. He looks back at her. Silence fills the small space between them at the dinner table. Then, Riza’s brow furrows.

 

They had been on their way back to the office when a torrential downpour suddenly cascaded over the Amestrian countryside. Roy, with all of his distaste for precipitation, insisted they take the faster route back along a narrow, dirt road where the car sputtered wildly out of control in the rain and mud. Roy’s attempts to realign the steering wheel from the passenger seat only made matters worse, throwing the car off the road entirely where the vehicle threw itself unceremoniously into a tree.

 

From the looks of it, Roy must have brought her back to her apartment because she remembers nothing else after the car slammed into the tree. Her wrist injury, which Roy had also tended to, must have also been a product of the accident.

 

Back at the dinner table, Roy’s eyes are anxiously searching his lieutenant’s face for a sign of forgiveness. The colonel has a terrible poker face for a soldier aspiring to be a politician, Riza muses. The accident was all his fault, so maybe she should scowl and frown a little more to keep him on the line before letting him go.

 

But she relents and declares: “Apology accepted, sir.” When he hears those words, both hands rush to Roy’s face with a resounding smack as he sinks back into his chair with a sigh of relief.

 

“I’m surprised you still remember how to make this curry after all these years,” Riza remarks between mouthfuls of curry. She could not remember the last time she had curry since Roy’s apprenticeship ended years ago.

 

“I don’t think I can ever forget your mother’s recipe after all that abuse from Master,” Roy says with a pout. Father never said a single good thing about Roy’s curry, always criticizing this or that. (Add more pepper, Boy! You’ve ruined burned the onions, Boy!) And Roy never stopped tinkering with her mother’s recipe, always adding this or that. (Chocolate or orange peels or something that would make Father lose his mind.) But Father used to demand the dish at least once a week and Father’s only apprentice would oblige all too happily.

 

“And of course, I’ve tweaked a few things here and there,” Roy says, propping his elbows on the tables and leaning towards Riza with mischievous grin, “Though I’m not sure Master would approve.” Riza responds with a small laugh and a shake of her head. Some things never change.

 

Riza’s plate is practically spotless when she finishes the last bite of her curry. She starts to take her plate and spoon to the sink with her good hand, but Roy is quicker than she is and plucks them from her. “I wash, you dry,” he says, “Just like old times.”

 

“Yessir,” Riza nods. That had been their evening routine back then: he washes, she dries. Standing next to each other by the sink, elbows and arms bumping into each other, water splashing and sloshing all over the counters and floor.

 

Decades later, the two of them are not doing much better – she with her injured left hand and he with his broad-shouldered frame too large for her tiny kitchen sink. From one look at the way the colonel is handling the dishes in the sink, Riza could tell Roy hardly does the dishes these days. All that cafeteria food for lunch and takeout for dinner.

 

A heavy bowl slips through Roy’s clumsy hands and into the sink with a large splashing, throwing soapy dishwater all over the countertop and floor. An stray droplet finds its way to Riza’s eye. “Will you please pass me a towel, sir?” she asks, cradling her head in the crook of her elbow, “I’ve got soap in my eye.”

 

Roy scrambles to find a clean towel in the kitchen, comes up with nothing, and dashes out into the living room to continue his search. Riza nearly doubles over with laughter when he finally returns and presses a crumpled napkin into her hand. “You’d make a terrible house-husband, sir,” she says, choking back laughter.

 

“I’m sorry, lieutenant,” Roy says with an exasperated sigh, “Let me finish up with the dishes so I can get out of here and stop ruining what’s left of your day.”

 

“No, it’s alright, sir,” she replies with another chuckle, dabbing her eyes with the bit of napkin.

 

For a second time that night, a silence settles between the pair. The only sound in the kitchen comes from hush of water gushing from the faucet and Roy’s sponge scrubbing against pots and plates. He apologizes every time his forearms bump into her hands, every time water rains down on their clothes from the sink.

 

When the dishes are done, the two find themselves standing in Riza’s apartment doorway. “I’m sorry I made such a mess of things today,” Roy says. He is tugging at the sleeves of his black overcoat, and Riza is failing miserably at trying not to smile. Her normally confident and self-assured commanding officer is standing sheepishly in her doorway, restlessly running his hand through his hair, looking at her expectantly from the corner of his eyes. He wants a sign from her that he has truly been forgiven.

 

She draws herself up and squares her shoulders, chastising him with the most solemn glare she could muster. You should be glad that no one was hurt today, sir. You should be glad you were not seriously injured yourself, sir, not mention what would happened had there been any civilians on the road.

 

Roy replies with the most innocent smile he could manage. He turns back towards her as he steps out into the hallway, “Please, just forget tonight ever—”

 

Before he has a chance to finish his sentence, Riza pulls him close by the lapel of his overcoat with her good hand, planting a kiss firmly on his lips. Their lips touch for the briefest of moments but Roy remains immobile in her hallway, eyes wide in disbelief, even after their bodies separate.

 

“Thank you for the meal, sir.”

 

 

 

 

“Do you remember Maxwell?” Riza asks suddenly, blinking several times as she pats her eye with the napkin.

 

“You mean that snotty rich kid from town?”

 

She nods, “He used to say that to me all the time – that I’d make a terrible housewife. He kept going around telling people no one would want to marry me to make me their housewife in the first place.”

 

“That kid was a jerk.” The talk of Maxwell irks Roy and he begins attacking the crusty residue of curry inside a pot with a sponge. “That kid was a jerk,” he mutters again.

 

“Joining the military pretty much killed my marriage prospects, so maybe Maxwell was on to something,” Riza replies with a laugh and a shrug, setting down the napkin and picking up another plate to dry.

 

“No!” Roy barks, slamming his hands down suddenly against the edge of the sink, kicking up more dishwater. “That little jerk wasn’t on to anything at all! Any man should be happy to have you as their wife!”

 

Maxwell’s comments had never particularly bothered Riza – boys will always be boys, and they were all kids back then anyway – so Roy’s outburst catches her off guard.

 

“I-I-I,” Roy’s voice cracks, “I would be happy – more than happy – to have you as my wife!” Crap. The rational part of Roy’s mind gives his subconscious a ringing smack across the face. Crap, crap, crap, I said that out loud.

 

 

 

 

“Papa! Papa!” Riza Hawkeye bounces into her father’s study

 

“What is it, Elizabeth?” Berthold Hawkeye barely lifts his eyes from the page of his alchemy manuscript.

 

“I want to hear a story!” Riza tugs at her father’s trouser leg. A huge, expectant smile spreads across her face as she looks up at Berthold’s towering profile. “I want to hear the one about the alchemist and the lizard!”

 

 

 

 

 

 

2-17

You are the most

The words linger on the page, spots of ink on paper, an incomplete thought. Maybe he is too scared to finish the whole thing. To string his thoughts together like beads, to put these delicate but all too simple thoughts into words, to have them read (possibly), to have them heard (possibly), by anyone other than himself – has he ever felt so exposed? No, not even when the fire of a thousand suns sprang from a thousand suns and razed miles of desert

What would he say to her that a hundred million others before him have not already said? What could he say to her that a thousand greeting cards mantras could not say? Had he the ingenuity to weave together some

I want to be 16 again and not be so dumb. Not to be so dumb about it. I want to be a middle schooler and walk to school, to the subway, with headphones and Gleb’s CD player in my pocket, my baggy ski coat’s pockets, because I broke my own. I want to wake up to Purple Haze on my clam shell phone at seven in the morning and not get to school on time, ever. I want to go through everything again but I also want to be 24 while I’m getting there because I want the me now to remember what I was like then but also for the me then to know what I know now so that I can see things clearly, as they were, with a different set of eyes instead of just remembering. I still walk by the same places I walked all those years earlier. The same highways, the same streets, with the occasional new building or new playground but I want to be two things at once – two impossible things at once – because I don’t know what to do with myself in this moment. I wish I knew what was going to happen to me. I wish I knew what this was all for and whether or not I actually got anywhere – or where I got, if I got somewhere. Where do I go now? All the things that can go wrong but there are a few things that went right. I’m not even sure how to feel about all of this. Where do I go what is going to happen and why – will it be okay will it be okay? I can’t tell and it scares me that I can’t tell and that I won’t know until it happens and years from now I’ll look back and want to be 24 again and want to be 24 wanting to be 16 again – and you didn’t listen to your parents to enjoy your time when you were 16 because you’re only 16 but you knew that and you believed them but what were we supposed to do with that kind of information when you are in that moment except to not understand and forget it and walk on and keep being 16 in the moment and be 16 just once – what happens to us – can you still remember the stairs, going across the bridge, the pale linoleum floors, the fading lights and raucous of students in the stairs, the escalators that never worked, morning light that you never see now because you’re not up that early coming in across the squares they called windows – all the things that mattered then and all the things that matter now and everything in between – what was any of that for – where did all the time go.

Oof.

Having offered arguments against the Evidence-Cost’s views competitors, I will now offer some considerations in favor of the Evidence-Cost view.
First, the Evidence-Cost view seems to avoid the major pitfalls of both the Fact-Cost view and the Belief-Cost view. On the Fact-Cost view, the facts of S’s cost context do not, on their own, make any comments about what are the kind of stakes S is faced with in any given case. Facts about S’s cost context might specify exactly what amount of impact getting it right or wrong about believing P has on S’s practical situation. For instance, going back to the Takeshi-Date example, Takeshi’s practical situation might be effected in ABC way, whatever ABC way might actually be in the given case, by his getting it right or wrong about MOSS. This would be a fact of Takeshi’s cost context in this example. However, it is not the case that this fact about Takeshi’s cost context says anything about whether or not Takeshi is in a high-stakes context or a low-stakes context. Thus, what kind of cost context S is in depends on – not only what is objective the case about S’s cost context – but, as mentioned earlier, factors such as how it compares to other cases and third-party interpretation. Even though I take for granted, in the examples used throughout this paper, that there is some objective fact about what kind of cost context S is in, I do believe that facts about S’s cost context are always neutral. Pay another way, facts about S’s cost context do not specifically say either, it is the case that S is in a high-stakes context or, it is the case that S is in a low-stakes context. With that said, it seems difficult for the Fact-Cost view to make any recommendations about when it is reasonable or not reasonable for S to believe P. The Evidence-Cost view, however, does not seem to suffer from this pitfall. Whereas facts about S’s cost context might be neutral, what evidence S has about his cost context can speak either in favor of his being in a high-stakes cost context or a low-stakes cost context. The Evidence-Cost view, then, can readily make recommendations about when it is reasonable for S to believe P.
In fact, as I mentioned in the previous section, facts about S’s cost context, as they are neutral with regard to what kind of cost context S is in, can constitute a form of evidence that S can have about his cost context. These neutral facts about S’s cost context can serve as evidence which speaks in favor of S’s being in a high-stakes context or as evidence which speaks in favor of S’s being in a low-stakes context. For example, in the Takeshi-Date example, suppose the facts of Takeshi’s cost context are the following: If Takeshi gets it wrong about believing that he wrote down “Moss” on the napkin (call this belief MOSS), he will stand Mary up and Mary will be angry with him for doing this and so on. Should Takeshi be aware of these facts about his cost context, these facts can then serve as evidence which speaks in favor of his being in a high-stakes context in the Takeshi-Date example.
The Evidence-Cost view also avoid the pitfalls of the Belief-Cost view. My main objection against the Belief-Cost is that, on this view, even if S has unjustified or poorly justified beliefs about what kind of cost context he is in, it is reasonable for him to believe P as long as he holds certain beliefs about his cost context. So, in the Takeshi-Job example, if Takeshi believes, in his mind, that he is in a low-stakes context, then the Belief-Cost view holds that it is reasonable for Takeshi to believe MOSS regardless of what his evidence about P says, regardless of what the facts of his cost context are. The Belief-Cost view, then, seems to lead to intuitively erroneous conclusion in cases like the Takeshi-Job example. On the Evidence-Cost view, however, S’s evidence about his cost context do not seem as arbitrary as S’s beliefs about his cost context.
Also, I believe that Evidence-Cost view has the advantage of being able to combine the Fact-Cost view, the Belief-Cost view, and itself together into more cohesive and satisfactory intermediate Evidence-Cost view. As mentioned in section 6, aside from the three basic intermediate Evidence-Cost views I have been talking about so far, there are other ways that we might treat S’s cost context. There could be a view which says that S’s reasonableness to believe P depends on facts about S’s evidence in favor of P, and some general attitude about S’s cost context. This “general attitude” about S’s cost context refers to some combination of facts, beliefs, and evidence about S’s cost context which might be used to determine what kind of cost context S is in, in a given case. While I try to articulate or address the “General Attitude”-Cost view in this paper, it is easy to see how the Evidence-Cost view acts as a natural starting point for trying articulate such a view. Under the Evidence-Cost view, facts about S’s cost context – which are neutral on their own – can serve as evidence about S’s cost context. And, S’s evidence about his cost context can speak in favor or against S’s beliefs about his cost context.
Second, I believe that the Evidence-Cost view is the most plausible of the three intermediate Evidence-Cost views I address in this paper because it allows for the possibility that S may neither be reasonable nor unreasonable in holding a belief. In other words, on the Evidence-Cost view, “reasonable” and “unreasonable” are not the only two ways S might be with regard to belief P. A third possibilities exists for how S might be with regards to belief P: S maintain no relationship to belief P on the Evidence-Cost view. For example, let’s look back at the Takeshi-Date example. Recall that Takeshi had some fishy evidence about where is supposed to meet Mary. After running through the rain, the name of the fast food chain he had written down on a piece of napkin becomes smudged. He can only make out the letters “Mc—”. Given the letter fragment on the napkin, Takeshi could have originally written down “McDonald’s” but he has a gut feeling of remembering that he actually wrote down “Moss” for Moss Burger. Neither piece of Takeshi’s evidence in favor of P is extremely convincing. Now, also suppose that Takeshi’s evidence about his cost context is not extremely convincing as well. Perhaps this is Takeshi does not know Mary, whom he found through an online dating site, very well. He has little evidence, aside from her dating website profile and the one or two dates that have gone on, about how she might respond to being stood up by him. One can imagine a version of Takeshi-Date where Takeshi has only a little evidence in favor of his being in a high-stakes context. It seems plausible, then, to say that, in this version of the Takeshi-Date example, it could be the case that it is neither reasonable nor unreasonable for Takeshi to believe MOSS. According to the Evidence-Cost view which takes into account only Takeshi’s evidence about his cost context in the Takeshi-Date example, perhaps Takeshi needs to withhold judgment about MOSS until he has more evidence about his cost context.
This possibility of withholding judgment from MOSS does not seem available to Takeshi under the Fact-Cost view. Again, the Fact-Cost view holds that what is objectively the case about Takeshi’s cost context is relevant in determining if it is reasonable or not reasonable for him to believe MOSS. As I state in an early section, in the first place, I do not believe that facts about Takeshi’s cost context can make any recommendations about what kind of stakes are present in his cost context. But, even if we grant that facts about Takeshi’s cost context do in fact tell us if he is in a high-stakes context or a low-stakes context, I do not believe it is possible for Takeshi to withhold judgment from believing MOSS under the Fact-Cost view. Suppose we grant that, in the Takeshi-Date example on the Fact-Cost view, that the facts of Takeshi’s cost context is such that he is in a high-stakes context. Given what little evidence Takeshi has in favor of MOSS, it is unreasonable for him to believe MOSS in this example. Or, suppose that we grant that Takeshi is actually in a low-stakes context such that, even if he has a small amount of unconvincing evidence in favor of MOSS, it is reasonable for Takeshi to believe MOSS. Because there are always facts about Takeshi’s cost context which specifies which kind of cost context he is in for any given case, there are also always facts about whether or not it is reasonable or not reasonable for Takeshi to hold a belief in any given case. Thus, there does not appear to be any room for Takeshi to be neither unreasonable nor reasonable in believing MOSS on the Fact-Cost view. There is no way for Takeshi to withhold judgment about MOSS.
Moreover, for Takeshi, the possibility of withholding judgment about MOSS also seems closed under the Belief-Cost view. According to the Belief-Cost view, Takeshi’s beliefs, in his mind, about what kind of cost context he is in is relevant to determining if it reasonable or not reasonable for him to believe MOSS. One might raise the point that it is possible for Takeshi to withhold judgment from MOSS – he can simply not have any beliefs whatsoever about his cost context. But, Takeshi’s not holding any beliefs at all about his cost context, on the Belief-Cost view, leads to a strange conclusion. For example, in the Takeshi-Date example, on the Evidence-Cost view, it seems plausible for Takeshi to withhold judgment from MOSS. It seems plausible for Takeshi to wait until he acquire more evidence about his cost context before passing judgment on MOSS. However, in the same example, now under the Belief-Cost view, it seems to make very little sense for Takeshi to not hold any beliefs about his cost context and to wait until he acquires more beliefs about his cost context to pass judgment on MOSS. One might object further that, on the Belief-Cost view, it is not a matter of how many beliefs Takeshi has about his cost context but rather if Takeshi’s beliefs are justified. Whereas on the Evidence-Cost view, Takeshi withholds judgment from MOSS to wait to acquire more pieces of evidence about his cost context, on the Belief-Cost view, Takeshi waits to acquire justified beliefs about his cost context. However, as seen in the preceding section, even if we modify the Belief-Cost view to talk about only justified beliefs about Takeshi’s cost context, the view still leads to intuitively erroneous conclusions.
Thus, for these reasons, I believe Evidence-Cost is the most plausible intermediate Evidence-Cost view of the three I examine in this paper.

Some days you write a lot because you want the words to sing. You want them to fly off the page like birds, fluttering wings and feathers lifting to the sky in a gust of wind, taking each and every single letter, the f’s black curls, the bend corners on the N’s and the crosses on the t’s, the b’s pot bellied bottom lifting, lifting, lifting to a place you wanted them to be, arranged in the shape you wanted them to be in. All of these things you wanted to say to someone somewhere, someone that would understand, or at least try, because what else is there really in this world besides you, you, you and you alone, here, alone. Trying, trying to be heard, to express the small things, not even the big ideas or anything, just the small things that grip your heart and twist and twist the muscles until the blood stops flowing and you stop thinking about anything else. Is there more to this? Where all you want to do is weep because you feel like you’ve lost the time you once had to do the things you loved. Because you’re not fourteen or fifteen or eighteen anymore and you want those days back even though you have so many more ahead of you and yet you already want those days back because you used to be freer even when you didn’t know back it then, you used to be freer. You were untethered and open and possible. You, the you that you are today, was only possible back in the dim hallways with the pale yellow lockers and the broken escalators and everything else that you once hated. What you would give to tramp up and down those halls in that jacket you still wear but do not feel the same in anymore. Some days you want back you cannot have back and all you have are the days yet to come and that is exactly what terrifies you. They do not know the meaning of stop or how to stop or want to stop and they roll forward, on and on, without you but taking you. Do you want to see those days again? When everyone was still together, in that big group, you had a group, and nothing was done except for the sake of doing. You paid attention in classes you cared about when the teachers got your attention and taught and held on to your attention somehow. Not because you are terrified of failing, terrified of not being able to make, but it was just something that had to be done and you did what you did. To live in the bliss of ignorance is something you want back so badly, so undeniably that you end up writing in the second person. Maybe, to avoid knowing that you don’t want the future and you just want the past because at least hindsight is settled and certain and there is no guesswork involved no frightening possibilities unresolved because the you back then, the you in the past is definite, delineated in memories and murmurs and resentment that has long vanished and feelings that don’t ring out anymore but you still want to make the words sing because maybe words can take you back to that place, those hallways, those people, the September sky from the ninth floor bathroom, the way the seventh floor smelled like science and chemicals and how you used to do physics experiments in the hallways and linger in the staircases until way after dark trying to compete and do things with your life while people went off to the ivy league and you chose to stay here and never leave and you are still here So in some ways maybe nothing has changed at all but that might just a cognitive defect. There are things you want back. Time to just sit with a book or a show or a manga and read and watch and enjoy and be with it for a while and live away from here, disappear into the night of this world and out in the brilliance of another, distant, somewhere else where you are not you the agent the actor the free will illusion taken from you by another mind dictating the characters and words and actions and you are free to just enjoy. Is there such disdain for those who simply watch, voyeurs trying to escape choice. Choice, choice, choice. All I want is the lack of choice. To be, mindlessly, be. If that is at all possible. To misplace my commas, to split my infinitives, leave the periods, forget subjects and clauses and everything. I want my words to sing but really just to sing to me because some days I have no one else to say these things to, no one who would listen because it is hard to listen, even for me, to words you do not understand but that is all there is in this world, the sound of keys struck over and over again, my attempts to say something to someone that no one would hear. It has always been this way and back then I used to want to say things to other people but the older I get, the farther I move forward into, onto, towards other possibilities, the more I realize I’ve always wanted to just say things to myself. And even I don’t have time anymore to listen to that.

Some days you just sit at home and be not really okay with yourself. And just freak out about nothing. Nothing at all. Just freaking out about stuff. Like law school. Like Japanese. LIKE YOUR THESIS WHICH YOU ARE NOT WRITING AND YOU DON”T KNOW WHY YOU CAN”T BRING YOURSELF TO WRITE THE GODDAMN THING BUT YOU JUST ARE NOT WRITING ANYTHING WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF AND YOU HAVE TO MAKE AN APPOINTMENT WITH RICHARDSON TO TALK ABOUT ADVISING AND REGISTRATION AND GRDUATIOANDASDS.

I AM SERIOUSLY NOT VERY OKAY. I AM NOT OKAY. OMG.

Some days you just sit at home and be not really okay with yourself. And just freak out about nothing. Nothing at all. Just freaking out about stuff. Like law school. Like Japanese. LIKE YOUR THESIS WHICH YOU ARE NOT WRITING AND YOU DON”T KNOW WHY YOU CAN”T BRING YOURSELF TO WRITE THE GODDAMN THING BUT YOU JUST ARE NOT WRITING ANYTHING WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF AND YOU HAVE TO MAKE AN APPOINTMENT WITH RICHARDSON TO TALK ABOUT ADVISING AND REGISTRATION AND GRDUATIOANDASDS.

I AM SERIOUSLY NOT VERY OKAY. I AM NOT OKAY. OMG.
What am I doing with my life. I have so much work to do and all I’m doing now is watching this movie while waiting to watch another movie. While not really doing the important work that I have to do while not doing anything that I have to do. I have to understand and finish reading these papers so I can write something moderately cohesive to give to Jim next week. I have to write this cript. I gotta get my ceramics projects together, literlaly and start working on the wheel throwing thing. I am so screwed right now. So screwed. I don’t even know. I feel really bad because well shit. I don’t know how I did on that Japanese test. How could Ihave spelled Jeans wrong. Jeans man. Of all the things I had to get wrong. And maybe that’s the tip of the ice berg. I would have caught that last time. I totally would have caught that last time. I didn’t have nearly enough time as I did last time to sit and think about things. I feel like I also got something on the listening wrong. My listening isn’t strong at all. I just don’t know. I don’t want to think about it but I also keep thinking about it. My stanrads. I just want to be okay at this so I don’t fail and be upset with myself but I’m flailing anyways. Just some sad fish without fins even worse than a magikarp. I am so sasd. So sad.
I feel like crap somedays. I’ve been feeling like crap for a long time. Confused. Sad. Something like that. I wish I knew what I was doing. I wish I knew what I was doing. I wish I knew I what I was doing. I wish I knew. But I do not. I wish I knew. I wish I knew. I am so sad. So sad. What am doing. What am I doing. What am I doing. Everything is falling apart around me like a cookie that was baked too long. That’s a horrible metaphor. Like, snow crumbling, or sand, or salt, like something dying slowly, like brow sugar I tried to pack but it didn’t work or something. I wish I knew. I wish I knew. What am I doing next semester. I want to write again. I wish I had ideas and was creative or something to that effect. I wish I knew.
My GPA, my thesis. Everything. What am I doing. The semester is almost over. I don’t want to know at all. I don’t want to know. I don’t want to know. I wish they would tell me and I still don’t want to know. I wish I knew.
It’s a Friday night, Saturday morning and all I’m doing is watching these movies. I wish I knew.
I wish the world made more sense to me. I wish things worked out better. I don’t even know what I’m feeling right now. Well at least I don’t have it as bad as she has it. I wouldn’t know what to do. But then my problems would be a totally different set of problems if I were in his shoes. I wish I had different problems just to try them on for size. Myabe I’d be able to handle different problems better.
I wish I could trade away my problems for a day, like slippoing out of some old clothes, into some fresh ones. A new suit, or something. Like a snake, a shapeshifter. Just to see. What is that like. Just to see. And then maybe I’ll come right back to my old problems, maybe. And they’d be familiar, like home. Maybe I’d know how to deal with it better. Maybe I’d never come back. I don’t want to come back. I just want to let go/ Forever. Of here. I don’t want to stay here.

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Licenses – temporary invitations, permissible entries to land, revocable by owner (with exceptions)
Easements – rights to do specific kinds of acts on land owned by someone else, intended to be permanent (or for some period), not revocable by owner at will
Affirmative easement – right to do something on someone else’s land
Negative easement – agreeing to not do something on your own land
Affirmative covenant – a duty to do something on your land for benefit of others
Servitudes – various non-possessory interests one can have in land belonging to someone else, run with the land (servitude is appurtenant to ownership of dominant estate whose owner benefits from the use of the servitude on the servient estate (land burdened by the servitude))
Issues
Temporary or permanent – licenses or easements
Creation – formal or informal, express or implied
Scope of the permitted use
Relocation
Transferability
Running with the land
Termination
Interpretation and regulation
Implied easements – are created by law when the express agreement is either silent or ambiguous on the question of whether the granted intended to create easement, easement by estoppel and constructive trust, implied from prior use, necessity
Easement by estoppel – owner gives permission to someone else to use her land in some way and the licensee invest substantially in reasonable reliance on that permission and revocation of the license work be unjust (only if reliance is reasonable and the permission had the impression that it would not be revoked)

Question Presented: Can an employee successfully assert a claim for hostile or abusive work environment based on gender discrimination under Title VII when (1) her department chairperson never said or did anything offensive or blatantly sexual to the employee in the workplace except on two occasions during off-hours gatherings when the chairperson had been drinking, (2) the employee felt “uncomfortable” in the presence of the chairperson in and out of the workplace, (3) felt that her relationship with the chairperson was “unworkable” and requested to be taken off a case they had been working on together, (4)

Brief Answer: Probably not.

Facts:

Discussion:

Jennifer Green, a former employee of Adam & Fosters, likely will not succeed in asserting a hostile or abusive work environment claim based on gender discrimination against her former employer under Title VII of the Civil Rights Act of 1964. Green likely will not be able to establish that the discriminatory conduct she suffered was sufficiently severe or pervasive to create an objectively hostile or abusive work environment.

Hostile or Abusive Work Environment Claims Based on Gender Discrimination under Title VII of the Civil Rights Act of 1964

Under Title VII of the Civil Rights Act of 1964, it is unlawful for “an employer…to discriminate against any individual with respect to his compensation, terms, conditions, or privileges of employment, because of such individual’s race, color, religion, sex, or national origin.” See Harris. The Supreme Court has interpreted Title VII broadly to make an employer’s “requiring [its employees] to work in a discriminatorily hostile or abusive environment” an actionable offense under the statute. Id. The court reasoned that Congress intended to “strike at the entire spectrum of disparate treatment of men and women in employment” such that Title VII’s scope as a “broad rule of workplace equality” should not be “limited to economic or tangible discrimination.” Id. Harris. Both the 2nd Circuit and the Eastern District of New York have also adopted the Supreme Court’s broad interpretation of Title VII. See Kaytor. See Morris.

Under the Court’s broad interpretation of Title VII, an employer may be held liable if an employee suffers discriminatory “intimidation, ridicule, and insult” that is sufficiently severe or pervasive to alter her work conditions and to create a “hostile or abusive work environment.” Harris. To constitute a violation of Title VII, an employee must show that (1) she suffered discriminatory conduct based on her gender, (2) the conduct created an environment that she, as the victim of abuse, subjectively perceived as hostile or abusive, and (3) the conduct created an environment that a reasonable person would find objectively hostile or abusive. Harris. If the conduct does not objectively create a hostile or abusive environment, or if the employee does not subjectively perceive the environment to be hostile or abusive, “there is no Title VII violation.” Harris.

To determine whether a work environment is hostile or abusive, the court will likely look at the “the totality of the circumstances,” taking into consideration relevant factors such as: (1) the frequency and (2) severity of the discriminatory conduct, (3) whether the conduct was physically threatening or humiliating, or a mere offensive utterance, and (4) whether it unreasonably interfered with the employee’s work performance. The court may consider “the nature of the workplace environment as whole” but “no single factor” is required in their analysis. Harris, Morris. Mere utterance which offends an employee’s feelings, however, will generally “not sufficiently affect the conditions of employment” to constitute a violation of Title VII. Harris. Likewise, isolated incidents will also generally not constitute a violation of Title VII “unless they are extraordinarily severe.” Kaytor.

Employer’s discriminatory conduct was based on the employee’s gender

The employee likely will establish that she was discriminated against because of her gender even though her supervisory employee’s conduct was not sexual in nature. An employer’s discriminatory conduct “need not be motivated by sexual desire…so long as it was motivated by gender.” Kaytor. In Kaytor, the plaintiff’s male manager “never touched [the plaintiff] in a violent or sexual way, never asked her for sex, never asked her out on a date,” but often commented on the plaintiff’s clothes and physique, and often leered at her body. Id. The court held that a jury should be entitled to consider whether the manager’s conduct, though “not sexual in nature,” was motivated by the plaintiff’s gender. Id.

In the present case, Grey’s “attention” to Green may qualify as discrimination on the basis of her gender. Just like the manager in Kaytor, Grey never asked Green to have sex with him, never suggested that her job depended on having sex with him, and never asked her out on a date. He did, however, make comments about Green’s clothes and would sometimes stare at her in the workplace. Though perhaps not “sexual in nature,” the court may conclude that Grey’s “attention” to Green was motivated by her gender.

Employee subjectively perceived the work environment to be hostile or abusive

Doesn’t need tangible psychological injury
No single factor is required, consider all circumstances
Past courts have used the employee’s own testimony, account of circumstances, and actions to determine whether the employee subjectively viewed her work environment

The employee will likely meet the subjective standard of Harris’ holding. To satisfy the subjective standard, an employee does not need to show that she suffered “tangible psychological injury” as a result of her employer’s conduct, only that she subjectively perceived her work environment to be hostile or abusive. Harris. Additionally, courts will consider “all the circumstances” in determining if an employee subjectively perceived her environment to be hostile or abusive. Previous courts have used an employee’s psychological well-being, her testimony or account of the facts,

In Harris, the plaintiff employee worked as a manager for the defendant employer, an equipment rental company whose president, Charles Hardy, often insulted her with unwanted sexual innuendos in front of other employees and customers. Id. The plaintiff complained directly to Hardy about his conduct but he continued to sexually harass the plaintiff at work. Id. As a result, the plaintiff quit her job and filed a discriminatorily abusive work environment claim against the company under Title VII. Id.

The Court of Appeals, ruling in favor of the defendant, held that Hardy’s conduct did not “seriously affect [the plaintiff’s] psychological well-being.” Id. The Supreme Court, however, reversed the appellate court’s judgment and held that Title VII does not require the plaintiff’s work environment to be “psychologically injurious” so long as she perceives the environment to be hostile or abusive. Id. The Court explained that any discriminatorily hostile or abusive work environment, “even one that does not seriously affect employees’ psychological well-being,” offends Title VII’s “broad rule of workplace equality.” Id.

Harris. While no single factor is required, previous courts have considered factors such as (1) an employee’s psychological well-being, (2) an employee’s own testimony or self-reports, and (3) whether or not an employee complained about her work environment to gauge an employee’s subjective perception of her work environment. See also Kaytor (holding that the plaintiff “plainly” viewed her work environment as hostile or abusive because she complained repeatedly not only to her coworkers and her union but also to her manager and employer despite being “nervous” and “severely frightened”).

In the present case, the court will likely consider “all the circumstances” in determining if Green subjectively perceived her work environment to be hostile or abusive. See Harris (holding that no single factor is required in determining “whether the plaintiff actually found the environment abusive”). Unlike the plaintiff in Harris who confronted her harasser directly and unlike the plaintiff in

Objectively

In present case, Grey’s “attention” to Green stopped after she complained to Tam and asked to be taken off the case. Although he wrote a scathing review,

Moreover, unlike the manager in Kaytor, Grey never made comments about Green’s physique or leered at her body.

in determining if the manager discriminated against the plaintiff on the basis of gender. Id. In sexual harassment claims, the court reasoned, discriminatory conduct should not be viewed in “piecemeal fashion” as the harasser’s “state of mind and intent…may often be inferred from the totality of the relevant facts.” Id.

In sexual harassment claims, the court reasoned, discriminatory conduct should not be viewed in “piecemeal fashion” as the harasser’s “state of mind and intent…may often be inferred from the totality of the relevant facts.” Id. See also Morris (the defendant employer made comments about “women’s role in the workplace” and asked a male employee to purchase “clothes and high-heeled shoes” for the plaintiff).

After the plaintiff rejected her manager’s “advances,” he began insulting the plaintiff’s body and genitalia in front of other employees and threatened the plaintiff with physical violence and harm. Id.

The Court of Appeals vacated the district court’s grant of summary judgment for the defendant employer, holding that the district court incorrectly disregarded the manager’s conduct that was “not sexual in nature.”

Even though the manager’s conduct was not “sexual in nature” the Kaytor court held that such c

The court will likely look at “the totality of the relevant facts” in determining whether the conduct was gender-based as sexual harassment claims require “an assessment of individuals’ motivations and state of mind”. Id.

The male supervisory employee’s conduct – commenting on Green’s clothes, occasionally staring at her, sharing and asking for personal information at lunch –

See also Harris (the defendant employer sexually harassed not only the plaintiff but other female employees as well). See also Morris (the defendant employer made comments about “women’s role in the workplace” and asked a male employee to purchase “clothes and high-heeled shoes” for the plaintiff).

It is unclear whether Grey paid other female employees similar attention,

Versus Harris where Hardy targeted not only the plaintiff but other female employees
Versus Morris where the employer made comments about “women’s role in the workplace” and made another employee purchase “clothes and high-heeled shoes” for the plaintiff

Employee subjectively perceived her work environment to be hostile or abusive

The employee will likely meet the subjective standard of Harris’ holding given that her male supervisor’s attention, comments, and behavior made her feel “uncomfortable” on multiple occasions and she eventually requested to be taken off the case they had been working on together. To meet the subjective standard, the employee must establish that she personally perceived the work environment to be hostile or abusive. Harris. See Kaytor.

In Kaytor, for example, the plaintiff employee alleged that the defendant employer maintained a hostile work environment by discriminating against her on the basis of her gender. Id. The plaintiff’s manager made

While the employee does not need to prove that she suffered “tangible psychological injury” as a result her employer’s discriminatory conduct, the employee must prove that she personally perceived the work environment to be hostile or abusive.
“It is axiomatic that to prevail on a hostile work environment based on gender discrimination, the plaintiff must establish that the abuse was based on her gender.”

The discriminatory conduct was based on the employee’s gender

The employee will likely establish that the supervisor’s discriminatory conduct was based on her gender. “It is axiomatic that to prevail on a hostile work environment based on gender discrimination, the plaintiff must establish that the abuse was based on her gender.” See Kaytor. To constitute gender-based discriminatory conduct, the conduct “need not be motivated by sexual desire…so long as it was motivated by gender.” Id. Moreover, “facially neutral incidents” may also be considered among the “totality of relevant facts” if there is “circumstantial or other basis” for inferring that the incidents were based on the employee’s gender. See Kaytor.

The employee subjectively perceived the work environment to be hostile or abusive

The employee will likely establish that she subjectively viewed her work environment as hostile or abusive given that Grey’s attention, comments, and behavior made her feel “uncomfortable” on multiple occasions and she eventually requested to be taken off the case she and Grey had been working on together. In order for an employer’s discriminatory conduct to alter an employee’s working conditions, the employee must personally consider her work environment to be hostile or abusive. Harris.

She received unwanted comments and attention from her supervisor which made her “uncomfortable” and Grey’s conduct and behavior eventually made their workplace relationship “unworkable.”

and made their workplace relationship “unworkable.” After Green asked to be taken off the case Green also asked to be transferred off his case, and after being transferred she stopped receiving good assignments and received her first negative review.

Unless the employee subjectively perceives the environment to be hostile or abusive, the discriminatory conduct

The work environment was not objectively hostile or abusive

The discriminatory conduct was not severe or pervasive

Whereas in Kaytor, McCarthy began making sexually inappropriate comments and engaging in sexually aggressive behavior

An employer may be liable for requiring an employee to work in an objectively hostile or abusive environment even if the employer takes no “tangible employments actions…by formally altering a worker’s employment status.” Morris. So long as the discriminatory conduct subjectively and objective

Going along with Congress’s intent to “strike at the entire spectrum of disparate treatment of men and women in employment,” the court adopted a broad interpretation of the statute to include “requiring people to work in a discriminatorily hostile or abuse environment.” Harris. The phrase “terms, conditions, or privileges of employment” is not limited to “‘economic’ or ‘tangible’ discrimination.” Harris.

may be able to establish that she suffered discriminatory conduct because of her gender and that she subjectively perceived such conduct as creating a hostile or abusive work environment, she likely will not be able to establish that sufficiently severe or pervasive to create an objectively hostile or abusive work environment.

Under Title VII of the Civil Rights Act of 1964, will an employee’s hostile or abusive work environment claim based on gender discrimination succeed against her former employer succeed under Title 7 of the Civil Rights Act of 1964 if her department chairperson commented about her clothing and stared at her, possibly propositioned her once and touched her once during off-hours gatherings, repeatedly asked her out to lunch and made one arguably sexual remark to her during that lunch, wrote the employee’s first negative work evaluation after she requested to no longer work with him, but never said or did anything overtly or blatantly offensive or sexual to her in the workplace and she never reported or complained at his conduct to coworkers or superiors?

1) Parties – State – Welch (government, criminal)
2) Place
a) Jurisdiction – Federal, 2nd Circuit, District courts of the 2nd Circuit
b) Location – Welch’s apartment in Morningside Heights
3) Facts
a) June 18, 2014 – three individuals robbed the New York Federal Reserve Bank in Lower Manhattan, armed with assault rifles, taking dozens of gold bars
b) September, 2014 (3 months later) – FBI informant gave information that Bob Welch participated in the bank heist and still had the gold bars stashed in his apartment because the robbers could not sell them
c) Warrant was issued limiting scope of search to the gold and weapons used in robbery
d) September 17, 2014 – Three FBI agents searched Welch’s apartment when no one was present
i) Living room – Perfect fond a film canister with “33” on the label, canister looks just like a regular film canister for high-end cameras
(1) Perfect has 10 years of experience and knows that blueprints for robberies are contained on microfiche, which are stored in film canisters to protect from light, the NY Fed Reserve is located at 33 Liberty Street
(2) Another agent later opened the canister, pursuant to valid warrant, and found blueprints inside
ii) Kitchen – Fleetwood saw a piece of paper under a bucket with its content mostly obscured by the bucket, curious, he pulled the paper from beneath the bucket and found that it was a list of gold prices and signed by “Robert Lawrence Welch”
iii) Bathroom – Nicks noticed a medicine bottle on the shelf in the sink, tinted with pills inside. Bottle opened later, another agent found illegal amphetamines.
4) Claims
a) Welch – the items from his apartment were seized illegally, constitutional rights
b) State – there was a valid search warrant and the items seized fall under that search warrant
5) Relief
6) Question Presented
a) Is the evidence seized from a suspect’s apartment pursuant to a warrant limiting scope of the search to gold stolen from and weapons used in the robbery of the New York Federal Reserve seized legally if the agent knew from experience that robbers tend to store microfiche in film canister and the label on the canister corresponded to the address number of the Federal Reserve and turned out to contain blueprints, the agent was “curious” as to why a piece of paper was “hidden” beneath a bucket in the kitchen which contained list of gold prices and the suspect’s name, the agent saw a tinted, unlabeled medicine bottle on the shelf and seized it which later turned out to contain illegal amphetamines?
7) Search terms
a) Evidence, search and seizure, illegal, search warrant, scope of search warrant, search of home or resident or dwelling
b) Seizures, evidence
c) Bank robbery, heist, robbery, armed robbery
d) Gold, stolen property
8) Criminal law treatise, constitutional law treatise
The employee will likely meet the subjective standard of Harris’ holding. To satisfy the subjective standard, an employee does not need to show that she suffered “tangible psychological injury” as a result of her employer’s conduct, only that she subjectively perceived her work environment to be hostile or abusive. Harris. The court will likely consider “all the circumstances” in determining if an employee perceived her work environment to be hostile or abusive. Harris. While no single factor is required, previous courts have taken into consideration factors such as (1) an employee’s psychological well-being, (2) an employee’s own testimony or self-reports, and (3) whether or not an employee complained about her work environment in assessing an employee’s subjective perception of her work environment. See Harris (holding that no single factor is required in determining “whether the plaintiff actually found the environment abusive.”) See also Kaytor (holding that the plaintiff “plainly” viewed her work environment as hostile or abusive because she complained repeatedly not only to her coworkers and her union but also to her manager and employer despite being “nervous” and “severely frightened”). There is, however, no “mathematically precise test.” Harris.

In Harris, the plaintiff employee worked as a manager for the defendant employer, an equipment rental company whose president, Charles Hardy, often insulted her with unwanted sexual innuendos in front of other employees and customers. Id. The plaintiff complained directly to Hardy about his conduct but he continued to sexually harass the plaintiff at work. Id. As a result, the plaintiff quit her job and filed a discriminatorily abusive work environment claim against the company under Title VII. Id.

The Court of Appeals, ruling in favor of the defendant, held that Hardy’s conduct did not “seriously affect [the plaintiff’s] psychological well-being.” Id. The Supreme Court, however, reversed the appellate court’s judgment and held that Title VII does not require the plaintiff’s work environment to be “psychologically injurious” so long as she perceives the environment to be hostile or abusive. Id. The Court explained that any discriminatorily hostile or abusive work environment, “even one that does not seriously affect employees’ psychological well-being,” offends Title VII’s “broad rule of workplace equality.” Id.

The present case is similar to Harris. Although Green

In the present case, not only did Grey’s conduct make Green feel “uncomfortable,” but she eventually regarded her relationship with him to be “unworkable” and asked to stop working with him.

Moreover, courts h

She was initially flattered but then his attention became uncomfortable, especially after they went to lunch. Like in Kaytor, the plaintiff initially tried to ignore her manager’s conduct.
After the Christmas party incident, she felt that their relationship was no longer “workable” and asked to stop working with him. But, just as in Kaytor, the work environment became unbearable and she asked to be transferred.
She thought she received “good” assignments and did receive good reviews until she asked to be taken off the case, at which point she stopped receiving good reviews and good assignments.
Grey can argue that the good assignments thing is not an issue and they let her go not because of her gender or anything

given that her male supervisory employee’s conduct made her feel “uncomfortable,” she asked to stop working with him, and after being transferred away from her supervisor she no longer received “good” assignments

See also Kaytor (holding that the plaintiff “plainly” viewed her work environment as hostile or abusive because she complained repeatedly not only to her coworkers and her union but also to her manager and employer despite being “nervous” and “severely frightened”). See also Morris (

repeated complaints to her coworkers, her union, her company, and eventually her manager himself evidenced that the plaintiff “plainly” subjectively viewed her work environment as abusive and hostile).

The present case is similar to Harris. Just as the plaintiff in Harris took steps against Hardy’s discriminatory conduct, first by confronting him directly then by quitting her job altogether, Green also tried to avoid Grey’s unwanted “attention.” She repeated

Just as the plaintiff in Harris did not suffer serious psychological injury, Green, presumably, did not have an emotional breakdown as a result of Grey’s conduct and comments. However, just as the plaintiff in Harris did not

First, this is not a case where Green suffered any tangible psychological injury as a result of Grey’s actions or comments. She, like the plaintiff in Harris, may have been uncomfortable with Grey and found her relationship with Grey to be “unworkable” or intolerable because of his conduct and comments. Just like the plaintiff in Harris, once Grey’s conduct and comments reached an intolerable level after the annual firm Christmas party, Green requested to be taken off the case.

See also Kaytor (holding that the plaintiff’s numerous complaints to coworkers, her union, and her employer about her manager’s discriminatory conduct “plainly”

See also Kaytor (

In Kaytor, the plaintiff employee alleged that the defendant employer maintained a hostile work environment by discriminating against her on the basis of her gender. Id. The plaintiff’s manager often stared and leered at the plaintiff’s body, made blatant and offensive sex-based comments about the plaintiff and her genitalia, and on numerous occasions threatened to choke or kill the plaintiff. Id.

The court held that the plaintiff “plainly…subjectively viewed her working

I normally don’t post for the sake of posting…

On the end of the first semester of 1L…but can we call it the end if not all of my grades are in but the next semester technically started already?

Well:

Not all of my grades are in
I’m getting the memo assignment back tomorrow
I probably actually failed contracts
It didn’t go as poorly as I thought it would
Gee, I wish I did better than F1 in certain classes (but I’m really going to have to let that go because what’s done has been done)
I missed some job deadlines and are about to embark on weird job things I have never done before so I’m all confused and I wish I didn’t have to think about it

I’ve been writing these weird blog posts about my school life problems for years. In fact, most of my early blogs as a kid were all about this kind of stuff and I guess it never really goes away. In the next chapter of my strange life I’m going to just about work life problems instead of grades and school life things.

I remember when I got into Stuy and I told my mom that I was about to begin a new chapter in my life. Looking back at that particular junction in time, I think I was happily naive and I kinda miss some of that. I had none of that happy I’m going to be with my best friends (I wasn’t wrong about that one at least — those people are, by and large, still my best friends, actually) forever and we’re going to do super well and be super happy and keep in touch forever la la la all the while playing Maple Story and Halo forever on the weekends yay! joy kinda thing didn’t happen for college and sure as hell didn’t happen for law school. I mean, I was the only one going to law school. I am the only one in law school. I was scared shitless before law school and spent all my time thinking about the crushing weight of life and work and all that shit and I’m still kinda…thinking about that but in a more realistic (this is a lie) way? I doubt it. I’m still maddeningly insecure about everything, not satisfied with my grades, scared about my grades, and just a fucking mess generally.

I wish, at some point, that some of this fear and what-not, about life, would just go away.

I’ve come to realize that, probably, all of this is just part of who I am. I mean, I guess if I go back and read some of this stuff, I really haven’t changed all that much and I’m just running in circles around the same three things over and over again but, fuck. Who knows. At least 50% of it didn’t turn out as badly as I thought it would turn out. Now I have 5/6 semesters left to go and my whoooole fucking life ahead of me. Ha. Haha. Ha. Ha. Ha. I used to want to write a book about my life — some kind of memoir — keep all of my memories in one place. Probably because I was young enough where I remembered all the details of everything — now my days just blend together into some weird blurry paste of thought and eventually I just let them go, a bunch of though balloons launching into the sky and most of it, like what I had for dinner or the exact date of what happens when, just disappear into the stratosphere and explode somewhere high above the earth, like I wish my problems would but my fat, aching body anchors all of that sharply into my conscious reality so I can never quite escape from their particular brand of incessant torment.

I’ll figure it out. I think, one day. Some day. Now I want to write a book about all the things I have forgotten. Everything I remember is shitty. Embarrassing moments, people I think I have been wronged by, people I want to go back and just punch in the fucking face. Revenge is a good thing. Punching people in the face is a good thing. I think.

So…more. I found more of this.

I have to sleep but I don’t feel okay. My internal sadness, apprehension, sickness, whatever the fuck it is that is bothering me so bad is manifesting it through my inability to crack a Sorin. I just blew nearly one hundred fifty dollars to try to get one card worth not even a third of that amount. I have problems. I have issues. I feel inadequate. Chelsea cracked a Sorin and good mythics. I crack crap. But then again, there are more important things at stake here, such as my school work and job propsects. Usually, I tend to think these thoughts to make myself better when I compare myself to her, or just as a cheer me when I think of rising GPA, but this semester is already off to bad start. I’ve neglected my schoolwork for various reasons. I can’t get a job, at all. And, well, fuck, I don’t sleep. I don’t get shit done. I feel like crap. Like Crap. There are papers due for things I didn’t even read or understand. I just want to tear my hair off and cry. Coffee is needed her to sustain me through my classes so I can learn something and work on my paper that is due next Monday. I can just sleep through my first class and be awake for my second, something like that. We can try that. Writing always calms me down but the second I stop I know I won’t be okay again. I can feel it coming back, that feeling in my chest that makes me sad, that makes me sick, I don’t know what it is, but its not going away and I’m scared. I wish Allen didn’t have to sleep. I want to be comforted like a small child, or a whimpering puppy in the arms of someone loving, comforting and just….calming. I don’t even know, I just want someone to hold me and tell me that it will be okay and then I actually want it to be okay. I want to get a job instead of just going to useless interviews and being rejected. I just want a job. I should have just accepted that unpaid internship and kept looking. I’m so scared. And now I don’t have time. I am just soscared. So, scared. I will I was skinnier. I will I had actual talent. I wish I wasn’t a philosophy major so people will take me seriously and just give me a goddamn job, even though I am getting response, I completely forgot to respond to that guy from Citelighter. I need to do that.

1. What is the problem or question that Descartes is trying to address in his discussion? Is it the same or different from the problem Hume is trying to address?
a. Hume
i. Hume wants to figure out what is the case that makes us believe in the existence of body. He takes for granted that a body exists in the first place.
ii. He wants to find out the nature laws, like Newton did, and not give the underlying reason why.
b. Descartes
i. Descartes wants to, in a way, remove his grounds for doubt. In the first meditation, Descartes wants to find out what he can be certain out. But, everything is subject to doubt because he can experience everything he experiences now in a dream, or God is deceiving him. In getting rid of his grounds for doubt, he can know what is absolutely certain.
c. Similarities and differences
i. While Descartes is concerned with what he can be certain of, if there is anything he can be certain of, Hume takes for granted that there is something he can already be certain of (whether his body exists or not) and is concerned with what makes us believe in the existence of the body. Hume says, suppose we have a body, what causes to believe that it exists? Descartes says, suppose we are always dreaming or God is always deceiving us, what can we be certain of? Can we be certain that our bodies exist?
2. Is Descartes more or less successful than Hume in addressing the problem (or are they equally successful)? Is it fair to say that Descartes is trying to defeat skepticism about the external world while Hume defends it? What does “skepticism” mean in each case?
a. Hume
i. Skepticism for Hume is to know that everything that happens in the external world is a probability and cannot be deduced and induced from anything.
b. Descartes
i. Descartes is trying to defeat skepticism about the external world because he wants to find out what he can be certain of and by the time he gets around to Meditation 6, he is again certain that he exists, his body exists, God exists and the external world exists.
ii. If he can no longer make errors, and he can connect present with past knowledge, knowing that the senses are more often than true and not false, he does not have to fear that his senses report to him false things and can reject his dreaming ground for doubt.
iii. Skepticism for Descartes is a methodological process of weeding out what is certain and what is uncertain.
c. Who is more successful?
i. Hume is more successful in my mind but both he and Descartes’ answers to the problem above are problematic.
ii. For Hume, the principle that all ideas are copies of impressions present difficulties.
iii. For Descartes, he relies on many innate principles in his proofs, such as the ambiguous innate light of nature which is supposed to make things clearly and distinctly perceivable. Light of nature is completely questionable and it is from this, and the fact that nothing greater can come from the lesser, that he proves the existence of God. And, in God’s perfect existence, he is benevolent, so Descartes removes God as a deceiver from his grounds for doubt. However, what the heck is the light of nature and what the heck does it mean to clearly and distinctly perceive anything?

What is Hume saying?

1. The Question
2.
1. The question
a. Descartes’ question
i. Descartes’ goal, at the beginning of meditation 1, is to establish a foundation for his beliefs by systematically removing all the beliefs of which he is not certain and leaving behind what he can be certain of.
ii. The question Descartes is asking is whether or not material things exist in the external world. At the beginning of meditation 6, he knows that pure mathematical things exist. Whatever he can clearly and distinctly perceive exist.
b. Hume’s question
i. Hume is asking what causes the belief that there is such an external world. He does not want to ask whether there is an external world, he wants to know what causes the belief to arise that there is such a world.
c. Similarities or differences?
i. The main difference between the question Descartes is asking and the question Hume is asking is that while Descartes wants to find out whether or not he can be certain of the existence of an external world, Hume takes this point to be for granted and instead, investigates what makes us believe that such an external world exists.
ii. Descartes believes that we cannot trust our senses with regard to the external world. If we consider a piece of wax, all the information we receive from the senses are constantly changing and the only aspect of the wax that remains the same is that the wax is extended in space. Even then, the wax is malleable and can take on an infinite number of configurations which prompts Descartes to conclude that we can only ever grasp things through a faculty of the mind. Thus, the question that Descartes asks is how can we be certain of an external world? How can we become certain that the external world exists through a faculty of our minds?
iii. Hume, on the other hand, believes that all of our ideas come from impressions. Every simple idea has a corresponding impression. This is the complete opposite of what Descartes believes. Instead of saying that only the mind can grasp what the wax is, Hume says that our senses provide us with impressions of the wax. All of our ideas that we receive from impressions are related through Hume’s principles of association, the strongest one being cause and effect. (?) Thus, the question Hume asks is what causes us to believe that the external world exists in the first place.
2. The answer?
a. Descartes’ response
i. He is certain of the external world because he can connect present with past knowledge using his senses.
ii. Is he trying to defeat skepticism about the external world?
1. In a way, Descartes is trying to defeat skepticism about the external world because he is trying to find what is absolutely certain by getting rid of his grounds for doubt, such as the dreaming doubt. He says that now he can get rid of the dreaming doubt because he is able to connect things with memory.
iii. What does skepticism mean for Descartes?
1. Skepticism for Descartes is a methodological process of finding out what is certain and what is uncertain. He believes that we cannot be certain of the information we receive from the senses.
b. Hume’s response
i. He tries to find out what causes our belief that the external world exists. Is it the senses, imagination or reason? It is not the senses, it is not reason, it must be imagination. Imagination gives rise to our belief of the external world. There is a particular quality in our impressions that makes us think their existence is continued and this quality is constancy. All objects that we think continually exist have constancy which is what makes them different from impressions, which are brief and perishable. But, bodies changes. So, continually existent objects also
ii. Is he trying to defend skepticism about the external world?
iii. What does skepticism mean for Hume?

1. What are they saying?
a. Descartes
i. Descartes is trying to find out what knowledge he can be absolutely certain of. His aim in the meditation is to establish a firm foundation for his beliefs. He gets rid of all of his present beliefs that he cannot establish as absolutely certain and tries to see what he has left with. He cannot trust his senses because everything he senses when he is awake, he can sense when is asleep. He might also just be deceived by God, who has the power to deceive him about anything, even math. So, Descartes’ goal is to try to get rid of these doubts and establish what he can be absolutely certain about, including the existence of the physical world.
ii. He establishes in the early meditations that he does grasp objects through the senses because the senses could be deceiving him. Even if it commonly accepted that what we grasp through the sense is most immediately, Descartes believes that because what we grasp through the senses changes and does not always remain in the object, the objects cannot be distinctly grasped through the senses.
iii. Because Descartes does not trust the senses, everything he establishes comes from the examination of his mind and he finds that in his mind there are these innate principles about the light of nature and God’s perfection and so on.
iv. Descartes also tries to establish the existence God, so he can remove God as a source of doubt. He does so by relying on many a priori or innate principles such as the light of nature.
b. Hume
i. Hume is trying to give you a complete picture of how people form beliefs, not what beliefs people can be certain of.
ii. Hume, on the other hand, begins by saying that every simple idea comes from an impression. We get impressions through the senses. There are no a priori principles or innate principles, every idea we have comes from some impressions. The grounds for believing some comes from experience and not by simply examining one’s mind.
iii. He divides everything into relations of ideas and matters of fact.
iv. All of these ideas are connected or related through the principles of association, the strongest of which is cause and effect. In fact, we cannot every be certain of anything because the only thing that ties together cause and effect is habit. We keep repeating the same actions and find out eventually
2. What is the problem or question they are trying to address? Is it the same or different problem?
a. Descartes
i. Descartes is addressing the question: does the physical world exist or not?
b. Hume
i. Hume is addressing the question: what causes us to believe the physical world exists?
c. Different
i. These questions are fundamentally different. Descartes wants to know whether the physical world exists or not while Hume takes for granted that world exists and wants to know what causes bring about this belief that the world exists?
3. Who is more successful or are they equally successful? Is it fair to say that Descartes is trying to defeat skepticism and Hume is defending skepticism about the external world? What does skepticism mean in each case?
a. In terms of addressing the problems that they pose, they are only successful insofar as they provide a response. Because the two questions are different, it is hard to gauge how much more successful one philosopher’s response is than the other’s. However, both responses have their own problems.
b. It would be fair to say the Descartes is trying to defeat skepticism. Having establish God’s existence, he uses his senses along with memory to conclude that he no longer has to fear that what his senses report to him may be false or that he may be in a dream.
c. Descartes’ skepticism is a methodology that he applies to his beliefs to find which ones are certain and which are not. His skepticism is broad in the sense that it applies to everything, even mathematical beliefs.
d. Descartes believes that the external world exists after establishing that God exists and that he can make mistakes. But, even if his senses are faulty but are most of the time good, he can get rid of his early dreaming doubt because memory can connect his present experiences with his past experiences. If someone, as in a dream, just plops down in front of him randomly, he can rely on his memory and realize that this man has no connection to any of previous experiences or his life in general whereas in a dream, he readily accepts that man’s being there as normal.
e. Hume, on the other hand, replies to his question by examining the possible causes of such a belief. It might have come from the senses, reasoning or the imagination. He concludes that neither sense nor reason can be responsible for an object’s continued existence.
f. Even though Hume provides a response to his question, he is actually defending skepticism about the external world.
Despite the differences between Descartes’ rationalist principles and Hume’s empiricist principles
One of the problems that Descartes confront in the Meditations is the question of whether or not an external, material world exists independently of himself.

In Meditations on First Philosophy, Descartes endeavors to find which of his beliefs he can be absolutely certain of, if any of them. He begins, in Meditation One, by subjecting the fundamental beliefs upon which all of his other beliefs are based to doubt. These fundamental beliefs arise either from the senses or through the senses but Descartes does not believe the senses to be reliable. First, the senses are occasionally wrong and it is not wise to trust the senses even if they are only mistaken once. Second, there is no difference between what he senses when he is awake and what he senses when is dreaming. It could just as well be the case that is constantly dreaming. Third, an all-powerful God may be deceiving him about the existence of the sky, the earth, shapes, and size, anything and everything he senses.
By Meditation Six, Descartes has already established that he exists solely as a thinking thing, God exists and God is not a deceiver. But, Descartes has yet to establish the existence of an external, material world. This is the problem that Descartes address in the Meditation Six: does such an external, material world exist? Descartes offers two arguments for the existence of the external, material world. The first relies on a distinction he draws between the intellect and the imagination. There are two distinct faculties, one of intellect and one of imagination. Earlier in the Meditations, Descartes uses the example of a 1000-sided figure, a chiliagon, to exemplify the difference between these two faculties. The intellect faculty can easily conceive of a 1000-sided figure because with the relevant concepts, it can conceive of a figure with one thousand sides. Yet, when we use our imagination to conceive of the chiliagon, the imagination faculty can only muster a vague image of some many-sided shape. In fact, there would be no difference between the imagination faculty’s conception of a 1000-sided figure and a 10,000-sided figure. In both cases, the imagination would bring up the same vague image of some many-sided shape that is neither precisely a 1000-sided shape nor a 10,000-sided shape.
With that said, the faculty of imagination requires, according to Descartes, a different and extra effort than that of the effort needed to employ the faculty of intellect. He attributes this distinction to the fact that there is a body attached to his mind. Whereas the faculty of intellect, when it understands, turns to look at the mind and the ideas in the mind, the faculty of imagination, when it imagines, turns to look at the body and something in the body that is associated with an idea in the mind or a sensory perception. An extra effort is required on the part of the faculty of imagination because Descartes’ mind is tending to something in the body that is not normally associated with the mind. Even if Descartes’ beliefs about the two distinct faculties could somehow prove the existence of an external, material world, given that his body exists and his mind and body are connected in such a way, he dismisses this argument as only a “probable conjecture” (Descartes).
In order to properly define the terms needed to make clear Descartes’ second argument, I will speak briefly about Descartes’ proof of God’s existence in Meditation Three. In his proof, Descartes uses the terms formal reality and objective reality. Formal reality is what something has in virtue of its existence. Objective reality, on the other hand, is the reality that is contained in representations. For example, a dozen blocks of ice all have the same formal reality insofar as each block of ice is a material thing. Now, suppose an ice sculptor carves each block of ice into different animals, each one of these ice sculptures now have different amounts of objective reality depending on what the sculpture represents. The ideas represented by each sculpture are what contain the objective reality while the ice blocks from which the sculptures are made contain the formal reality.
Moreover, Descartes’ proof is founded on several a priori principles, a priori meaning that the justification of these principles does not require anything beyond one’s mind. These principles do not need to be justified by any experience about the world because they can be justified by looking at the ideas already in one’s mind. On the other hand, a posteriori principles do require justification in the form of experience. They cannot be justified by the ideas in one’s mind alone. I believe that when Descartes refers principles shown to him by the mysterious “light of nature” to be indubitable in Meditation Three, he is referring to such a priori claims. He says, “whatever is shown [him] by the light of nature…cannot in anyway be doubtful” (Descartes). But, he provides no further explanation of what this light of nature is or why he believes claims that follow from it to be indubitable. Furthermore, the foundational claim in his proof of God’s existence – that the objective reality of a thought cannot be greater than the formal reality of its cause – is certain because it has been shown to him by this light of nature to be the case. What Descartes means by this claim is that if I were to have a thought about God, this thought of God must have come from somewhere, be it from myself, from the external world, or God.
After dismissing his first argument for the existence of an external, material world as mere probability, Descartes provides a second explanation which relies on what he refers to as his “great inclination” (Descartes) to believe that material things exist. God gave Descartes a great, innate propensity for believing in external, material objects. However, these external, material objects that he is greatly inclined to believe exists must have as much formal reality as his idea of those objects have objective reality. Again, if he has thoughts about external, material objects, then he must receive those thoughts from somewhere. The question remains: from where did he receive these thoughts? Descartes presents several possibilities for what causes these thoughts of external, material objects: a) something unknown faculty in him; 2) God; 3) external, material objects or 4) some other objects entirely. He rules out that the possibility of their being a faculty in him that produces these ideas because he, Descartes, exists as a fundamentally thinking thing and not an extended thing, which is what all of these external, material objects are. God cannot be the source of these thoughts as Descartes has already established that God is not a deceiver. If God were to have given Descartes both a great inclination to believe that external, material objects exist and no other faculty to determine whether or not such external, material objects actually do exist, then God would be a deceiver. But, because Descartes has established in Meditation Four that God is not a deceiver, Descartes concludes here in Meditation Six, that external, material objects exist.
Even after Descartes concludes that an external, material world exists, the Dreaming Doubt remains. In the last paragraph of Meditation Six, Descartes offers a solution to the Dreaming Doubt. By using his memory and his intellect, Descartes can now distinguish between being awake and being asleep. In dreams, it is typical for people or objects to suddenly appear or disappear. However, Descartes observes, this is not the case for when he is awake. If a man were to suddenly appear before him and he is not able to connect, using his memory, this experience of a man appearing suddenly before him, with a previous experience in his life that tells him where this man came from, then he can dismiss the man as a ghost or otherwise not real. There is no continuity between the events that happen in a dream as there is between events that happen when he is awake. Such continuity is what Descartes uses to remove the Dreaming Doubt.
Hume answers the problem of the external, material world using a completely different approach . In the first place, the question Hume addresses in The Treatise of Human Understanding is a different question from the one Descartes answers in Meditation Six. Whereas Descartes addresses the issue of whether or not an external, material world exists at all, Hume takes for granted that such a world does exist and instead, poses the problem of what causes us to believe in the existence of an external, material world?

Plausibility argument
There is a difference between two faculties I have, the faculty of thought and conception or of imagination and we notice they are different. If I ask you to think about a 1000 sided chilliagon, you can think about it clearly because you have the concepts but you cannot imagine it. The difference between imagining something, the point about the wax in meditation two. Why do you have these two things? You have an imagination because you have a thing attached to your mind that is a body, an extended thing and somehow your mind can turn to itself and tend to this attached body which is why it is hard because it is the mind tending to something that is not naturally associated with it. I can understand why there are these capacities that are different and I have them and why this one is easier and hard, it all makes sense if I think I have a mind and that’s a body and they are connected to each other. But, these arguments are plausible.

I have an innate inborn propensity to believe, I know I have these sensory things so they are giving me images of these extended things. They have the reality of extended shape eminently or formally, because you need at least as much reality in the cause of an idea formally or eminently as the idea has objectively. Something in me is capable of producing in me the idea of an extended object and whatever that cause is, it has in it either formally that shape meaning that it is that shape or it has that eminently like God who has the power to produce these things in me. There is a cause, I know it is not me and I am fundamentally thinking thing and not an extended thing. These appearances are either created in me by things that have the shapes or by something else that don’t have the shapes and furthermore I have an innate strong tendency to believe there are these shapes.
Strong tendency to believe there physical objects with these shapes. Either come from
Since God is not a deceiver, for god has not given me a faculty to find out there really are no shaped objects

Descartes However, because these external, material objects all have the reality, formally or eminently, of being an extended thing in space and

At the end of Meditation Six, Descartes concludes that the dreaming doubt in Meditation One is hyperbolic and ridiculous (Descartes). He can use his memory and his intellect, which Descartes believes to reliable having examined the potential sources of the intellect’s error and how to avoid them in Meditation Four, to distinguish between when he is awake and when he is dreaming. For example, if a man appeared suddenly in front of Descartes and he is unable to connect the man’s appearance through memory to a previous experience that explains how or why the man appeared suddenly in front of him, then Descartes would judge the man to not be real. This would have been impossible before Descartes proved the existence of God and established that God is not a deceiver. After all, how can he trust his senses or memory if he could be constantly deceived by an all-powerful God? And, even if Descartes is prone to errors, as long as he contains his judgments to what he is able to clearly and distinctly perceive with his mind, he will avoid making mistakes.
Descartes responds to the question, “Does the external world exist?” by first removing the doubts that he raises against his own beliefs in Meditation One. However, because Descartes relies on certain a priori principles in his proof of the existence of God, I do not believe that he has sufficiently dealt with the possibility of God’s existence as a deceiver. Descartes believes that whatever is shown to him by the “light of nature…cannot be in anyway doubtful” (Descartes 26) but he does not give any justification or even explanation of what this claim means. He basis his proof

He removes the skeptical doubts that he begins with in Meditation One, namely that he could be dreaming and that God could be a deceiver. Because Descartes rejects the view that knowledge comes from what we perceive through our senses, his proof in Meditation Three for God’s existence rests on certain innate, or a priori, principles of the mind. In order to find justification for these principles, we do not need to look beyond the contents of our minds; we do not need any experience to justify these principles. Again, Descartes is able to use the faculties of his mind alone to establish God’s existence as certain by positing the he has an innate idea of God which could not have originated in him. Furthermore, Descartes establishes that God is not a deceiver because, if God exists and his existence is perfection, deception cannot be a part of God’s perfection.

Descartes rejects that knowledge comes from the senses. In Meditation Two, after establishing that he himself exists solely as a thinking thing through the faculties of his mind, Descartes demonstrates that corporeal things are also grasped solely through the mind. He does so by using the example of a piece of wax. The aspects of the wax that we are able to perceive through our senses – the hardness of the wax, the fragrance of the wax and so on – are apt to change. By bringing the same piece of wax close to a fire, the wax loses its hardness, its fragrance and other sensory properties that we previously perceived through our senses. Even the imagination fails to grasp what the wax is: if the wax is a constantly changing, mutable thing then it is able to take on an infinite number of different shapes that is beyond the capabilities of our imagination. The mind, however, is able to grasp what the piece of wax really is: an extended thing in space. Thus, Descartes concludes that the mind alone is needed to perceive the wax is, not the senses or the imagination and this perception can either be confused or clear and distinct. Descartes then posits, at the beginning of Meditation Three, the general rule that everything he clearly and distinctly perceives with his mind is certain.

Plausibility argument
There is a difference between two faculties I have, the faculty of thought and conception or of imagination and we notice they are different. If I ask you to think about a 1000 sided chilliagon, you can think about it clearly because you have the concepts but you cannot imagine it. The difference between imagining something, the point about the wax in meditation two. Why do you have these two things? You have an imagination because you have a thing attached to your mind that is a body, an extended thing and somehow your mind can turn to itself and tend to this attached body which is why it is hard because it is the mind tending to something that is not naturally associated with it. I can understand why there are these capacities that are different and I have them and why this one is easier and hard, it all makes sense if I think I have a mind and that’s a body and they are connected to each other. But, these arguments are plausible.

I have an innate inborn propensity to believe, I know I have these sensory things so they are giving me images of these extended things. They have the reality of extended shape eminently or formally, because you need at least as much reality in the cause of an idea formally or eminently as the idea has objectively. Something in me is capable of producing in me the idea of an extended object and whatever that cause is, it has in it either formally that shape meaning that it is that shape or it has that eminently like God who has the power to produce these things in me. There is a cause, I know it is not me and I am fundamentally thinking thing and not an extended thing. These appearances are either created in me by things that have the shapes or by something else that don’t have the shapes and furthermore I have an innate strong tendency to believe there are these shapes.
Earlier in Meditation Two, Descartes gives the example of a piece of wax to show that only the mind, not the senses, can come to understand material things. It can also be applied here to demonstrate the difference between the faculty of imagination and of intellect. The aspects of the wax that Descartes is able to perceive through his senses – the hardness of the wax, the fragrance of the wax and so on – are apt to change. By bringing the same piece of wax close to a fire, the wax loses its hardness, its fragrance and other sensory properties that he previously perceived through his senses. Instead, the wax becomes soft and mutable and capable of taking on an infinite number of different shapes. But, the imagination cannot comprehend the infinite variety of shapes the wax can take on whereas the mind, the faculty of intellect can conceive of an object capable of infinite variations. The faculty of imagination cannot tell Descartes what the wax really is or what a chiliagon really is but the faculty of intellect can. The faculty of intellect has no difficult conceiving of either a malleable piece of wax that can change into an infinite number of shapes or a 1000-sided figure.

What is Hume saying?
1. The skeptic cannot defend his reason by reason so he is not able to proof that bodies exist using any philosophical argument. The existence of the body is too important to be left to our uncertain reasons and speculations so we should not, “Does a body exist or not?” but rather ask “What makes us believe that a body exists?”
2. What causes us to believe in the existence of a body? He draws a distinction here. Two questions, which are normally found together, are differentiated. Why do we thing that objects continue to exist even when they are not present to the senses? Why we think that objects have an existence distinct from mind and perception?
a. If objects continue to exist even if we cannot sense them, then their existence is independent and distinct from perception and they will continue to exist even if not perceived.
b. Is it the senses, reason or imagination that causes us to think that objects continue to exist?
c. These are the only questions to ask because it is absurd to think that the external world is different from our perceptions.
3. Senses are incapable of giving rise to the notion of continued existence. Senses produce a distinction existence but not a continued one.
4. Senses convey nothing but a single perception and no more. This single perception cannot produce the idea of a double existence but some inference of reason or imagination can. The mind infers from this single perception of relations of resemblance or causation.
5. The difficulty is not concerning the impressions’ natures but their relations and situation. If the impressions presented to the senses are external and independent of ourselves, the objects of the impressions and ourselves must be obvious to the senses.
6. This question of identity is hard and our senses alone cannot answer it. Absurd to imagine that the senses can distinguish between what is us and what is external.
7. Every impression appears to us to be on the same footing. The senses
8. Is it possible for our senses to deceive us? Does this proceed from sensation or some other cause?
9. Our own bodies belong to us and we consider impressions that appear outside us to be external. The paper, the walls, the fields outside the window. You can infer just from using your senses that no other faculty is needed to convince you that there is an external world. But, three considerations object to this inference.
a. We do not really perceive our bodies when we sense our limbs but just impressions through the senses to which we ascribe real and corporeal existence of these impressions through a process that is difficult to explain.
b. Sounds and tastes appear to the mind as separate qualities but have no extension and cannot appear to the senses as if they are external.
c. Even sigh cannot inform us of distance or “outness” without reasoning.
10. …
11. Senses do not give us a notion of continued existence. Senses cannot represent to the mind an actual object or the impression of a continued object.
12. Three different kinds of impressions conveyed by the senses.
a. Figure, bulk, solidity
b. Colors, tastes, smells
c. Pains, pleasures
13. A and B appear the same to the senses and the difference we ascribe to these categories arise not from perception but from something else. B and C are also different not through the senses but through imagination. As far senses are concerned, all perceptions exist in the same manner.
14. We can attribute to B a sense of continued existence without ever referring to reason or any other philosophical principles. Reason can also never gives us the existence of a continued and distinct existence of body. If we think that our perceptions and objects to the the same, we can never infer from one the other from any argument relying on cause and effect to give us matters of fact. Even if we can distinguish them, we can still not argue from the existence of one to the existence of the other. Imagination is responsible for the opinion that perceptions and objects are distinct.
15. All impressions are internal and perishing, so the notion of their continued and distinct existence must be because of some qualities of the continued bodies and qualities of the imagination. Not all perceptions are continued so only some impressions have certain qualities.
16. We do not attribute continued existence to certain impressions because they are involuntary or voluntary.
17. …
18. Objects to which we attribute continued existence have a peculiar constancy and makes them different from impressions whose existence depend on our perception. This is only true of impressions whose objects are supposed to have an external existence and not true of those which do not have an external existence.
19. Constancy is not perfect and there are exceptions. Bodies change position and qualities but they still preserve a coherence and dependence upon each other. The reasoning from causation produces the notion of their continued existence.
20. Opinion of continued existence of body depends on coherence and constancy of certain impressions.
a. Internal impressions also have a coherence but that coherence is different from the coherence of external objects. Passions have mutual connections and dependence on each other but these connections do not need to be perceived to be preserved. The same cannot be said of external objects. External objects

Hume believes that all simple ideas are connected through three principles of association: resemblance, contiguity and cause and effect. Because he spends very little time discussing the first two relations and focuses the majority of his efforts upon the relation of cause and effect, I will only examine cause and effect in this paper. Cause and effect is the strongest, most extensive association between ideas and underlies all reasoning concerning matters of fact because it is able to move past limitations of the senses and memory in linking together simple ideas
Hume believes that all simple ideas are connected through three principles of association: resemblance, contiguity and cause and effect. Because he spends very little time discussing the first two relations and focuses the majority of his efforts upon the relation of cause and effect, I will only examine cause and effect in this paper. Cause and effect is the strongest, most extensive association between ideas and underlies all reasoning concerning matters of fact because it is able to move past limitations of the senses and memory in linking together simple ideas. Using the principle of cause and effect, we can
We are raising Descartes’ skepticism, should I trust my senses? We do trust our senses. Hume is just pointing out that it is a fact aht I believe there is a chair there. That idea has a certain vivacity to me? It came from my present sensory experience, rightly or wrongly. Something I believe are straightforward. How is this idea based in experience? I am presently experiencing. I remember things that I am not experiencing. What about beliefs about the world that extend beyond senses and memory? They have to be based in experience and the question is how? There is only one principle: cause and effect, that allows this to happen. All reasoning that takes us from sense and memory, it is all cause and effect reasoning that gives rise to our beliefs about other matters of fact. How does experience instill in us the belief in a cause and effect relationship? What is the content of that belief when I believe that A causes B?

In a sense, Descartes is trying to defeat skepticism about the external, material world in the Meditations. He applies methodological doubt to
Hume answers the problem of the external, material world using a completely different approach. In the first place, the question Hume addresses in The Treatise of Human Understanding is a different question from the one Descartes answers in Meditation Six. Whereas Descartes addresses the issue of whether or not an external, material world exists at all, Hume takes for granted that such a world does exist and instead, poses the problem of what causes us to believe in the existence of an external, material world? Second, Hume believes that all simple ideas proceed from their corresponding impressions. Both ideas and impressions are kinds of perceptions, the difference between them being that impressions are more immediate and more forceful than ideas. Hume also draws the distinction between a simple idea and a complex idea. Simple ideas are impressions than cannot be separated and are derived from impressions of the world. Complex ideas are not derived from impressions as they can divid
Hume, in A Treatise of Human Nature, maintains that all knowledge comes from sensory experience. In the early sections of the Treatise, Hume establishes all ideas come from impressions.
1) The question they are asking is different
2) They have completely different approaches, namely what they believe about the senses and the mind
3) Descartes is trying to defeat skepticism, Hume is defending it?
4) What is the difference between their skepticisms
5) Neither of them are completely successful, what is wrong with both of their accounts

First, the senses are occasionally wrong and it is not wise to trust the senses even if they are only mistaken once. Second, there is no difference between what he senses when he is awake and what he senses when is dreaming. It could just as well be the case that is constantly dreaming. Third, an all-powerful God may be deceiving him about the existence of the sky, the earth, shapes, and size, anything and everything he senses.
Impressions are like a fresh footprint in wet sand where the contours and lines of the foot are clear and visible. But, when the tide washes over the sand, the footprint loses its distinct contours and lines and becomes like an idea, faint but still visible.
For example, it is obvious that my idea of a unicorn did not come from the senses because I, presumably, have never had any impressions of a unicorn. However, I have had impressions of a horse and a single horn.

Furthermore, even if the senses are capable of giving rise to such an idea of continued existence, then the senses are fulfilling the double duty of not only giving impressions of these external objects but also impressions of these external objects’ continued existences. But, Hume concludes, it is obvious that the senses fulfill only the former duty and convey only impressions of external objects to the mind and not impressions of their continued existence.
In any case, Hume concludes reason is not used to answer either of the two questions he is investigating.
Descartes offers two arguments for the existence of the external, material world. The first relies on a distinction he draws between the intellect and the imagination but he dismisses this argument as only a “probable conjecture” (Descartes). Thus, I will focus on his second argument for the existence of an external, material world.

Brief 1

Religious vs. Civic Sacrifice

Society is no stranger to the notion of sacrifice. A parent sacrifices everything for his child’s future. A lover sacrifices time and energy to please her partner. An athlete sacrifices other pursuits to excel in a certain sport. The list goes on. Yet, the modern concept of sacrifice is different from both the notion of religious sacrifice found in the Hebrew Bible and the notion of civic sacrifice found in the writings of the Ancient Greeks. Religious sacrifice, as portrayed in the Hebrew bible, is a ritual performed to make sacred one’s possessions in honor of God while the Ancient Greeks’ notion of civic sacrifice derives from a citizen’s duty to his city, state or country. The fundamental distinction lies in the role the individual plays in the sacrifice. Biblical religious sacrifice revolves around the individual’s faith and trust in God, in addition to the individual’s fear of God’s retribution. This stands in sharp contrast with the Greek notion of civic sacrifice which is firmly rooted in the belief that the community has prevalence over the individual. This initial differentiation and other distinctions that may stem from it are as exemplified by stories in the Bible and the writings and plays of the Ancient Greeks.
The main difference between religious and civic sacrifice is the role of the individual. The notion of religious sacrifice is representative of one’s personal faith in God while the notion of civic sacrifice focuses on one’s commitment as a citizen to a city or state. A religious sacrifice is the ritualized offering of an object –an animal, a child, a person, even oneself – that makes it sacred through its being offered to God. In Chapter 22 of Genesis, God appears before Abraham and commands him to sacrifice Isaac, his only son, and Abraham does so without objection. After building an altar upon which to sacrifice Isaac, God intervenes and stops Abraham from slaying his son. Knowing now that Abraham is a God-fearing man, because he has not “‘withheld [his] son, [his] only son,’” (Genesis 22-2), God rewards Abraham for obeying his commands. While the Bible does not explicitly state why Abraham follows God’s commands, presumably Abraham is willing to sacrifice Isaac because he trusts God and, at the same time, because he fears the consequences of breaking that trust. Earlier in Chapter 19, as Lot and his wife are fleeing Sodom and Gomor’rah, God warns them, “‘Do not look back or stop anywhere in the valley; flee to the hills, lest you be consumed’” (Genesis 19-17). While others follow God’s command, Lot’s wife looks back and God turns her into a pillar of salt. Abraham’s sacrifice, then, is a test of his personal devotion and trust in God. Where Abraham is rewarded for his faith, Lot’s wife is punished for breaking hers.
While one can make the case that Oedipus’ sacrifice at the end of Sophocles’ Oedipus Rex is also a personal sacrifice, his voluntary banishment from Thebes can be seen as a form of civic sacrifice. Civic sacrifice differs from religious sacrifice in that the individual is removed from the foreground and the community, the city, state or country, takes precedence. One commits civic sacrifice by giving up something, not to make it sacred or to offer it to a deity, but for the benefit of one’s community. The story of Oedipus begins with King Laius receiving a prophecy of his demise at the hands of an unborn son. Laius orders the execution of his newborn babe but a servant takes pity on the infant and leaves Laius’ son on a mountain top. The infant is rescued by a shepherd who names him Oedipus and he grows up in the royal court of Corinth. Destined to fulfill the oracle’s prophecy, Oedipus, the titular character of Sophocles’ tragedy, slays King Laius, saves Thebes – his native land – from the Sphinx, and has children with Queen Jocasta, his biological mother. When Thebes is struck by a plague, Oedipus summons the prophet Tiresias for help. It is then revealed, in an ironic twist, that Oedipus has indeed fulfilled the prophecy received long ago by his father, King Laius. In becoming the king of Thebes, he has committed patricide and incest with his mother. Upon hearing the truth, Jocasta hangs herself in the palace.
To escape the pain of seeing his parents in the underworld, Oedipus chooses to blind himself, “for, had I sight, I know not with what eyes/I could have met my father in the shades/or my poor mother’” (Sophocles 1417-1420). But, to save Thebes, Oedipus chooses exile over death. As the Chorus remarks, “I cannot say that thou has counseled well/for thou wert better dead than living blind” (1415-1416). Oedipus places his civic duty before his personal desires for, perhaps, it would have been easier for him as an individual to end his life in the face of such a shocking and tormenting discovery. As the king of Thebes, Oedipus places his city before himself, saying “O never let my Thebes/The city of my sires, be doomed to bear/the burden of my presence while I live” (1494-1496). The notion of civic sacrifice, as opposed to religious sacrifice, grounds itself in the idea of acting on behalf of a community. While Abraham is commanded by God to sacrifice his son and he does so as a reaffirmation of his own faith and belief in God, Oedipus exiles himself, not so that he, Oedipus, may be redeemed, but to spare Thebes from his fall.
Both notions of sacrifice also differ in what justification is provided for committing each action.
Inherent in the notion of religious sacrifice is the idea of personal faith. Each individual places complete trust in God. Even if one were to question a divine command, God provides justification through the validation of one’s faith, not reason. In Chapter 3 of Exodus, God appears to Moses in the form of a burning bush. During this exchange, Moses repeatedly questions God and seeks justification for God’s directives. God deems Moses to be the person who will “‘bring forth my people, the sons of Israel, out of Egypt’” (Exodus 3-10). Immediately, Moses asks God “‘Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh?’” (Exodus 3-11) Moses is reluctant to follow God’s orders because he does not trust in his own abilities, “‘Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent…I am slow of speech and of tongue’” (Exodus 4-10) What if the Israelites will not believe that God spoke to him? In response, God gives Moses a rod that becomes a snake when cast upon the ground and the ability to turn water from the Nile into blood as signs that he has spoken with God. The only justification God provides as to why people should believe Moses when he tells them that has spoken with God are these signs that will inspire people’s faith. People will believe Moses not because he has convinced them with reason but because he is able turn a rod into a snake or water into blood, a power that must have come from God.
On the other hand, the notion of civic sacrifice centers on the use of reason. When one chooses to engage in civic sacrifice, one justifies the action by the benefit it brings to the community. “Pericles’ Funeral Oration” in the History of the Peloponnesian War by Thucydides epitomizes the notion of civic sacrifice. Unlike the case of religious sacrifice, the oration provides a different kind of propaganda to justify the Athenians’ civic sacrifice. Whereas God provides signs that establish faith in the individual, Pericles uses the glory of Athens to justify the soldiers’ sacrifices. The funeral oration is given at a ceremony honoring Athenian soldiers who have fallen in the war. During the speech, Pericles glorifies Athenian democracy as unique and extols the Athenian lifestyle; Athens is “a pattern to others than imitators ourselves” (Thucydides, par. 3) and is a city “worthy of admiration” (Thucydides, par. 6), a city of wealth, justice and generosity. Thus, Pericles paints a picture of the Athens “for which these men, in the assertion of their resolve to not lose her, nobly fought and died” (Thucydides, par. 7). Athens is a city like no other and in order to protect this city, as Oedipus protects Thebes, Athenian soldiers should sacrifice their lives.
Furthermore, whereas Moses’ encounter with God depicts the notion of the individual in religious sacrifice, the Athenian notion of civic sacrifice places strong emphasis on the individual acting on behalf and a part of a collective. Despite receiving the signs from God, Moses still begs God to choose someone else. His pleas anger God, who ultimately decides to send Aaron with Moses to speak to the Pharaoh. By following God’s command and leading the Israelites out of Egypt, Moses acts as an individual agent, leaving his life behind to carry out God’s orders. In fact, Moses’ very reluctance to do as God commands him to, as demonstrated by his persistent questioning and doubt, shows that he is acting as an individual. He finally capitulates and does as God tells him to because he has angered God. Unlike the Athenian soldiers who, presumably, fight for the sake of Athens, Moses is acting for himself. Through a personal devotion to God and fear of retribution if he disobeys God’s commands, he leads the Israelites out of Egypt. Indeed, perhaps Moses is acting for his people, but his exchange with God in Exodus seems to imply that he listens to God because it is his religious duty and not his duty as an Israelite.
However, for Pericles and the Athenians, there is no concept of the individual agent. Each person is a citizen of a city or a state, such as Athens, and acts as a member of that collective. Pericles goes on to say “there is justice in the claim that steadfastness in his country’s battles should be as a cloak to cover a man’s other imperfections” (Thucydides, par. 8). Not only should one act to benefit one’s country, but doing so is above any and all other actions. To engage in civic sacrifice, to place one’s country before oneself, is to obliterate one’s “demerits as an individual” (Thucydides, par. 8). Being a better citizen is more important, Pericles claims, than being a better individual. Ultimately, civic sacrifice originates from one’s obligation to a community. As much as Moses may be sacrificing his life for his fellow Israelites, the origins of his sacrifice are found in his faith in God. On the other hand, the Athenians are motivated to sacrifice for their country because they are its citizens. Therein lays the distinction between religious sacrifice and civic sacrifice.
The notion of religious sacrifice differs from the notion of civic sacrifice in that the former focuses on the individual’s relation to a higher power and the latter focuses on the individual as a member of a larger collective. Through the stories of the Hebrew Bible and the writings and plays of the Ancient Greeks, the differences between the two notions of sacrifice become apparent. In Biblical tales, men like Abraham or Moses are called upon by God and carry out God’s commands through their personal faith in God. In Ancient Greek literature, such as Oedipus Rex or “Pericles’ Funeral Oration”, the individual is acts in order to benefit a larger community, be it the city, state or country of which he is a part of. Neither the notion of religious sacrifice nor the notion of civic sacrifice continue to drive society’s contemporary understanding of sacrifice, but the effects both have had on our society is undoubtedly overwhelming.

Works Cited
Exodus. Bible, Revised Standard Version. National Council of Churches of Christ in America. Web. .
Genesis. Bible, Revised Standard Version. National Council of Churches of Christ in America. Web. .
Sophocles. “The Internet Classics Archive | Oedipus the King by Sophocles.” The Internet Classics Archive: 441 Searchable Works of Classical Literature. Trans. F. Storr. MIT. Web. .
“Thucydides – Pericles’ Funeral Oration.” Ancient / Classical History. Trans. Richard Crawley. Web. .

1. What does Socrates means here by the “nature” of piety, as opposed to “an affect or quality” of piety?
a. What Socrates means by the “nature” of piety is what piety is, or a definition of what piety is. For Socrates, a satisfactory definition of piety must be one that is necessary and sufficient and also explains what makes pious things pious. However, in the dialogue, Euthyphro is only able Socrates affects or qualities of piety, which are examples or parts of piety that do not satisfy all of Socrates’ conditions for a good definition.
2. Why does Socrates think that Euthyphro must know the nature of piety, if he is to know that a particular act is pious?
a. In order to truly know something, that this action or that action is pious, Socrates thinks that one must first know what the nature or definition of that particular thing is. We need a general definition of piety, that can be used in any instance to determine whether an action or not is pious. Knowing anything less, or only examples, cannot tell Euthphryo is his actions are pious or not.
3. What is the reasoning behind this claim?
a. Theory of recollection says that learning is an act of recollecting or remembering what our souls knew already (shown in the Meno by the slave boy remembering geometry). True knowledge, though, is different from true belief. True belief is “tied down” and made into knowledge by knowledge of the Forms. We are able to remember what the Forms are by seeing instances of the Forms. The Forms are never changing and immutable whereas objects that we perceive with the senses change and vary from person to person. True knowledge then
b. The Theory of Forms is able to satisfy Socrates’ demanding definitions for what true knowledge is. Socrates asks Euthyphro for a definition of piety that is necessary and sufficient to explain what piety is and also has to explain what makes pious things pious. The Form Piety satisfies all three criteria. The Form of Piety is both necessary and sufficient to make things pious and it also explains why pious things are pious.
c. Socrates thinks that true knowledge, in the Meno, is immutable, does not walk around like statues but are grounded in unchanging things, such as the Forms
4. Is this reasoning sound?
a. Where did we get knowledge of the Forms if the Forms existed before the objects we see now that reminds us of the Forms?
b. Does it have to be the Forms that provide a good definition for Socrates’ ‘what if’ problems?
c. Why do the Forms exist before the actual objects? Shouldn’t it be that the Forms arise from seeing objects, not that they make the objects what they are?
5. Could one consistently accept Socrates’ views in the Euthyphro without acting his claims in the Phaedo?

1. Why is true knowledge supposed to be knowledge of the Forms?
a. What is true knowledge?
i. Something that ties down true belief, something immutable and unchanging, something that provides necessary and sufficient conditions, explains why this thing is this thing, something that is the one form of the things that makes it what it is and gives an account of the reasons why it is what it is
b. Why is true knowledge knowledge of the Forms?
i. The Forms are immutable and unchanging, unobservable and insensible but constitute reality, things are made what it is by its Form, ties down true belief to immutable and unchanging things, gives an account of the reasons why something is what it is
c. How does Socrates argue for it?
i. Using the Theory of Recollection, Socrates argues that true knowledge is knowledge of the Forms. When we see two equal things, we can recollect the idea of the Form Equal because the two equal things are not perfectly equal and from their imperfection we recollect something, the Equal, which is always perfect which means that it existed before in our minds. Knowledge of the Forms is true knowledge because without an account of the reasons why, we only have true beliefs that are not tied down to anything. They are mutable, just as the objects we perceive that are inferior to the Forms. The Forms are also what makes something what it is, what makes a beautiful thing beautiful. A beautiful thing is beautiful for no other reason than sharing in the Beautiful.

When and where does something stop being beautiful and become ugly if Forms never admit its opposite?

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What is a self? What is despair?

But, as K writes, a human being merely considered as this synthesis is not yet a self. According to K, a self is the relation’s relating itself to itself in further relation to a high power, God. What does that mean? A human being is the synthesis of the infinite and finite, the temporal and eternal, the possibility and necessity – these are the conflicting aspects in the self-relation. We, as human beings, are all confronted by the task of reconciling or synthesizing these aspects of ourselves and we become selves by virtue of working, struggling, striving towards the synthesis of these conflicting aspects. These aspects are not synthesized or reconciled automatically for us, which also means that we do not, by default, have selves. We only have selves by virtue of engaging in the activity of working upon ourselves in trying to synthesize and reconcile these conflicting aspects of ourselves. Moreover, when we work upon ourselves in this way, in trying to perform this synthesis, K makes the claim that we are brought into contact with a higher power, a third element in the relation, that actually established this relation. According to K, that higher power is God.

In “…”, K provides an analysis of it what it means to carry out this synthesis correctly and to perform our self-relating in the right way. He also presents an analysis of what happens when we fail to conduct this synthesis properly and fall short of performing our self-relating. K calls our failure to reach perform the self-relation properly despair. Despair is a “misrelation…quote”. We are in despair when we fail to synthesis or reconcile the conflicting pairs of oppositions in us, when we fail to reconcile the infinite and finite aspects of ourselves, the eternal and temporal aspects of ourselves, the possibility and necessity aspects of ourselves. K believes that all of us, whether we know it or not, are in despair. The word ‘despair’ is used by K in a different sense than it is used normally. He distinguishes his usage of ‘despair’ from the common understanding of ‘despair’ as “quote about dizziness”.

The common view is that you yourself know best whether or not you are in despair. K thinks this is incorrect and draws an analogy between the common views of despair to that of views on sickness. No one would say that a man knows the state of his own health best. In fact, perhaps it is better to say that a man is least aware of the state of his health. Doctors, in fact, can better tell when a man is sick than the man himself. Similarly, K believes that the common view, the view that each person knows better about his particular despair, is incorrect. Whereas the doctor has a refined understanding and concept of sickness, the average man does. If it were in fact the case that each man knows best about his own health, then, as K puts it, it would delusion to be a doctor. K goes on to say the situation is similar for a “physician of the soul to despair.” The physician of the soul knows the symptoms of despair and is able to spot it so he will not trust the word of either the man who claims to be in despair or the man who claims not to be in despair in the common sense. Thus, the common view of despair, that everyone knows best when he is or is not in despair, is completely wrong according to K. Moreover, K claims that those who admit they are in despair are actually closer to understanding and to be cured of despair than the person who does not seem to be aware of his despair and is happy and well adjusted.

Despair, as mentioned earlier, is the when we fail to perform the self-relation, the synthesis of the conflicting aspects of ourselves, correctly. In order words, when we fail to reconcile the infinite or finite aspects of ourselves we are in despair and this extends to the other two conflicting aspects K points out.

What is possibility?

Possibility and necessity is one of the three pairs of conflicting oppositions, along with infinitude and finitude, eternal and temporal, that K believes are aspects that we have to synthesize and reconcile in our struggle to become selves. They reflect two different perspectives of the self. Possibility, on the one hand, represents the self’s aspirations, what is possible for the self to become, while necessity represents the self’s concreteness, what the self actually is. Possibility is the self that we are trying to be and necessity is the self that we actually are.

Possibility represents the self that we are trying to become and we understand ourselves in terms of that possibility by virtue of the fact that we are working towards it. Possibility is the self that we are reaching for. For example, I can identity one of my possibilities as that of being a hardworking student. In going through my daily life, I can try to become and working towards being a hardworking student. As K writes, possibility is the self’s task of becoming itself. I understand myself as this possibility, the hardworking student, by trying to become exactly that, a hardworking student. My possibility lies in my trying to become a hardworking student. I am saying, I could be a hardworking student and possibility arises when I start actively working towards being that hardworking student by doing my assigned readings, paying attention in class, studying for my exams and so on. It is the self that we are trying to become and we have possibility insofar as we are working to achieve these possibilities. They are the self’s aspirations in that, more than merely possible, they are possibilities we understand ourselves to be in our trying to be them.

What is necessity?

Necessity is another identity that each of us has and another way to understand who we are. Whereas possibility presents the self that we aspire to be insofar as we striving towards that self, necessity represent the self that we concretely are. It is the self that we find upon honest introspection, when we step back to look at ourselves and see the self that we concretely are. Even if I understand my possibility to be that of a hardworking student, in a moment of somber reflection, I might find that my actions and behaviors are not those of a hardworking student. In fact, I might find that I have fallen short of being the self I am trying to be. While I might believe I am striving to become a hardworking student, I find that there is a different person I am trying to become.

Thus, K illustrates two different ways we understand ourselves. On one hand, there is the self that we each believe ourselves to be, possibility, and there is the different self that each of us actually are when we look back upon ourselves through reflection, necessity. Possibility and necessity are both aspects of the self and in our striving to become selves, we need to synthesize and reconcile these two conflicting oppositions. However, K believes that it is difficult for each of us to see both aspects of ourselves, to see ourselves as having both possibility and necessity. As he illustrates in his discussion of the types of despair we enter into when we fail to synthesize these two aspects properly, K believes that we tend to only see the self’s possibility or only see the self’s necessity. For example, if I understand myself in terms of possibility as a hardworking student, it might be difficult for me to take a step back and see my necessity through reflection and realize that my actions are striving towards a different self. Or, if I understand myself as necessity as the self that I actually am which might not be a hardworking student, it might be difficult for me to strive towards the possibility of being a hardworking student. According to K, in both of these situations, because of my failure to synthesize the aspects of possibility and necessity in myself, I am in despair.

According to K, the despair of possibility is the lack of necessity. When we understand ourselves in terms of possibility, we strive to become the self that think we are. There are an infinite number of possibilities for each of us and to lack necessity is to lack the limitation of the self that we actually are. Someone who loses necessity is caught up in daydreams and fantasies of the self that he is able to become but is not able to actually become anything. “Everything seems possible…” To become engulfed by possibility is to lose sight of the limitations of our life, “ability to obey.” Without necessity, we become lost in possibility because everything seems possible. The possibility of the self, according to K, is, at best, only a “half-truth…”

Despair of necessity, on the other hand, is the lack of possibility. Without possibility, we are struck by the limitations we’ve persuaded or let ourselves be persuaded exist for us. To have only necessity but no possibility is also to be in despair according to K. Necessity represents the self that we are when take a step back from possibility and reflect on what we actually are. Without possibility, one believes one’s life is fixed, you are just what you are. You no longer see yourself as the person you aspire to be. To have only necessity is like to have given up on aspiring to be something, you’re just what you are and nothing else. The only way out of despair by lack of possibility is to gain possibility. When you are confronted with only necessity, your only salvation is to regain possibility. For someone without possibility entirely, the only way to do so is through God for which everything is possible. God is infinite possibility. For the determinist or the fatalist, everything is necessary so he needs God to reintroduce the concept of possibility. If there is only necessity, according to K, the man is the same as the animal. To be able to pray to God reintroduces possibility.

Evaluating K’s claims, some questions raised
What is K’s evidence for all this? He makes this diagnosis and these claims and ultimately that we can only resolve these contradictions through Faith? What justification? Is there anything like argument?

Are they really present in myself?

WE understand ourselves as being the person we are trying to become, we have a kind of ambition for ourselves and a sense of the person we are trying to be and all of the particular things that we do, from this point of view, efforts to be that person. So we can think of ourselves as a fine student or loyal friend, things that like that are ways to identify yourself with possibility. You are projecting towards these possibilities and you are understanding yourself in terms of them. To understand yourself as a loyal friend insofar as you are trying to be a loyal friend. So your possibilities are the identity that you are reaching ahead towards. You think of yourself as the person who is a loyal friend by virtue of trying to be a loyal friend.

Another identity that each of us has, to understand who we were from a different perspective. Your necessity is the way you find yourself to be when you turn around and look at yourself and find that what you concretely have been, the way in which you may understand yourself as a loyal friend by virtue of your effort to be a loyal friend. In a somber moment, you may look back at your behavior and you may discover that in fact you are not a loyal friend and there are all sorts of ways you might have fallen short of being this person you are trying to be.

A difference between two different ways you understand yourself and get your identity. Projectively by believing ourselves to be who we are privately and you get your identity from these moments of looking back at yourself and you find that there is a different person you are trying to become. Are we ever that frank with ourselves? There may be difficulties but it is something that we all seem to do. K’s idea is that they are both aspects of ourselves, difficult to see yourself in both of them and reconcile yourself in both of them and because it is difficult to reconcile that we tend to go in one direction or the other. He makes the point that it is difficult to reflect and see this other side of who you are and this other identity that you have. Possibility transcends who you concretely are but the point is that this a way in which we really do identity ourselves and maybe even more important in our self understanding than other aspects, the optimistic view of yourself.

Despair of possibility – someone who loses themselves in daydreams, fantasies, in the person that he is able to become.

The opposite way of despair as well. You as a synthesis, if you are conscious and can recognize the difficulty of being both, of reconciling your aspirations with your concreteness and K’s diagnosis is the tendency to throw ourselves in one direction or the other. He’s maybe think we do this in a global way but we can think of someone who does this on a case by case basis. Despair of necessity is what we all ordinarily most tink of as despair the frame of mind in which you are struck by your limitations and persuade yourself and let yourself be persuaded to thinkt hat you can’t do anything about these limiations, you are stuck and your life is stuck and you can only be just this. You fall into the despair of necessity when you see that you cannot be your possibilities, you are deteremined to be just this. You can only win back possibility through God. For God everything possible.

What is K’s evidence for all this? He makes this diagnosis and these claims and ultimately that we can only resolve these contradictions through Faith? What justification? Is there anything like argument?

Jesus Jeff, every time you send me a response, it’s like a personal lecture on how to run a club. So, I’m gonna jump right in today:
Given what you said, about trusting my treasurer and having someone who can call me out, I think I’m gonna give Jenny the treasurer position. We’ve talked a little already about the club and I think that she’s capable. Jenny has also already dealt with financing at least the Magic side of things, she’s good with numbers and she’s usually pretty honest with me about getting my shit together.
It’s kind of disappointing that so many good e-board candidates have graduated already or are on leave or are not interested in being on the e-board. I really wanted to have Schnapps be a part of the club because he’s always been completely dedicated to Magic and would do the same for PLAY. But, no such luck. Also, Random question: non-NYU or NYU grads can attend meetings right? Say I want to do a tournament and have it be open to anyone who is interested, can my friends from Baruch or someone I met at 20 Sided at a store Friday Night Magic attend? Does it have to be in a specific venue for it to be open to anyone?
I think I have a good idea of what responsibilities I want to give to people. And by that, I mean I’m gonna paste what you wrote to me into the word document and show it to my e-board members. I also want to keep my e-board small by giving two roles to myself and Jenny and possibly Raf. I’m gonna reserve the VP as the jack of trades backup. At most, I want to assign some minor duties to people who can dedicate time but not enough to the club to warrant a board position. It’s just gonna be four, maybe five, members of the e-board and maybe three other people. PLAY is pretty laid back and tends to function fine on its own. Does that sound plausible? Do I have too few people?
I’m really counting on people to at least show up for our events because I have a million ideas running around. I’m pretty sure that happens to every president and at some point, hopefully soon, I’m gonna realize I have the budget to do 1% of my fantastic dreams. A lot of people like to play and hang out but I’m not sure who’s going to step up. The weird thing is, I did ask Mike why I ended up being a candidate at all and it’s mostly because I showed up. That said, the regular membership attendance of PLAY on Wednesdays is like half a dozen people. Steven shows initiative and keeps things moving and I’ve never really seen anyone else step up. With Magic merging, I’m expecting at least a dozen new “regulars”. I hope I can count on some people.
Also kind of worried about the budget thing, still. I didn’t really expect to get the full budget increase but any kind of increase can add up over the years and I really wish people applied for more budget. If anything, they could have just purchased more board games. I did talk to Mike a little bit about getting Magic cards as a part of the budget. How much trouble am I going to encounter if I try to apply my budget to Magic product? Am I going to be barred completely from buying anything? Worst case scenario is exactly what you described. In any case, I don’t even think we have enough budget it as it to cover all the produce so we’re going to have to subsidize the purchases ourselves.
I’m also concerned about the limitations on prizes. We’re a games club, people play to win and people want to win prizes. I mean, sure, for minor events a pack or two could work out but if I hold a big tournament, I’m not sure how much incentive I can offer members or other people to come play. What kind of trouble am I going to run into? Like, holy cow I’ll get exiled from the All-Square system or I’m just not going to get it reimbursed? Can we appeal to the board or officials for a change in their decision? Are there things, like increased membership and increased interest that we can offer to the board to persuade them? Magic product is at least vital to the Magic half of PLAY but why do I feel like I have to change the club’s fundamental constitution to make the case that Magic cards are vital.
Like I said before, I have ideas for events but I need to make sure PLAY can host everything. The minimum is three and I’m pretty we won’t have issue meeting that requirement. But, how many events should I aim for per semester? How many is way too many? I don’t really know how my schedule or anyone else’s schedule really functions but I don’t want to, even though I do, cram everything into a couple months. I know clubs tend to have semester finale events, but how many other distinct events (as in not general meetings) should I be trying to host?
I want a site. Based on what you said, I want a site. I’ve made some sites and blogs but I’m gonna let Raf double up on web admin duties and maybe just see to getting the site off the ground myself in the beginning. Did anime club host its own site or on the NYU system? I’m still not sure how to edit PLAY’s NYU site. The school official I emailed for access to the listserve and site has not gotten back to me. I really do want to get the site and the listserve and email up and running before school starts so I can, as you mentioned, get the incoming freshman (because I totally hit up the anime club site back in high school) and get some help ready for club fest. Who did the site for anime club? Maybe I can talk to them? Or, was it Raf?
Also, I was thinking about getting people to speak or do panels or events. How much does it cost to get a guest? Does it come out of your total budget? Do we get to pick how much we pay each speaker, if we pay the speakers at all?
And for Clubfest, any general advice on how to attract more people? You have already mentioned giving out candy but just generally, what appeals to people? Or, stands out in the crowd? I guess that’s really personal preference and whether or not someone cares about games, but I want…something flashy. Is that even recommended at all? Am I trying too hard? Also, I do want to get in touch with anime club and maybe set up near them. Is Fei still president?
I do like that elite ranks thing. You make sending out emails look so easy. I feel like I’m going to be the most awkward person to write emails. I need to brush up on those people skillz. Damn.
In terms of room reserve, how far in advance do I have to reserve the rooms? And, who should I really get buddy buddy with in terms of the building staff? Who is the magical lady that can turn other people’s rooms into our rooms?! The rooms you listed, how hard is it to get those rooms through out the year? Are there certain times that are just ridiculously hard to get rooms? Which rooms, for say at most 30 people, is the easiest to consistently book? Also, can we book the lounge on the 7th floor where PLAY normally tends to meet? I think that space is like the commuter lounge but it would be cool to reserve. I’m sad we can’t book the commuter lounge. I thought that it was up for grabs but I guess only for the commuter staff people. At this point, I’m gonna try to get information from Steven about the rooms, grab a semi-large room for the first meeting and see how that goes from there? If I want to hold weekly meetings, should I reserve the same room weekly way in advance or as the weeks go by? What is the best way? Also, how popular are the gaming consoles, etc?
And one more thing: what is the difference between budget and programs? You keep saying we submit programs? How much can these programs deviate from the budget? Am I completely misunderstanding what a program is? Also, how tightly do I or the treasurer have to watch the finances? What are the consequences of losing track, besides not being reimbursed?

My pool of questions is slowly depleting! Or, er, maybe not. I keep getting more questions the more you tell me about things. You are an excellent professor Jeff. Your information and advice will be passed on through the generations of PLAY e-board members. I am honored to have been your student. XDD

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Today, I lost connectivity
To the different parts of me that I need to be me
The facebook notifications, the twitter tweets
The tumblr stumbleupons and the last last.fm song
That I’ll ever hear on Pandora.

Me: Hi, your statement has the incorrect values.
Person: So does that mean I need to fix this?
(Fuck all you hoes) Get a grip motherfucker.
Okay, so let’s start this off really fucking slow
Let me tell a couple things you might need to know

Hi, your statement has incorrect values.
So does that mean I need to fix this?

Last September, I was invited to visit an actual shoe heaven

Tits and bras, ménage a trois, sex in expensive cars

There is a chicken in your hallway
Stricken by some fowl disease
Last night, it ran in circles
Trident footprints tied in knots
Around the dirt mounds in your backyard
Croaking at an unseen death to leave
Somebody’s gotta die nobody got to know
Stolen from your grandmother’s garden
Talon-like nails sharpened on stone
Blood for ink written on laundered linen

Make it longer, write more, get more of my deep love for staplers, zoom out and back in
More images, more sounds to describe stapling, godlike fetish love for staplers, MORE
Ode to “you”, talk to the office stapler like a “you”
All office staplers – the one, you
Taking away – traumatizing loss of stapler
Ode to “an” or “my”

In high school I baked oatmeal raisin cookies
for my American history teacher Mr. Kennedy,
George Kennedy, the man is a god. No, seriously.
If not some a regular kind of god, then some kind of
East Meets West New Age Fusion kind of God. The kind of
Thing that fanatic Japanese cult followers believer in –
Anyway, the point is that I baked oatmeal raisin cookies for a god.
But here’s the other thing: I fucking hate these cookies.
Like, seriously.

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A Not Ode to Oatmeal Raisin Cookies

Oatmeal raisin cookies are just fucking terrible.
I mean, I just – how can – like, who in their right mind
would want damn raisins and oatmeal in their cookie?
I mean, cookie dough – serious fucking cookie dough – is
a sugary, luscious, succulent, dense, velvet,
mouth taste bud tongue orgasm of cosmic proportions
exploding in my sweet-toothed, possibly, non-existent ghost.
And don’t even get me started on the chocolate chips.
You know how, like, in that movie with bowling lanes
and a lot of screaming about drinking
milkshakes and the guy who goes around drilling for oil?
That’s what chocolate chips are like in a cookie,
like finding oil in the middle of a brown sugar dessert
and you bite into that gooey, oozing, melting cacao essence
and you feel like you, like, just won thirty lotteries – in a row.
But fucking oatmeal raisin cookies hurt my soul.
You get these chunks of fruity weirdness, wet but dried
things shriveled up like little old ladies in frocks walking around
with walkers. And the oats, a constant interruption
Of fucking oats stuck in my teeth and the corners of my mouth
That my tongue can’t ever reach. Oats are like disruptive children
they malign the perfect harmony of the winds and the waters,
that feng shui stuff that guides the careful dissemination
of ingredients across all cookie dough ever made,
across the vast expanse of uncharted, unmixed batter and butter
still lying in your fridge. Yeah, oatmeal raisin cookies ruin,
just simply fucking ruin, all that.

Oatmeal Raisin Tirade

Oatmeal raisin cookies are just fucking terrible.
I mean, I just – how can – like, who in their right mind
would want damn raisins and oatmeal in their cookie?
I mean, cookie dough – serious fucking cookie dough – is
a sugary, luscious, succulent, dense, velvet,
mouth taste bud tongue orgasm of cosmic proportions
exploding in my sweet-toothed, possibly non-existent ghost.
And don’t even get me started on the chocolate chips.
You know how, like, in that movie with bowling lanes
and a lot of screaming about drinking
milkshakes and the guy who goes around drilling for oil?
That’s what chocolate chips are like in a cookie,
like finding oil in the middle of a brown sugar dessert
and you bite into that gooey, oozing, melting cacao essence
and you feel like you, like, just won thirty lotteries – in a row.
But fucking oatmeal raisin cookies hurt my soul.
You get these chunks of fruity weirdness, wet but dried
things shriveled up like little old ladies in frocks walking around
with walkers. And the oats, a constant interruption
Of fucking oats stuck in my teeth and the corners of my mouth
That my tongue can’t ever reach. Oats are like disruptive children.
They malign the perfect harmony of the winds and the waters,
that feng shui stuff that guides the careful dissemination
of ingredients across all cookie dough ever made,
across the vast expanse of uncharted, unmixed batter and butter
still lying in your fridge. Yeah, oatmeal raisin cookies ruin,
just simply fucking ruin, all that.

1. Me
a. Individual identity
i. Chinese, Chinese American
ii. Female
iii. Raised by grandparents, single mother, absent father, replacement father figure
iv. Single child
v. Immigrant
vi. First generation with computers and technological innovation
b. Educational experiences
i. Went to public elementary school in Hell’s Kitchen (P.S. #?)
ii. Went to public elementary school in Queens (P.S. 66)
iii. Went to public elementary school in Upper East Side (P.S. 59)
iv. Went to public middle school in Chelsea (Lab)
v. Went to public high school (Stuyvesant)
vi. Went to private university (New York University)
c. Occupation trajectories
i. Mother’s influence and education
ii. Father’s influence and education
2. Dalton Conley
a. Individual identity
i. Male
ii. Raised by two parents
iii. Had sister
iv. Grew up in the 60s-70s? Urban renewal
b. Educational experiences
i. Went to public elementary school in his neighborhood (P.S. 4)
1. The Mini School
a. Three classes, black, Puerto Rican and Chinese
b. Treated differently because he is white and didn’t receive punishment
2. Learned about race here
ii. Went to public elementary school in Greenwich Village (P.S. 41)
1. Lied about his address because his parents had friends who lived in a better neighborhood because of where his parents came from, social capital (parents matter)
2. Lyndon Johnson’s Great Society made it so that the good neighborhood schools didn’t care about the ghetto kids lying since they brought funds to the schools. Local schools lost out. (Laws matter, Berger and social control)
3. The Donuts – the schoolyard is a microcosm of the larger world where donuts and freebies win out in favor of honesty and promises.
4. Class –
iii. Went to public middle school (I.S. 70)
1.
iv. Went to public high school (Bronx Science)
v. Went to public high school (Stuyvesant High School)
c. Occupation trajectories
3. I moved to America when I seven. I had been taking English lessons for nearly half a year but it never crossed my mind that my mother planned to bring our entire family overseas. I got on a domestic flight from Harbin to Shanghai with my grandmother in the fall of 1999, leaving behind my father, my best friends at the time and a small orange teddy bear. As my father tells it, I wept rivers in the back of the taxi as it pulled away from our fourth floor apartment with the red leather couches, the frosted glass pane doors and the morning glories my deceased grandfather had so meticulously cultivated. In Shanghai, we boarded an international flight to New York. I spent most of the flight watching Will Smith in “Wild Wild West” and sleeping.
4. I tried really hard to have friends in middle school. I had friends in elementary school but I bounced between schools so frequently, it was difficult to keep in touch with old friends and even more difficult to make new ones halfway through the school year. Middle school was yet another place to start over from but this time, my family having secured an apartment in the Upper East Side, I was deter
5. My Chinese name, as displayed in alphabetized pinyin, “___”, appears genderless to the average American. My mother also liked cropping my thick hair so short that in t-shirt and jeans, I looked like a boy. As a kid, I found neither of these two things, taken separately or together, to be especially troubling aspects of my gender identity.
(Gender) My middle school years also brought about a new sense of identity that was previously unknown to me: I was suddenly no longer the only smart kid in my class at Lab. In fact, classes at Lab were predominantly populated by Asian, mostly Chinese, students from P.S. 124, the same elementary school Conley’s sister attended. Whereas Conley, having grown up white in a predominantly Hispanic and black neighborhood, had “started getting the message [about race] as early as age two” (Conley 37), I only became aware of race in seventh grade. My mother, who had finally settled in a good neighbor and sent me off to a good school, was still not quite content with the quality of education I was receiving even at Lab. I was sent off to weekend preparatory classes in Flushing, the burgeoning Chinese community in Queens based on the recommendation of a coworker. Soon after I started my weekend classes, I realized my mother’s excessive and almost fanatical dedication to my education was just another hallmark of growing up as a Chinese American and not seemingly unique to my childhood. Many of my Chinese classmates at Lab also attended the same prep course in Flushing.
After middle school, my location in the New York City public school system again converged with Conley’s. Even though we both finish our public education careers with Stuyvesant High School diplomas, the paths we took to the most selective of the city’s three specialized high schools were radically different. Stuyvesant High School was my mother’s first and only choice. She added summer classes to my usual weekend classes and brought me more test books than I ever needed. While Conley and his friends spent their middle school days evading their parents, forging signatures on report cards and playing for the highest video game scores, my friends and I spent ours vying for the highest marks on practice Stuyvesant entrance exam in over air-conditioned classrooms at Mega Academy. The day I received me Stuyvesant acceptance letter in the mail, my phone rang constantly as my friends and I congratulated each other on the good news. I scored nearly 30 points above the highest score cutoff and was safely guaranteed admission to Stuyvesant High School. On the other hand, Conley, who had initially missed the Stuyvesant score cutoff on the exam by one point, was later admitted to Stuyvesant after taking a remedial summer class because he came from a low-income neighborhood. While I got into Stuyvesant precisely because my mother had, even in America, managed to support my weekend and summer prep courses for the exam, Conley was admitted because his parents could not.
My mother’s class position and the decisions she was able to because of that position, even more so than her singular dedication to her belief in education as the source of better life outcomes, served as the biggest distinguishing factor between my life-course trajectories and identity and that of Dalton Conley’s. I believe Peter Berger’s presentation of social stratification best explicates this initial difference in our lives and other divergences in our life trajectories and educational experiences.
Berger defines social stratification as levels in society “that relate to each other in terms of superordination and subordination be it power, privilege or prestige” (Berger 78). While he notes that different societies assign individuals to different levels within the system based on different criteria, Berger also states “the most important type of stratification in contemporary Western society is the class system” (Berger 79). He then borrows Weber’s aforementioned definition of class in terms of life chances to make the case that “each class milieu forms the personality of its constituency by innumerable influences beginning at birth” and that “in trying to understand the weight of class, then, we are not only looking at another aspect of social control but are beginning to catch a glimpse of the way in which society penetrates the insides of our consciousness” (Berger 82).

My mother’s decision to America predetermined many of my life chances and in this way, I am no different from Conley whose parents gave him a distinct set of life chances by choosing to life in the projects. However, my mother’s stable income and occupation as a scientific researcher placed her in a different class than that of Conley’s parents. My mother’sConley grew up in a tough neighborhood where his mother constantly feared for her family’s safety. I, on the other hand, grew up in a safer and more affluent neighborhood thanks to my mother’s relative economic wealth. Due to lack of their economic means
While Conley’s parents struggled to place in him a better educational environment by exploiting loopholes in the public education system, my mother, was able to literally acquire a new address and grant me access to a significantly higher level of education. Moreover, not only did my mother shift my life-course trajectories by moving to a safer, more affluent neighborhood so I could attend Lab Middle School, but her choice of schools helped crystalize my identity. At Lab, I formed social affiliations with other Asian American kids who were raised on the same virtues of education by immigrant parents largely in the same economic class as my mother. These affiliations helped reinforce the identity as a hardworking student because we, as Berger notes, desired “just that which society expects of us” (Berger 93).
6.
In Cartesian Meditations, Husserl introduces the “phenomenological epoche” as a method of philosophical reflection. He distinguishes the phenomenological epoche from our natural attitude towards the existence of the world. Through the phenomenological epoche, we set aside our questions about the existence of world and, instead, focus only on our experience of the world.
In the “natural and non-reflective” attitude we typically occupy on a day-to-day basis, we take the fact that the world exists independently of ourselves for granted. Husserl posits that all of our “processes of meaning” in this natural attitude such as our judgments or valuations presuppose the belief in the existence of the world. However, since we do not have apodictically certain knowledge, knowledge that is beyond all doubt, of the world’s existence through our experiences, we must remove the presupposition of its existence we hold in our natural attitude.
We do so by adopting the transcendental, “philosophically reflective” attitude Husserl calls the phenomenological epoche. We suspend our natural belief of the world’s existence and take our experience of the world to be merely acceptance phenomenon. The world is what we experience as being there, “anything belonging to the world, any spatiotemporal being, exists for me – that is to say, accepted by me – in that I experience it” (21).
In this passage, Husserl points out that, while we abstain from our taken-for-granted belief in the world when we assume the position of phenomenological epoche, it does not mean our experience in the natural attitude ceases or disappears. In adopting the phenomenological epoche, we become observers of our continued experience of the world in the natural attitude but without our confidence in the world’s existence. We hold the world experienced in the natural attitude to be “‘mere phenomenon’”. By adopting the phenomenological epoche,
When we assume the position of the phenomenological epoche, we step back from the first person perspective of our natural attitude to assume a third person perspective. We act as observers in this third person perspective of our first person perspective experiences. We set aside any presuppositions of the existence of the objective world and we, instead, accept the world as being there. We abstain from taking an positions with regard to whether the world truly exists or not and in doing so we become observers of what goes on it.
However, as Husserl points out in this passage, by assuming the position of the phenomenological epoche we are not positing that our worldly experiences disappear. Instead,
the only change that occurs in adopting the transcendental attitude is that we “no longer keep in effect (no longer accept)

My experience of the truck while crossing the street serves as an experience in the transcendental attitude, regardless of whether or not the truck exists.
The transcendental attitude provides a different perspective on our belief in the existence of the world. Instead,

in the small quiet moment before he touches her
she is afraid
nerves prick her flesh like needles
the legs of a thousand millipedes crawling up her spine
sinister, insectile, alien
the way he trails his fingers up her body
skin barely touching skin
as if he is groping some raw nakedness
beyond her epithelial carapace
in the small quiet moment before he touches her
warm blood pours into cold silence
she wants to run
there is more, she wants to tell him
much more but
she never makes it there in time
her gasping pants like ghosts escaping through the ether
was there ever anything so sad?

There are tons of things she wanted to say to him before he left. But she never made it there in time. Was there ever anything so sad?

Her gasping pants, each breath of air bit her lungs like sand, as her sneakers splashing in pools of dark water by sidewalk gutters as she pummels ahead through the night. Across the bridge and over the murky canals, her footsteps stalking a dead town.

Theories and Concepts

Social capital
Cultural Capital
Concerted Cultivation
Accomplishment of Natural Growth
Presentation of Self
Status Attainment
Social Location
Class situation
Academically Adrift
Accordion Family

Richard Arum and Josipa Roksa’s study, “Academically Adrift: Limited Learning on College Campuses,” uses powerful statistics gathered from undergraduate at two dozen college and universities across the United States to show that a student’s college experience is shaped, firstly, by what each student brings to college through their own “social background, high school context and, academic preparation” (61) and secondly, by the “distinct peer cultures and institutional climates” (61) each student encounters at colleges and universities. Arum and Roksa’s findings reveal that higher education – far from being society’s “great equalizer” as Horace Mann once purported it to be – actually preserves “initially inequalities” between advantaged and disadvantaged students and those inequalities, “in the case of African-American students, are exacerbated” (Arum and Roksa 40).

Unfortunately, I would not have received such information from public school college counselors for students like Jayden and even Samantha. While colleges and universities send admissions officers across the country to form working relationships with high school college counselors, Stevens observes that the entire process is an “elite exercise” (2007:85). Officers will certainly travel to renowned private schools like Exeter but not necessarily to public schools in urban neighborhoods like Jayden’s school. Students like Jayden do not get the chance to meet with college admissions officers or receive information about colleges’ requirements and programs. Thus, the established relationship between colleges and prominent high schools in the country already provides Bryn with more resources than his peers. (Use this about how Jayden might not be prepared for College??)

Given these things about Bryn, if he were admitted, I believe Bryn would be academically adrift in college. He would probably go and live at home after college, float through a whole bunch of jobs and his parents would be okay with it because they’d have the means of supporting him and they want to encourage him to find something he likes to do and so on. Academically adrift boomerang child.
Bryn also has greater access to social capital because he attends Exeter. Bryn is able to use his relationships with classmates at Exeter to bolster his application. For example, he participates in a volunteer reconstruction project in Haiti because he has a personal relationship with the relief mission’s organizer – his girlfriend and fellow “Exonian.” This reflects the social capital that Bryn receives by attending Exeter, social capital Jayden and Samantha do not necessarily have.

His application is compliment by neither social capital nor cultural capital. Unlike Bryn whose alumnus father might become a potential donor, Jayden will most likely require financial aid to pay for his tuition given his socioeconomic background. Jayden gains from his parents and high school and his interaction with the Redwood admissions office during the application process not have the same resources available to Bryn, I am only able to construct Jayden’s narrative based on the few pieces of information in his file. Stevens notes, “By the time upper-middle-class seventeen-year-olds sit down to write their applications, most of the race to the colleges has already been run and they already enjoy comfortable leads” (2007:15).

This level of faculty interaction is rarely seen in his working-class peers like Jayden, who are less likely to engage their professors because of their sense of restraint in institutional settings (Arum). Students with highly educated parents, like Bryn whose father is a college graduate, are more likely to “have positive assessments of their professors” than students with less educated parents, like Jadyen whose mother might not have attended college.

Like students surveyed by Arum and Roksa, Bryn will most likely spend, on average, no more than “12 hours per week studying” and completing homework for his courses (69). In an effort to minimize academic work, Bryn will also most likely aim to take courses which his peers recommend as “easy” because those courses have fewer reading or writing requirements. Fifty percent of Arum and Roksa’s student sample do the same when choosing courses (71).

Ironically, Redwood’s institutional context might also help to promote Bryn’s status as an academically adrift student. As Arum and Roksa briefly note in Chapter 3 of their study, many elite colleges and universities systematically inflate grades (77).

Lynne A. Haney, in her ethnography, “Offending Women: Power, Punishment and the Regulation of Desire,” depicts Visions, a community-based therapeutic prison, as an unsuccessful system that tried to rid young incarcerated mothers of their internal “dangerous desires” (Haney 2010:4) but ultimately denied prisoners “education and job training” (Haney 2010:190) needed to support themselves after release.
If Bryn were to be accepted at Redwood, he would bring with him nearly two decades’ worth of concerted cultivation which has more than prepared him to approach and negotiate with professors about grades and coursework.

This method is pertinent given that the College featured in Steven’s book and Redwood College are both small elite liberal arts colleges and might have similar requirements in their respective admissions processes.
Furthermore, Bryn’s guidance counselor at Exeter also acts as an important form of social capital. Because of the relatively low student to faculty ratio at Philips Exeter Academy, a prestigious boarding school in New Hampshire, Bryn receives individualized attention from his college counselor with whom he is able to form a valuable relationship. Bryn’s college counselor personally contacted Redwood’s admissions office to relay positive information about Bryn’s interest in attending Redwood College, providing admissions officers with personal insight about Bryn’s character that is missing about Jayden and Samantha.
In fact, the established relationship between colleges and prominent high schools in the country already puts Jayden at a disadvantage compared to Bryn and Samantha during the college admissions process. While colleges and universities send admissions officers across the country to form working relationships with high school college counselors, Stevens observes that the entire process is an “elite exercise” (2007:85). Officers will certainly travel to renowned private schools like Exeter but not necessarily to public schools in urban neighborhoods like Jayden’s school. As a result, working-class students Jayden do not get the chance to meet with college admissions officers or receive information about colleges’ requirements and programs.

The same sociological factors I use in crafting my admission recommendations will also play a significant role in explaining the applicants’ potentially divergent pathways through college as well as differences in their hypothesized post-college lives.
An admissions officer’s ability to structure these narratives is intrinsically linked to the “raw materials from which the story is made” (Stevens 2007:200) which differ from applicant to applicant because of varying sociological factors.

Additionally, middle-class parents are able to pass on more cultural capital to their children than working-class parents can. Through concerted cultivation, middle-class children are endowed with cultural capital that benefits them both at school and in the work place. Shaking hands, being well dressed and groomed, making eye contact and being assertive are all aspects of cultural capital that working-class parents do not necessarily pass on to their children (Lareau 2003). Instead, working-class children mirror their parent’s uncomfortable and restrained behavior when confronted by authority. Thus, Jayden did not come for the recommended on-campus interview, resisting contact with the academic institution all together during the application process.

Despite his lack of social and cultural capital, Jayden’s application provides a telling personal essay about his mother’s struggle to overcome financial difficulties after being incarcerated, balancing two jobs to provide him with the necessary tools to succeed academically.

Middle-class parents are able to use their social and cultural capital to shape the course of their children’s education with the end goal of a college degree in mind from an early age (Stevens 164). Through concerted cultivation, middle-class children are endowed with cultural capital that benefits them both at school and in the work place. Shaking hands, making eye contact and being assertive, taking trips to the museum or the ballet are just a few of the aspects of cultural capital that working-class parents do not necessarily pass on to their children (Lareau 2003).

Through accomplishment of natural of growth, children of working-class families are generally left to organize their own time between watching television, socializing with relatives and playing in pickup games of basketball or football with neighborhood friends (Lareau 2003).

The discrepancies in the quality of the final narrative I construct for each applicant in this process can be accounted for, in part, by discrepancies between the applicants’ social and cultural capital.

While Bryn will most likely be distracted by student life at Redwood such as clubs and Greek life, given Samantha’s dedication to her extracurricular activities and volunteer work and that she has already expressed

In short, Samantha succeeds where the Bryn and Jayden fall short. Like Bryn, Samantha’s inputs provide her with an enormous academic and social advantage when she begins her college education. However, unlike Bryn, Samantha will most likely use these advantages to do well academically in college. Whereas Bryn might have
She is the child of a middle-class family who grew up through concerted cultivation. Not only did she attend an academically rigorous public high school but she excelled at

He is trying to find, like Descartes, an indubitable foundation for all inquiry. The world is just acceptance phenomenon. He is the transcendental ego looking in at his worldly ego and everything that happens is just acceptance phenomena.
But, in the epoche, he does not accept what is happening in the world as something that is in fact actually happening but merely phenomena to be reflected upon. The natural existence, natural state, is one of believing what happens in the world as actually happening. But, by adopting the epoche, one suspends that kind of acceptance and approach what happens are mere phenomena.
We are looking for that apodictic thing to ground our scientific inquiries. He agrees with Descartes that the ego cogito is that one thing. However, he thinks that Descartes did not fully understand the power of his discovery. Descartes places the ego in the world and uses that to prove the existence of God and the external world and so force. Husserl, on the other hand believes that the phenomenon, his experience of the world – real or not real – is indeed something. Even if he abstains from believing in his sensuous experience, the abstaining exists. And as a reflective ego, he chooses to abstain from believing in his sensuous experience. And in doing so, it is not the world experienced disappears or does not exist, it goes on as experienced by him and the only difference is that he is no longer in his natural state of accepting the believing of its existence in his experience. The believing still happens, he just no longer takes that for granted. He applies this to other processes of meaning such as judging and valuing. These position-takings presuppose the existence of the world so while they still do keep happening, he keeps believing and judging, he abstains from accepting or positing these processes and what is meant by them as anything but mere phenomenon. In this way, Husserl believes we arrive at the core of our living, what he calls pure living, we experience things purely as what is meant in them in the universe of phenomena. In this way, Husserl knows himself purely as ego in which the world exists entirely as phenomena as experienced by his ego.
In Cartesian Meditations, Edmund Husserl introduces the “phenomenological epoche” as a method of philosophical reflection. To find
In Cartesian Meditations, Husserl introduces the “phenomenological epoche” as a method of philosophical reflection. He makes the distinction between one’s natural attitude towards the existence of the world and one’s transcendental attitude towards the same. In the “natural and non-reflective” attitude we typically occupy on a day-to-day basis, we take for granted the fact that the world exists independently of ourselves. All of our “processes of meaning” such as experiences, judgments and valuations, in this natural attitude, presuppose belief in the existence of the world.
Since we do not have apodictically certain knowledge, knowledge that is beyond all doubt, of the world’s existence through our experiences, we must remove these presuppositions of its existence we hold in our natural attitude. In adopting the transcendental, “philosophically reflective” attitude Husserl calls the phenomenological epoche, we suspend our natural belief of the world’s existence and take our experiences of the world to be acceptance phenomenon. The world is simply what we take to be there, “anything belonging to the world, any spatiotemporal being, exists for me – that is to say, accepted by me – in that I experience it” (21).
While we abstain from all “position-takings” with respect to the experienced world when we assume the position of phenomenological epoche, we continue to have the same experiences in this “reflectively grasped life” as we do in our natural attitude. In this passage, Husserl points out that the only change that occurs in adopting the transcendental attitude is that we “no longer keep in effect (no longer accept)

Because we do not have apodictic knowledge, knowledge that is beyond doubt, of the existence of the real world, Husserl believes the world is merely acceptance phenomenon.
He calls the latter transcendental position the phenomenological epoche. The phenomenological epoche is the act of no longer accepting positions and judgments about the objective world. In our natural position, we take the existence of the real world for granted and
Husserl makes the distinction between two attitudes towards the world.
and the transcendental position in which you suspend this belief. Husserl believes that one’s “position-takings” or judgments, feelings, in this natural state
In doing so, Husserl believes we gain possession of our “pure living” (20).
Husserl uses Descartes’ “principle of absolute indubitability” (16) as a point of departure for his own series of meditations and, like Descartes, believes the ego cogito is “the ultimate and apodictically certain basis for judgments, the basis on which any radical philosophy must be grounded” (17), where to be apodictically certain is for something’s non-being to be inconceivable.
If the ego cogito is the apodictically certain foundation for all “genuine science” (16), Husserl believes everything in the world, “the whole concrete surrounding life-world” (19) becomes phenomena. Whether this world as phenomena is real or illusory, whether it exists or not, such phenomena is

Existentialism and Phenomenology
Interpretive Writing Assignment 1

In Cartesian Meditations, Husserl introduces the “phenomenological epoche” as a method of philosophical reflection. Husserl distinguishes between our “natural and non-reflective” attitude and our transcendental, “philosophically reflective” attitude towards the world’s existence. I shall refer the former as our ‘natural attitude’ and the latter as our ‘transcendental attitude’. Through the phenomenological epoche, we set aside our questions about the existence of world, which we take for granted in the natural attitude, and focus on the world as simply acceptance phenomenon.
In the natural attitude, which we occupy on a day-to-day basis, we take the fact that the world exists independently of ourselves for granted. For example, when I see a trucking moving towards me as I cross the street, I move out of the truck’s way because I take for granted the fact that there is, indeed, a truck driving down the street. Husserl posits that all of our “processes of meaning” in this natural attitude such as our judgments or valuations presuppose the same belief in the existence of the world. However, since we do not have apodictically certain knowledge, knowledge that is beyond all doubt, of the world’s existence through our experiences, we must remove the presupposition of its existence we hold in our natural attitude.
We do so by adopting the transcendental, “philosophically reflective” attitude Husserl calls the phenomenological epoche. We suspend our natural belief of the world’s existence and take our experience of the world to be merely what we experience as being there, “anything belonging to the world, any spatiotemporal being, exists for me – that is to say, accepted by me – in that I experience it” (21). My crossing the street and seeing the truck in the previous example serves as an experience whether or not a truck is really there.
Husserl points out that, while we abstain from our taken-for-granted belief in the world when we assume the position of phenomenological epoche, it does not mean our experience in the natural attitude ceases or disappears. Everything I do in my natural attitude is grasped by what Husserl calls my “noticing regard” in the transcendental attitude. In adopting the phenomenological epoche, we become observers of our continued experience of the world in the natural attitude only without our confidence in the world’s existence. Husserl thus describes the world experienced in the natural attitude, when considered in the transcendental attitude, as “‘mere phenomenon’”.

1. Primary disagreement between Jackson and Lewis
a. Both agree that there physical things in the world
b. But, they disagree about the existence of non-physical things in the world
i. Jackson believes there are non-physical things in the world
ii. Lewis believes there are no non-physical things in the world has to say why Jackson is wrong
2. Jackson (Knowledge Argument)
a. Imagine the Mary example to show that there are non-physical things in the world
b. Mary is a brilliant scientist that lives in a black and white room, learning about the world and everything physical about the world in black and white. When she steps out of the room, does she gain any new information if she already knows all the physical information?
c. Jackson believes she does. Mary, when she steps out of the black and white room, gains knowledge of which the subject matter is non-physical. She gains non-physical knowledge about the experience of seeing a color. Therefore, physicalism is wrong in saying that only physical things exist. Obviously, if she knew all of the physical information while she was in the room, then, if she learns any information when she comes out of the room, the information cannot be physical.
d. The Knowledge Argument
i. When you have an experience, you gain information about non-physical things in the world
ii. Mary has all the physical information about human color (the world) when she is in the room before the release
iii. There is information about human color (the world) that she does not have before she is released from the room and when she first has an experience
iv. Not all information is physical information
v. There are non-physical subject matter of information
3. Lewis (Ability Hypothesis)
a. Needs to refute Jackson’s argument
i. Lewis is a physicalist who believes brain states are mental states. He needs to refute Jackson’s non-physical objects argument.
b. There are no non-physical things in the world
c. When Mary steps out of the room, she does not learn any information that can rule out other physical possibilities, she gains an ability to recognize, memorize experiences
d. There are odd things about the non-physical information
i. Information is incommunicable and you cannot write down any information, physical or non-physical, that can communicate to Mary what it is like to see a color
ii. What is the content of this information?
e. Refute the intuition that there is something non-physical
f. Ability Hypothesis
4. My assessment of Jackson and Lewis
a. Instinctively, I lean towards Jackson’s argument that there are non-physical things which form the subject matter of what we learn about the world when we feel, see, or hear
b. Lewis’ argument, on the other hand, is convincing but I do not believe experience translates to ability

• Primary Disagreement
o Are the non-physical things in the world?
o Jackson believes there are non-physical things in the world while Lewis, who believes there are only physical things, needs to refute Jackson’s knowledge argument.
o Jackson introduces the example of Mary the brilliant scientist to argue that there are non-physical things in the world.
o Lewis argues that Jackson’s example is wrong and Mary does not gain any new information. He argues that Mary only gains new abilities when she steps out of the room. Mary gains the ability to imagine, remember, and recognize experiences.
• The Knowledge Argument
o Jackson wants to argue that there are non-physical things in the world which we can gain new propositional knowledge from when we have experiences.
o Mary is a brilliant scientist who lives in a black and white room and learns all that there is to know, physically, about human vision and color. Jackson wants to argue that even though Mary knows all of the physical information, she does not know what the experience of seeing color is actually like. When Mary is released from her black and white room, Jackson believes she gains non-physical information about what it is like to see color.
o Physicalism is the view that there are only physical things in the world. Since there are only physical things in the world, the view that Jackson holds is incorrect because it supposes the existence of non-physical things that form the subject matter of Mary’s new knowledge when she walks out of the room. Because these two views are incompatible, Jackson believes physicalism is false.
o His argument relies on the intuition that there must be something non-physical happening when we see a color or hear a sound. But his argument goes to show why we have this intuition. If all the physical information in the world cannot tell Mary what it is like to see a color, and if she gains any new information when she steps out of the room, she must be gaining some non-physical information because she knows all of the physical information when she was in the room.
• The Ability Hypothesis
o Lewis believes that when Mary steps out of the room, she only gains new abilities. She does not gain any new propositional information the subject matter of which is non-physical things. If she does not gain any new information, there are no non-physical things in the world.
o She gains something new, but this something is not knowledge. Rather, she gains a certain set of abilities. She gains the ability to recognize, remember, and imagine some experience.

1. The primary disagreement
a. Are there physical objects?
i. The primary disagreement between Jackson and Lewis is whether or not there are any
b. Physicalism
c. Jackson’s argument against physicalism
i. Mary example
ii. Knowledge Argument
1. When Mary steps out of the room, she gains new information that is about non-physical things
d. Lewis’s rejection of Jackson’s argument
i. Ability Hypothesis
1. Peculiar about knowledge
a. No amount of information can tell Mary what its like
2. Intuition that it is knowledge
a. Mary gains only abilities
2. My assessment
a.

• Consciousness
o Nihilating withdrawal
 Absolute freedom comes from our ability to take this backwards step and withdrawal ourselves from the content of our consciousness. We remove ourselves from the being-in-itself that just is.
o Pre-reflective cogito
• Being-in-itself
• Being-for-itself
• Facticity
• Transcendence
Present and evaluate Sartre’s argument (in ‘The Origin of Nothingness’) that our consciousness involves an absolute freedom. How is this claim consistent with Sartre’s insistence on our facticity? [Perhaps: pick some cases in which it might seem we are not free, and show-and-evaluate how Sartre might try to handle them.]
Here we get a sense of how Sartre begins with a Husserlian phenomenology but then wants to. Begins with that consciousness is always intentional, always directed upon an object. Object has to be understood as in the world in the way that Heidegger characterized. Pg 11 “All consciousness is consciousness of something….” Sartre’s claim is that consciousness exhausts it itself in this directness, it is not of anything other than its object. Consciousness is also in some other sense always conscious of itself, too. All consciousness is self-conscious. Pg 11 “necessary and sufficient condition…conscious of itself…” Consciousness then is always of an object but consciousness also has to be in some sense of itself. However, he says this self consciousness cannot be an explicit awareness or knowing because if it were that would begin and infinite regress. In order to be conscious of myself, I would need to be conscious of being conscious of myself and so on…Sartre’s claim that all intentionality presupposes consciousness of self but he can’t treat that consciousness of self as its own intentionality because it would start an infinite regress. To avoid regress, we have to suppose and underlying and pre-reflective self consciousness but this pre-reflective self consciousness is not …from the consciousness of the object as he says this Pg 15 top “self conscious….meaning of self consciousness…” Sartre thinks that it is in this pre reflective consciousness that we are given the being of consciousness that is always transphenomenal, it is always something that goes beyond or independent of phenomena itself. Phenomena is what intentionality is directed upon, this self consciousness must be outside or beyond our intentionality…directed upon something is not a phenomenon. Now and this is going to get him part way towards where he wants to be which is where the being of consciousness is a peculiar emptiness or transparency given to us not by an intentional directedness upon but given as if it were between our backs (?) It is a directedness upon something which has no content, something that is not phenomenon but it is only by this directedness that it is possible for us to view consciousness at all.

Part I
The book becomes more concrete. Sartre starts out in a way which might be compared to beginning of Being and Time. He starts out by posing a question and then bringing out features of that question itself, features of our activity of question to pose certain questions. So we’re trying to figure the relation between the BFI and the BII and trying to find out a relationship which avoids either dualism or idealism and in order to carry our investigator to study this relationship between BFI and BII and we have settle things, Heidegger settles on Dasein, the instance Sartre settles on the conduct we are engaged in, in inquiring or questioning. This is now on Pg 24 bottom of the page “now this very inquiry furnishes with the desired conduct…” He then tries to show that this question, the questioning, Sartre then says we examine this attitude of question and what is involved there, this attitude of questioning involves various kinds of negations. There’s the possibility that we’ll decide there are no relations, we’re questioning because we are in the state of not knowing. If we do get an answer to this question, the answer will be that the relation between them will be viewed this way and not other ways. Questioning itself involves negation, reference to none being. Takes the problem of negation of non-being as his first problem. By examining non-being or negation he can figure out the relation.
Jumping ahead to the first part of the book I asked you to read. The origin of nothingness. Crucial section because here Sartre explains nothingness in consciousness that permits nothingness. So we turn then to the activity of questioning and Sartre involves this a double negation. On one hand, this questioning negates the thing questioned by holding it between being and non-being. We’re interested in the relation between these, questioning what that relation is and somehow suspend it between being and non-being. This suspension and negation of the thing we are question is possible only by way of a nihilation, the questioner’s nihilating withdrawal from the question. On its own, being-in-itself is fully positive in its existence, its BII a network of causes and effects and any thing in that series has to be what it is in order to play its role in that system of causes and effects. Sartre’s idea is that only consciousness withdrawing or detaching itself from this casual nexus which is being in itself, that consciousness is able to introduce any negation into the positivity of being-in-itself. Pg 58 “From the very…”

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“…universal determinism…question is determined…”

This in a very few words is Sartre’s argument that consciousness must involve a freedom from universal determinism. It seems to me a very sketchy argument in various senses but it is an argument that Sartre claims, he claims what is distinctive of consciousness, consciousness is a consciusness of something other than itself in order to be a consciousness of something it has to withdrawal and pull itself back from that which it is of “nihilating withdrawal” claims this nihilating withdrawal that allows consciousness to be of its objects can’t itself be explained as one more cause or effect in the causal order. His claim then is that the very logic of consciousness as a consciousness of something, consciousness must be free, this is the being of human beings, this nothingness which is also our freedom. Pg 60 half way down “human freedom precedes…” So, existence precedes essence, existence for Sartre means ..its only on the basis of that withdrawal that its possible then for us to attribute any particular content to ourselves, any essence.

Examples: this is about looking for Pierre, we’re looking for Pierre in his room and Sartre says that, asks what is involved in an experience of absence? And he says that this experience of absence, a negativity can’t be produced. I’m looking around P’s room and see his possessions and none of these appearances of his possessions, Sartre claims, can produce the experience of Pierre’s absence. His possessions would refer only to one another standing in relation only to one another, refer to each other things, this argument that is sketched before, to produce the experience of Peirre’s absence I have to make a break in this chain of causes and I also have to make a break in my own past and present states so this is now on page 63. “I am of necessity to produce…which no prior state can effect or motivate…succession of my states of consciousness of effect from cause…nihilating process…”

The very way I diagrammed it and the distinction of BIT and BFI there is a dualist position here, I think, so, part of his answer I think is to try to show that, as it were, neither BFI nor BIT is independent or can be independent of the other, not that there could be BFI and then by its directing itself on objects there is BIT and also not that BIT and independently BFI directing itself on objects. Of course, he also doesn’t want to be an idealism either, he avoids idealism by not turning consciousness to the mind. And that’s what this strategy of identifying consciousness as a nothingness is supposed to do. Idealism there are these mind substances and then there thoughts and ideas which are contents of those things, radically different features Sartre thinks which makes consciousness a thing, a withdrawal…

Sartre claims that consciousness experiences this absolute freedom that it possesses not just occasionally when it produces negativity but all the time: Pg 64 “freedom is the….human being putting his past out of play by secreting his own nothingness” Here’s another way to think of it, so let’s say that I’m conscious of a particular condition of myself, now by being conscious of it I’ve made that backwards step which distinguishes me from what I am conscious of, consciousness is always capable of that backward step, that movement of withdrawal which is to be conscious of something, that movement is pre-reflectively aware of itself as other than and different from what it is conscious of. Let’s say that I believe that the election will de decided by midnight, let’s say I believe a lectern here. Sartre’s claim is that by being able to be consciousness of believing there is a lectern there, I’ve withdrawn from that belief and I am something different from that belief by virtue of always being capable of being conscious of the things we already believe, we are capable of withdrawing from those beliefs, free from holding those beliefs to overturn those beliefs.

The general issue in the introduction is the relationship between consciousness, thought or experience and the real things that consciousness is of, intends or is directed upon. He has a large scale ambition to answer this question while avoiding the two standard options for addressing these issues: realism (dualism of appearance and reality like Descartes), or some form of realism (treats real things as contents of minds, contents of consciousness, Barkley takes). Sartre is trying to find some middle ground, some way of avoiding both of these answers and what he is trying to do is refer to consciousness as being-for-itself and to the real things that consciousness if of being-in-itself. Introduction sets up the problem of understanding the relationship between these two things that avoids realism and idealism.
Part I – Sartre takes a very surprising starting point and the starting point is our experience of lack, negativity in the world. He is going to raise the puzzle of how it is possible for us to experience the absence of things and going to argue that these experiences of negativity are only possible because of a more fundamental nothingness that belongs to the nature of consciousness (BFI). So there is a nothingness to consciousness, clarifies the tension between being (BII) and on the other hand nothingness of BFI. One of the things that we are going to get a grip on is in what sense is consciousness supposed to be a nothingness. It is only because that cosnciousness is a nothingness that phenomeona can appear to us at all. The most important consequence of consciousness as a nothingness is that we are absolutely free.
Part II – Sartre uses the idea of consciousness as a nothingness to explain the basic structures of consciousness. Part has a lot of interesting relationships to Chapter 5 of BT.
The pre-reflective cogito
We get a sense of how Sartre begins with a Husserlian pheonomenology but then wants to abandon it. He agrees with Husserl that consciousness is always intentional, meaning by that it is always directed upon some object and this object as in the world in the way that we saw H say it. Pg 9. So, consciousness is an intentional directedness upon objects which transcends beings in the world. Now, Sartre’s claim is that consciousness exhausts itself in this directedness, it is not of anything other than its object. Consciousness must also in some other sense always be conscious of itself too. All consciousness he says is self-consciousness. Pg 11 bottom. So, consciousness then is always of an object but consciousness also has to be in some sense of itself. However, he says, this self-consciousness can’t itself be intentional, cannot be an explicit awareness or knowing of consciousness. Because if it were It would begin an infinite refress. In order to be conscious of myself, I would need to be conscious of myself and so on and so forth. Idea is that: Sartre claims that all intentionality presupposes consciousness of self. But then we can’t treat that consciousness of self as a form of intentionality because it leads to infinite regress. Now, to avoid this regress Sartre says we have to suppose an underlying and pre-reflective self-consciousness and this pre-reflective self-consciousness is not separate (?) from the consciousness of the object. Pg 15 he says it in a metaphorical way “self-consciousness…” Now it is in this pre-reflective self-consciousness that we are given the being of consciousness and this being is always therefore transphenomenal. It is always something that goes beyond or is independent of the phenomenon itself. Here is a phenomenon, what intentionality is directed upon, this self-consciousness must be somehow outside or beyond our intentionality. It is must be directed upon something that is not any phenomenon and this going to get him part way towards where he wants to be, the conclusion that being of consciousness is a peculiar emptiness or transparency given to us not by an intentional directedness upon it but as it were behind our backs so to speak, directedness on something that has no content and is not phenomenon. And it is only by this directedness that ourselves that it is possible for us to be conscious of phenomenon at all.
Part I
Sartre starts out in a way that is similar to the beginning of BT. He starts out by posing a question and then bringing out features of that questions itself and our activity of questioning to pose certain dilemmas. So we’re trying to figure out the relation of BFI and BII and we’re trying to find out a relationship which avoids dualism and idealism and in order to carry out our investigation, to study this relation, we have to settle on some instance. The instance that Sartre settles on is the conduct that we are engaged in in our questioning. Attitude of interrogation I ask is there any relation that can reveal to me about man and world but on the other hand the question is not simply the objective, in a world it is a hidden attitude. What does this attitude reveal to us? He then tries to show that this question, we’re questioning, we have consciousness, Sartre then says examining this attitude of questioning and what is involved. This attitude of questioning has various kinds of negations, there is the possibility that we’ll decide there is no relation negative answer, another negation is that we are in the state of not knowing,: if we do get an swer, the answer between these will be this way and no other ways. Questioning itself involves negation and reference to non-being and then takes the problem of negation and non-being as his first problem, hoping that by examining non-being and negation that he can figure out the relation.
Sartre explains nothingness in consciousness that permits experience of negativities. So, we turn then to the activity of question, Sartre says this involves a double negation: on one hand questioning negates thing question by holding it between being and non-being. We’re interested in the relation in these, questioning it and then we suspend this relation between being and non-being. This suspension of being of thing in question he says is only possible by way of a nihilation, the questioner’s nihilating withdrawal. Nihilating withdrawal from the question. The point here is something like this BII is fully positive in its existence, a network of causes and effects and any element in that series of causes and effects has to be what it is in order to play its role in that system of causes and effect. Sartre’s idea is that only by cosnciousness pulling back or withdrawing itself form this causal nexus of BII that consciousness is able to introduce any negation into the positivity of BII.
The relationship between consciousness and the things consciousness is of)
The origin of nothingness, a crucial section because it is here that S explains nothingness in consciousness that permits experience of negativities. So, “we return then to the activity of questions…” This involves a double negation, on the one hand this questioning negates the thing questioned by holding it between being and non-being. WE’re interested in the relation between these and we are questioning the relation between these and we suspend this relation between being and non-being/ This suspension is possible only by way of a kind of nihilation and this is what he calls the questioner’s nihilating withdrawal from the question. So, the point here is something like this: on its own BII is fully positive in its existence. BII is a network of causes and effects and any element in that series of causes and effects has to be what it is in order ot play its role in that system of causes and effects. S’s idea would be that it is only by consciousness pulling back, withdrawing or detaching itself from thi causal nexus that is BII, that consciousness is able to introduce any negation into the positivity of BII. Pg 58 “from the very fact…” this, in a very fw words, is S’s argument that consciousness must involve a freedom from the universal determinism. It seems to be a very sketchy argument. What is distinctive of consciousness, consciousness is a consciousness of something other than itself, in order to be a consciousness of something it has to pull itself back from that which it is of. That is what he means by a nihilating withdrawal, claim is that this withdrawal that allows consciousness to be of its objects can’t itself be explained as one more cause or one more effect in the causal order of things. His claim then is that by the very logic of consciousness as a consciousness of something, consciousness must be free. This is the being of human beings. This nothingness which is also our freedom. Pg 60 “Human freedom precedes essence….essence is suspended in freedom….freedom impossible…” So, existence precedes essence, existence for S being this …consciousness. It is only on the basis of this withdrawal that is possible for us to attribute any particular content to ourselves, any essence. Now, S goes on to give us one of his more famous examples, the example of looking for Pierre. We’re looking for Pierre and we’re looking for Pierre in his room. S asks the question what is involved in an experience of…and he says that this experience of absence which he calls a negativity phenomenon can’t be produce, so I’m looking around Pierre’s room, none of these appearances of his possessions S thinks can produce the experience of Pierre’s absence. These possessions which refer only to one another stand in constant relation only one another,
Also have to make a break in my own past and present psychic states so this now is on page 63 “in terms of my perceptions of the world…”
Sartre simply wills self-consciousness into
It is problematic how Sartre thinks he is escaping dualism by the very way I just diagrammed between BII and BFI and it seems like we have a dualist position. I think, so, part of his answer is to try to show that neither BFI nor BII is independent of each. It is not that there could be BFI and then by its directing itself on objects that there can be BII. Part of this strategy is to try to show that even though different they are bound up in each other. One way he avoids idealism is by not turning consciousness into a substance, a kind of mind, and that is what this strategy of identifying consciousness as nothingness is supposed to do. On the Barkleian version there are mind-substances and hten thoughts, ideas, contents. S has a radically differnet picture which makes consciousness really opaque but something like a withdrawal…
S claims that consciousness experiences this absolute freedom not just occasionally and not just that its producing negativity pg 64 “freedom is the….” So, here is another way to think of it: let’s say that I’m conscious of something, I’m conscious of a particular condition of myself. Now by being conscious of it I have made that backwards step that distinguishes me from what I am conscious of. Consciousness is always capable of that backwards step that movement of withdrawal which is involved in being conscious of something, that withdrawal is also pre-reflectively aware of itself as other than, as different from, what it is conscious of. So, for example, I believe that there is a lectern here. S’s claim is that being able to be conscious of believing that there is a lectern there, I have, as it were, withdrawn from that belief. I am now something different from that believing. By virtue of being always capable of being conscious of the things that we already believe we are capable of withdrawing from those beliefs, free from holding those beliefs, free to overturn those beliefs.
S tries to use this idea of consciousness as nothingness as a way of reinterpreting some of the existential themes we met in H and K. S thinks that beyond all of these experiences I have of negativities and absences in the world. Another example is destruction about a storm and how a storm destroys things. Cosnidered just in the well of the in-itself, that seeming destruction is a rearrangement of atoms, a reconfirguation of stuff is there. To be destruction experienced, it needs to be experienced as empty which is only possible through consciousness’ withdrawal. Besides these experiences of negations in the world. S thinks there is a special experience in which we confront our more basic nothingness, anguish which is S’s rewriting of Heidegger’s anxiety. Pg 65
S interprets our consciousness as involving this step back from the phenomenon which is its intended object and claims that this step back constitutes an absolute freedom for us. So, he describes it as a nihilating withdrawal, by being conscious, if you think of yourself as believing by the very act of conscious of that belief, you withdraw from that belief, pull back form that belief, in a way that gives you the capacity possibility of what, in away separates you from that belief, so that you are as it were you are no longer immersed I the belief, you are withdrawn from it, you have the possibility of rejecting the belief. One strong continuity with Husserl is S’s stress on consciousness. Husserl claims intentionality in this way as well. S’s idea is that this withdrawal that consciousness always involves is a separation from you yourself have been.
Something surprising about S’s claim and goes against what we ordinarily suppose, this freedom is deeply upsetting and disconcerting. S’s idea is that we would prefer to understand ourselves as determined and our discontent with our freedom is manifested in particular in the deep response of anguish. Talked last time about distinction between fear and anguish.
What we see is that this freedom that h wants to characterize as absolute is only one side one aspect to us. There are ways in which he takes back the absoluteness of this freedom as it goes on. Anguish plays a comparable role in S to anxiety in H so just as anxiety is this deeply troubling recognition of certain limits to our human condition, we avoid and flee into the condition of falling or inauthenticity and so far S anguish plays a similar a role and our response to that is not falling but bad faith. So, on pg 83 “reassuring myths….unity of the same conscious…flee in order not to know…flight of anguish is a mode of…” So, we are then at the same time both avoiding and the very notion of avoidance you are recognizing that which you are avoiding “flee it….bad faith”. Now, the next chapter of this part I is devoted to bad faith. And I want to turn to this section called patterns of bad fiath on page 96 and here we get
Remember He’s distinction between thrownness and projection and Sartre will use facticity and transcendence. So what now emerges, according to Sartre there are two fundamental aspects to us of our facticity is the extent to which we are fixed and determined, one of the ways S is trying to pull back from the absolute freedom. Facticity includes bodily characteristics, includes my past and what I have been and what I have not. Aspects of my facticity, aspects of me that are settled. Transcendence is freedom, ability to do and be something different form my path, becoming something more. Sartre’s claim now is ithat I have a contradictory and paradoxical structure as both of these. He uses the term BFI for human beings, each of us are BFI and we are distinct then from BII which is what things are. So, the way he wants to put is is that BII simply is what it is but BFI, by virte of being facticity and transcendence, has this contradictory structure which he says involves our being what we are not and not being what we are. It is this contradictory structure he thinks that makes bad fiath possible for us.

Idea is like this: we of course want to be consciousnesses, we want to be BFI but we also want to also have a kind of unitary and non-contradictory structure such as being in itself has. We want to be an in-itself being for-itself or a for-itself being in-itself. Somehow fuse our being consciousness and our having the self identity and unity that mere things have. And bad faith is going to involve trying to find ourselves as unitary and non-contradictory either in our facticity or in our transcendence. And, as it were, ignoring the other one so that we can just be our facticity or just our transcendence.

• Consciousness
o For Sartre, consciousness is always intentional and is always directed upon an object. Consciousness is consciousness of something and because it is always directed upon an object, consciousness is not of anything other than its object.
o Pre-reflective cogito
o At the same time, consciousness is also conscious of itself. All consciousness is self-conscious. However, this self-consciousness cannot be an explicit awareness of knowing because it would lead to an infinite regress. To be self-conscious or conscious of myself, I would need to be conscious of being conscious of myself and so on. To avoid this problem of infinite regress, Sartre claims that all of consciousness’ intentionality presupposed consciousness of the self but this presupposed consciousness is an underlying, pre-reflective self-consciousness that is always beyond the phenomenon that consciousness is directed upon. Phenomena is the what intentionality is directed upon. Self-consciousness must be outside and beyond this intentionality and be directed upon something that is not phenomenon. Thus, Sartre concludes, the being of consciousness is an emptiness, a directedness upon something which has no content. It is by this directedness that it is possible for us to see consciousness at all.
o Example: I am conscious of this table. I am conscious of myself as conscious of this table and thus, I am conscious of myself, because of my consciousness of this table, as something different from this table.
o Being-in-itself – Being-in-itself simply is. It is
o Being-for-itself
o Consciousness as nothingness
 According to Sartre, the activity of questioning involves a double negation. On one hand this questioning negates the object in question by holding it between being and non-being. Given that by questioning we are interested in the relation between BII and BFI, our questioning of this relation suspends the relation between being and non-being. This suspension or negation of the relation we are questioning is possible only by way of what Sartre terms a nihilation. The question’s “nihilating withdrawal” from the question makes the negation of the thing in question possible.
• Absolute Freedom
o Bad faith as a vacillation between facticity and transcendence
o Facticity
o Transcendence
• Absolute freedom being consistent with facticity aspect of bad faith
o Facticity as the ways I am conscious of myself as being
o Situation in which we are not free??
• Consciousness
o Nihilating withdrawal
 Absolute freedom comes from our ability to take this backwards step and withdrawal ourselves from the content of our consciousness. We remove ourselves from the being-in-itself that just is.
o Pre-reflective cogito
• Being-in-itself
• Being-for-itself
• Facticity
• Transcendence
Present and evaluate Sartre’s argument (in ‘The Origin of Nothingness’) that our consciousness involves an absolute freedom. How is this claim consistent with Sartre’s insistence on our facticity? [Perhaps: pick some cases in which it might seem we are not free, and show-and-evaluate how Sartre might try to handle them.]
Here we get a sense of how Sartre begins with a Husserlian phenomenology but then wants to. Begins with that consciousness is always intentional, always directed upon an object. Object has to be understood as in the world in the way that Heidegger characterized. Pg 11 “All consciousness is consciousness of something….” Sartre’s claim is that consciousness exhausts it itself in this directness, it is not of anything other than its object. Consciousness is also in some other sense always conscious of itself, too. All consciousness is self-conscious. Pg 11 “necessary and sufficient condition…conscious of itself…” Consciousness then is always of an object but consciousness also has to be in some sense of itself. However, he says this self consciousness cannot be an explicit awareness or knowing because if it were that would begin and infinite regress. In order to be conscious of myself, I would need to be conscious of being conscious of myself and so on…Sartre’s claim that all intentionality presupposes consciousness of self but he can’t treat that consciousness of self as its own intentionality because it would start an infinite regress. To avoid regress, we have to suppose and underlying and pre-reflective self consciousness but this pre-reflective self consciousness is not …from the consciousness of the object as he says this Pg 15 top “self conscious….meaning of self consciousness…” Sartre thinks that it is in this pre reflective consciousness that we are given the being of consciousness that is always transphenomenal, it is always something that goes beyond or independent of phenomena itself. Phenomena is what intentionality is directed upon, this self consciousness must be outside or beyond our intentionality…directed upon something is not a phenomenon. Now and this is going to get him part way towards where he wants to be which is where the being of consciousness is a peculiar emptiness or transparency given to us not by an intentional directedness upon but given as if it were between our backs (?) It is a directedness upon something which has no content, something that is not phenomenon but it is only by this directedness that it is possible for us to view consciousness at all.

Part I
The book becomes more concrete. Sartre starts out in a way which might be compared to beginning of Being and Time. He starts out by posing a question and then bringing out features of that question itself, features of our activity of question to pose certain questions. So we’re trying to figure the relation between the BFI and the BII and trying to find out a relationship which avoids either dualism or idealism and in order to carry our investigator to study this relationship between BFI and BII and we have settle things, Heidegger settles on Dasein, the instance Sartre settles on the conduct we are engaged in, in inquiring or questioning. This is now on Pg 24 bottom of the page “now this very inquiry furnishes with the desired conduct…” He then tries to show that this question, the questioning, Sartre then says we examine this attitude of question and what is involved there, this attitude of questioning involves various kinds of negations. There’s the possibility that we’ll decide there are no relations, we’re questioning because we are in the state of not knowing. If we do get an answer to this question, the answer will be that the relation between them will be viewed this way and not other ways. Questioning itself involves negation, reference to none being. Takes the problem of negation of non-being as his first problem. By examining non-being or negation he can figure out the relation.
Jumping ahead to the first part of the book I asked you to read. The origin of nothingness. Crucial section because here Sartre explains nothingness in consciousness that permits nothingness. So we turn then to the activity of questioning and Sartre involves this a double negation. On one hand, this questioning negates the thing questioned by holding it between being and non-being. We’re interested in the relation between these, questioning what that relation is and somehow suspend it between being and non-being. This suspension and negation of the thing we are question is possible only by way of a nihilation, the questioner’s nihilating withdrawal from the question. On its own, being-in-itself is fully positive in its existence, its BII a network of causes and effects and any thing in that series has to be what it is in order to play its role in that system of causes and effects. Sartre’s idea is that only consciousness withdrawing or detaching itself from this casual nexus which is being in itself, that consciousness is able to introduce any negation into the positivity of being-in-itself. Pg 58 “From the very…”

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“…universal determinism…question is determined…”

This in a very few words is Sartre’s argument that consciousness must involve a freedom from universal determinism. It seems to me a very sketchy argument in various senses but it is an argument that Sartre claims, he claims what is distinctive of consciousness, consciousness is a consciusness of something other than itself in order to be a consciousness of something it has to withdrawal and pull itself back from that which it is of “nihilating withdrawal” claims this nihilating withdrawal that allows consciousness to be of its objects can’t itself be explained as one more cause or effect in the causal order. His claim then is that the very logic of consciousness as a consciousness of something, consciousness must be free, this is the being of human beings, this nothingness which is also our freedom. Pg 60 half way down “human freedom precedes…” So, existence precedes essence, existence for Sartre means ..its only on the basis of that withdrawal that its possible then for us to attribute any particular content to ourselves, any essence.

Examples: this is about looking for Pierre, we’re looking for Pierre in his room and Sartre says that, asks what is involved in an experience of absence? And he says that this experience of absence, a negativity can’t be produced. I’m looking around P’s room and see his possessions and none of these appearances of his possessions, Sartre claims, can produce the experience of Pierre’s absence. His possessions would refer only to one another standing in relation only to one another, refer to each other things, this argument that is sketched before, to produce the experience of Peirre’s absence I have to make a break in this chain of causes and I also have to make a break in my own past and present states so this is now on page 63. “I am of necessity to produce…which no prior state can effect or motivate…succession of my states of consciousness of effect from cause…nihilating process…”

The very way I diagrammed it and the distinction of BIT and BFI there is a dualist position here, I think, so, part of his answer I think is to try to show that, as it were, neither BFI nor BIT is independent or can be independent of the other, not that there could be BFI and then by its directing itself on objects there is BIT and also not that BIT and independently BFI directing itself on objects. Of course, he also doesn’t want to be an idealism either, he avoids idealism by not turning consciousness to the mind. And that’s what this strategy of identifying consciousness as a nothingness is supposed to do. Idealism there are these mind substances and then there thoughts and ideas which are contents of those things, radically different features Sartre thinks which makes consciousness a thing, a withdrawal…

Sartre claims that consciousness experiences this absolute freedom that it possesses not just occasionally when it produces negativity but all the time: Pg 64 “freedom is the….human being putting his past out of play by secreting his own nothingness” Here’s another way to think of it, so let’s say that I’m conscious of a particular condition of myself, now by being conscious of it I’ve made that backwards step which distinguishes me from what I am conscious of, consciousness is always capable of that backward step, that movement of withdrawal which is to be conscious of something, that movement is pre-reflectively aware of itself as other than and different from what it is conscious of. Let’s say that I believe that the election will de decided by midnight, let’s say I believe a lectern here. Sartre’s claim is that by being able to be consciousness of believing there is a lectern there, I’ve withdrawn from that belief and I am something different from that belief by virtue of always being capable of being conscious of the things we already believe, we are capable of withdrawing from those beliefs, free from holding those beliefs to overturn those beliefs.

The general issue in the introduction is the relationship between consciousness, thought or experience and the real things that consciousness is of, intends or is directed upon. He has a large scale ambition to answer this question while avoiding the two standard options for addressing these issues: realism (dualism of appearance and reality like Descartes), or some form of realism (treats real things as contents of minds, contents of consciousness, Barkley takes). Sartre is trying to find some middle ground, some way of avoiding both of these answers and what he is trying to do is refer to consciousness as being-for-itself and to the real things that consciousness if of being-in-itself. Introduction sets up the problem of understanding the relationship between these two things that avoids realism and idealism.
Part I – Sartre takes a very surprising starting point and the starting point is our experience of lack, negativity in the world. He is going to raise the puzzle of how it is possible for us to experience the absence of things and going to argue that these experiences of negativity are only possible because of a more fundamental nothingness that belongs to the nature of consciousness (BFI). So there is a nothingness to consciousness, clarifies the tension between being (BII) and on the other hand nothingness of BFI. One of the things that we are going to get a grip on is in what sense is consciousness supposed to be a nothingness. It is only because that cosnciousness is a nothingness that phenomeona can appear to us at all. The most important consequence of consciousness as a nothingness is that we are absolutely free.
Part II – Sartre uses the idea of consciousness as a nothingness to explain the basic structures of consciousness. Part has a lot of interesting relationships to Chapter 5 of BT.
The pre-reflective cogito
We get a sense of how Sartre begins with a Husserlian pheonomenology but then wants to abandon it. He agrees with Husserl that consciousness is always intentional, meaning by that it is always directed upon some object and this object as in the world in the way that we saw H say it. Pg 9. So, consciousness is an intentional directedness upon objects which transcends beings in the world. Now, Sartre’s claim is that consciousness exhausts itself in this directedness, it is not of anything other than its object. Consciousness must also in some other sense always be conscious of itself too. All consciousness he says is self-consciousness. Pg 11 bottom. So, consciousness then is always of an object but consciousness also has to be in some sense of itself. However, he says, this self-consciousness can’t itself be intentional, cannot be an explicit awareness or knowing of consciousness. Because if it were It would begin an infinite refress. In order to be conscious of myself, I would need to be conscious of myself and so on and so forth. Idea is that: Sartre claims that all intentionality presupposes consciousness of self. But then we can’t treat that consciousness of self as a form of intentionality because it leads to infinite regress. Now, to avoid this regress Sartre says we have to suppose an underlying and pre-reflective self-consciousness and this pre-reflective self-consciousness is not separate (?) from the consciousness of the object. Pg 15 he says it in a metaphorical way “self-consciousness…” Now it is in this pre-reflective self-consciousness that we are given the being of consciousness and this being is always therefore transphenomenal. It is always something that goes beyond or is independent of the phenomenon itself. Here is a phenomenon, what intentionality is directed upon, this self-consciousness must be somehow outside or beyond our intentionality. It is must be directed upon something that is not any phenomenon and this going to get him part way towards where he wants to be, the conclusion that being of consciousness is a peculiar emptiness or transparency given to us not by an intentional directedness upon it but as it were behind our backs so to speak, directedness on something that has no content and is not phenomenon. And it is only by this directedness that ourselves that it is possible for us to be conscious of phenomenon at all.
Part I
Sartre starts out in a way that is similar to the beginning of BT. He starts out by posing a question and then bringing out features of that questions itself and our activity of questioning to pose certain dilemmas. So we’re trying to figure out the relation of BFI and BII and we’re trying to find out a relationship which avoids dualism and idealism and in order to carry out our investigation, to study this relation, we have to settle on some instance. The instance that Sartre settles on is the conduct that we are engaged in in our questioning. Attitude of interrogation I ask is there any relation that can reveal to me about man and world but on the other hand the question is not simply the objective, in a world it is a hidden attitude. What does this attitude reveal to us? He then tries to show that this question, we’re questioning, we have consciousness, Sartre then says examining this attitude of questioning and what is involved. This attitude of questioning has various kinds of negations, there is the possibility that we’ll decide there is no relation negative answer, another negation is that we are in the state of not knowing,: if we do get an swer, the answer between these will be this way and no other ways. Questioning itself involves negation and reference to non-being and then takes the problem of negation and non-being as his first problem, hoping that by examining non-being and negation that he can figure out the relation.
Sartre explains nothingness in consciousness that permits experience of negativities. So, we turn then to the activity of question, Sartre says this involves a double negation: on one hand questioning negates thing question by holding it between being and non-being. We’re interested in the relation in these, questioning it and then we suspend this relation between being and non-being. This suspension of being of thing in question he says is only possible by way of a nihilation, the questioner’s nihilating withdrawal. Nihilating withdrawal from the question. The point here is something like this BII is fully positive in its existence, a network of causes and effects and any element in that series of causes and effects has to be what it is in order to play its role in that system of causes and effect. Sartre’s idea is that only by cosnciousness pulling back or withdrawing itself form this causal nexus of BII that consciousness is able to introduce any negation into the positivity of BII.
The relationship between consciousness and the things consciousness is of)
The origin of nothingness, a crucial section because it is here that S explains nothingness in consciousness that permits experience of negativities. So, “we return then to the activity of questions…” This involves a double negation, on the one hand this questioning negates the thing questioned by holding it between being and non-being. WE’re interested in the relation between these and we are questioning the relation between these and we suspend this relation between being and non-being/ This suspension is possible only by way of a kind of nihilation and this is what he calls the questioner’s nihilating withdrawal from the question. So, the point here is something like this: on its own BII is fully positive in its existence. BII is a network of causes and effects and any element in that series of causes and effects has to be what it is in order ot play its role in that system of causes and effects. S’s idea would be that it is only by consciousness pulling back, withdrawing or detaching itself from thi causal nexus that is BII, that consciousness is able to introduce any negation into the positivity of BII. Pg 58 “from the very fact…” this, in a very fw words, is S’s argument that consciousness must involve a freedom from the universal determinism. It seems to be a very sketchy argument. What is distinctive of consciousness, consciousness is a consciousness of something other than itself, in order to be a consciousness of something it has to pull itself back from that which it is of. That is what he means by a nihilating withdrawal, claim is that this withdrawal that allows consciousness to be of its objects can’t itself be explained as one more cause or one more effect in the causal order of things. His claim then is that by the very logic of consciousness as a consciousness of something, consciousness must be free. This is the being of human beings. This nothingness which is also our freedom. Pg 60 “Human freedom precedes essence….essence is suspended in freedom….freedom impossible…” So, existence precedes essence, existence for S being this …consciousness. It is only on the basis of this withdrawal that is possible for us to attribute any particular content to ourselves, any essence. Now, S goes on to give us one of his more famous examples, the example of looking for Pierre. We’re looking for Pierre and we’re looking for Pierre in his room. S asks the question what is involved in an experience of…and he says that this experience of absence which he calls a negativity phenomenon can’t be produce, so I’m looking around Pierre’s room, none of these appearances of his possessions S thinks can produce the experience of Pierre’s absence. These possessions which refer only to one another stand in constant relation only one another,
Also have to make a break in my own past and present psychic states so this now is on page 63 “in terms of my perceptions of the world…”
Sartre simply wills self-consciousness into
It is problematic how Sartre thinks he is escaping dualism by the very way I just diagrammed between BII and BFI and it seems like we have a dualist position. I think, so, part of his answer is to try to show that neither BFI nor BII is independent of each. It is not that there could be BFI and then by its directing itself on objects that there can be BII. Part of this strategy is to try to show that even though different they are bound up in each other. One way he avoids idealism is by not turning consciousness into a substance, a kind of mind, and that is what this strategy of identifying consciousness as nothingness is supposed to do. On the Barkleian version there are mind-substances and hten thoughts, ideas, contents. S has a radically differnet picture which makes consciousness really opaque but something like a withdrawal…
S claims that consciousness experiences this absolute freedom not just occasionally and not just that its producing negativity pg 64 “freedom is the….” So, here is another way to think of it: let’s say that I’m conscious of something, I’m conscious of a particular condition of myself. Now by being conscious of it I have made that backwards step that distinguishes me from what I am conscious of. Consciousness is always capable of that backwards step that movement of withdrawal which is involved in being conscious of something, that withdrawal is also pre-reflectively aware of itself as other than, as different from, what it is conscious of. So, for example, I believe that there is a lectern here. S’s claim is that being able to be conscious of believing that there is a lectern there, I have, as it were, withdrawn from that belief. I am now something different from that believing. By virtue of being always capable of being conscious of the things that we already believe we are capable of withdrawing from those beliefs, free from holding those beliefs, free to overturn those beliefs.
S tries to use this idea of consciousness as nothingness as a way of reinterpreting some of the existential themes we met in H and K. S thinks that beyond all of these experiences I have of negativities and absences in the world. Another example is destruction about a storm and how a storm destroys things. Cosnidered just in the well of the in-itself, that seeming destruction is a rearrangement of atoms, a reconfirguation of stuff is there. To be destruction experienced, it needs to be experienced as empty which is only possible through consciousness’ withdrawal. Besides these experiences of negations in the world. S thinks there is a special experience in which we confront our more basic nothingness, anguish which is S’s rewriting of Heidegger’s anxiety. Pg 65
S interprets our consciousness as involving this step back from the phenomenon which is its intended object and claims that this step back constitutes an absolute freedom for us. So, he describes it as a nihilating withdrawal, by being conscious, if you think of yourself as believing by the very act of conscious of that belief, you withdraw from that belief, pull back form that belief, in a way that gives you the capacity possibility of what, in away separates you from that belief, so that you are as it were you are no longer immersed I the belief, you are withdrawn from it, you have the possibility of rejecting the belief. One strong continuity with Husserl is S’s stress on consciousness. Husserl claims intentionality in this way as well. S’s idea is that this withdrawal that consciousness always involves is a separation from you yourself have been.
Something surprising about S’s claim and goes against what we ordinarily suppose, this freedom is deeply upsetting and disconcerting. S’s idea is that we would prefer to understand ourselves as determined and our discontent with our freedom is manifested in particular in the deep response of anguish. Talked last time about distinction between fear and anguish.
What we see is that this freedom that h wants to characterize as absolute is only one side one aspect to us. There are ways in which he takes back the absoluteness of this freedom as it goes on. Anguish plays a comparable role in S to anxiety in H so just as anxiety is this deeply troubling recognition of certain limits to our human condition, we avoid and flee into the condition of falling or inauthenticity and so far S anguish plays a similar a role and our response to that is not falling but bad faith. So, on pg 83 “reassuring myths….unity of the same conscious…flee in order not to know…flight of anguish is a mode of…” So, we are then at the same time both avoiding and the very notion of avoidance you are recognizing that which you are avoiding “flee it….bad faith”. Now, the next chapter of this part I is devoted to bad faith. And I want to turn to this section called patterns of bad fiath on page 96 and here we get
Remember He’s distinction between thrownness and projection and Sartre will use facticity and transcendence. So what now emerges, according to Sartre there are two fundamental aspects to us of our facticity is the extent to which we are fixed and determined, one of the ways S is trying to pull back from the absolute freedom. Facticity includes bodily characteristics, includes my past and what I have been and what I have not. Aspects of my facticity, aspects of me that are settled. Transcendence is freedom, ability to do and be something different form my path, becoming something more. Sartre’s claim now is ithat I have a contradictory and paradoxical structure as both of these. He uses the term BFI for human beings, each of us are BFI and we are distinct then from BII which is what things are. So, the way he wants to put is is that BII simply is what it is but BFI, by virte of being facticity and transcendence, has this contradictory structure which he says involves our being what we are not and not being what we are. It is this contradictory structure he thinks that makes bad fiath possible for us.

Idea is like this: we of course want to be consciousnesses, we want to be BFI but we also want to also have a kind of unitary and non-contradictory structure such as being in itself has. We want to be an in-itself being for-itself or a for-itself being in-itself. Somehow fuse our being consciousness and our having the self identity and unity that mere things have. And bad faith is going to involve trying to find ourselves as unitary and non-contradictory either in our facticity or in our transcendence. And, as it were, ignoring the other one so that we can just be our facticity or just our transcendence.

• Consciousness
o For Sartre, consciousness is always intentional and is always directed upon an object. Consciousness is consciousness of something and because it is always directed upon an object, consciousness is not of anything other than its object.
o Pre-reflective cogito
o At the same time, consciousness is also conscious of itself. All consciousness is self-conscious. However, this self-consciousness cannot be an explicit awareness of knowing because it would lead to an infinite regress. To be self-conscious or conscious of myself, I would need to be conscious of being conscious of myself and so on. To avoid this problem of infinite regress, Sartre claims that all of consciousness’ intentionality presupposed consciousness of the self but this presupposed consciousness is an underlying, pre-reflective self-consciousness that is always beyond the phenomenon that consciousness is directed upon. Phenomena is the what intentionality is directed upon. Self-consciousness must be outside and beyond this intentionality and be directed upon something that is not phenomenon. Thus, Sartre concludes, the being of consciousness is an emptiness, a directedness upon something which has no content. It is by this directedness that it is possible for us to see consciousness at all.
o Example: I am conscious of this table. I am conscious of myself as conscious of this table and thus, I am conscious of myself, because of my consciousness of this table, as something different from this table.
o Being-in-itself – Being-in-itself simply is. It is
o Being-for-itself
o Consciousness as nothingness
 According to Sartre, the activity of questioning involves a double negation. On one hand this questioning negates the object in question by holding it between being and non-being. Given that by questioning we are interested in the relation between BII and BFI, our questioning of this relation suspends the relation between being and non-being. This suspension or negation of the relation we are questioning is possible only by way of what Sartre terms a nihilation. The question’s “nihilating withdrawal” from the question makes the negation of the thing in question possible.
• Absolute Freedom
o Bad faith as a vacillation between facticity and transcendence
o Facticity
o Transcendence
• Absolute freedom being consistent with facticity aspect of bad faith
o Facticity as the ways I am conscious of myself as being
o Situation in which we are not free??
Sartre’s Goal and the Pre-reflective Cogito

In “Being and Nothingness,” Jean-Paul Sartre discusses the relation between consciousness and the objects in the world which consciousness is directed upon. Sartre is interested in explicating the relation between our thoughts and experiences and the objects in the world those thoughts and experiences are directed upon. He refers to consciousness as “being-for-itself” and the objects of consciousness as “being-in-itself”. There are usually two standard philosophical interpretations of the relation between being-for-itself and being-in-itself. On one hand, realism claims that a dualism exists between consciousness and the real intended objects in the world. On the other, idealism treats the intended objects of consciousness as merely the contents of consciousness and not as real objects in the world. Sartre wants to avoid these two understandings of the relation between being-for-itself and being-in-itself in order to find a middle ground between realism and idealism.

Sartre approaches the relation between being-for-itself and being-in-itself by first examining our experience of negativity in the world. He makes the claim that we can only experience negativity because of the fundamental nothingness that belongs to the nature of consciousness. This nothingness that is inherent in consciousness as being-for-itself is in tension with being-in-itself. But it is only because of the nothingness of being-for-itself that being-in-itself as phenomena can appear to us at all. More importantly, according to Sartre, we experience absolute freedom because nothingness is fundamental to the nature of consciousness.

In order to make clear Sartre’s claim that nothingness is fundamental to the nature of consciousness, I will first present Sartre’s account of consciousness. Sartre writes, “All consciousness is…consciousness of something. This means that there is no consciousness which is not a positing of a transcendent object” (11). In other words, consciousness is always intentional and always directed upon some object in the world. Consciousness exhausts itself in this intentional directedness and is of nothing more than its intended object. In fact, Sartre claims, there can never be consciousness that is not of its object in the world. Moreover, consciousness is also self-conscious or directed upon itself. While Sartre believes all intentionality presupposes self-consciousness, he does not believe self-consciousness can also be treated as intentional. To treat self-consciousness as such would be to create an infinite regress. For example, suppose I am conscious of a piggy bank on my desk in that I have experiences and thoughts of the piggy bank as an object in the world. According to Sartre, my consciousness of this piggy bank presupposes a self-consciousness: I am conscious of my being conscious of the piggy bank. But, because this self-consciousness is directed upon my consciousness of this piggy bank, its intentionality presupposes that I am also conscious of my self-consciousness. In order to be conscious of the piggy bank, I would need to be conscious of myself being conscious of myself being conscious of the piggy bank and so on. To avoid this infinite regress, Sartre posits an underlying, pre-reflective self-consciousness. This pre-reflective self-consciousness has no intentional objects and is, therefore, directed upon something outside and beyond the intended objects of consciousness. Finally, Sartre believes that the pre-reflective self-consciousness reveals the being of consciousness as something always outside and beyond the object of its intentionality. He concludes that consciousness

However, Sartre goes on to make the unintuitive claim that this absolute freedom is so deeply disconcerting that we would actually prefer not to have it. Our response to the disconcerting nature of absolute freedom is anguish. Anguish can be characterized as a constant vacillation between our facticity and our transcendence

The general issue in the introduction is the relationship between consciousness, thought or experience and the real things that consciousness is of, intends or is directed upon. He has a large scale ambition to answer this question while avoiding the two standard options for addressing these issues: realism (dualism of appearance and reality like Descartes), or some form of realism (treats real things as contents of minds, contents of consciousness, Barkley takes). Sartre is trying to find some middle ground, some way of avoiding both of these answers and what he is trying to do is refer to consciousness as being-for-itself and to the real things that consciousness if of being-in-itself. Introduction sets up the problem of understanding the relationship between these two things that avoids realism and idealism.
Part I – Sartre takes a very surprising starting point and the starting point is our experience of lack, negativity in the world. He is going to raise the puzzle of how it is possible for us to experience the absence of things and going to argue that these experiences of negativity are only possible because of a more fundamental nothingness that belongs to the nature of consciousness (BFI). So there is a nothingness to consciousness, clarifies the tension between being (BII) and on the other hand nothingness of BFI. One of the things that we are going to get a grip on is in what sense is consciousness supposed to be a nothingness. It is only because that cosnciousness is a nothingness that phenomeona can appear to us at all. The most important consequence of consciousness as a nothingness is that we are absolutely free.

We get a sense of how Sartre begins with a Husserlian pheonomenology but then wants to abandon it. He agrees with Husserl that consciousness is always intentional, meaning by that it is always directed upon some object and this object as in the world in the way that we saw H say it. Pg 9. So, consciousness is an intentional directedness upon objects which transcends beings in the world. Now, Sartre’s claim is that consciousness exhausts itself in this directedness, it is not of anything other than its object. Consciousness must also in some other sense always be conscious of itself too. All consciousness he says is self-consciousness. Pg 11 bottom. So, consciousness then is always of an object but consciousness also has to be in some sense of itself. However, he says, this self-consciousness can’t itself be intentional, cannot be an explicit awareness or knowing of consciousness. Because if it were It would begin an infinite refress. In order to be conscious of myself, I would need to be conscious of myself and so on and so forth. Idea is that: Sartre claims that all intentionality presupposes consciousness of self. But then we can’t treat that consciousness of self as a form of intentionality because it leads to infinite regress. Now, to avoid this regress Sartre says we have to suppose an underlying and pre-reflective self-consciousness and this pre-reflective self-consciousness is not separate (?) from the consciousness of the object. Pg 15 he says it in a metaphorical way “self-consciousness…” Now it is in this pre-reflective self-consciousness that we are given the being of consciousness and this being is always therefore transphenomenal. It is always something that goes beyond or is independent of the phenomenon itself. Here is a phenomenon, what intentionality is directed upon, this self-consciousness must be somehow outside or beyond our intentionality. It is must be directed upon something that is not any phenomenon and this going to get him part way towards where he wants to be, the conclusion that being of consciousness is a peculiar emptiness or transparency given to us not by an intentional directedness upon it but as it were behind our backs so to speak, directedness on something that has no content and is not phenomenon. And it is only by this directedness that ourselves that it is possible for us to be conscious of phenomenon at all.

This self-consciousness can’t itself be intentional, can’t be explicit knowing of the object. If it were, that would begin a infinite regress. In order to be conscious of my self, I would need to be conscious of myself, I would need …Sartre’s claiming that all intentionality presupposes consciousness of self but that means we can’t treat that consciousness of self as a form of intentionality. To avoid this regres, we have to suppose an underlying and pre-reflective self-consciousness and this pre-reflective self-consciousness is not very separate in a metaphorical way on page 15…Sartre thinks that it is in this prereflective self-consciousness that we are given the being of consciousness and this being is always therefore transphenomenomal, always something that goes beyond or is independent of the phenomenon itself, phenomenon is what intentionality is directed upon. This self-consciousness must be outside and beyond this intentionality, directed upon something that is not any phenomenon.

Sartre’s goal is to find a middle ground between idealism and realism in the relation between being-in-itself and being-for-itself. Being-for-itself is consciousness – talk about that more here, the pre-reflective cogito.

Consciousness as Nothingness

He begins addressing this relation by examining the very question of asking what it this relation is. He examines the attitude of this question and claims that this attitude involves the negation of the thing being questioned as well as the negation of the questioner’s relation to the thing being questioned. BII is fully positive and in order to introduce any negation, consciousness must step back from itself, make a nihilating withdrawal from the causal nexus of BII. By removing consciousness from the causal nexus, consciousness is absolutely free. Performing this nihilating withdrawal means that consciousness is able to step back from the object that it is conscious of but this nihilating withdrawal can’t itself be part of the cause and effect order of the being-in-itself. Thus, nothingness is absolute freedom. The origin of nothingness, a crucial section because it is here that S explains nothingness in consciousness that permits experience of negativities. So, “we return then to the activity of questions…” This involves a double negation, on the one hand this questioning negates the thing questioned by holding it between being and non-being. WE’re interested in the relation between these and we are questioning the relation between these and we suspend this relation between being and non-being/ This suspension is possible only by way of a kind of nihilation and this is what he calls the questioner’s nihilating withdrawal from the question. So, the point here is something like this: on its own BII is fully positive in its existence. BII is a network of causes and effects and any element in that series of causes and effects has to be what it is in order ot play its role in that system of causes and effects. S’s idea would be that it is only by consciousness pulling back, withdrawing or detaching itself from thi causal nexus that is BII, that consciousness is able to introduce any negation into the positivity of BII. Pg 58 “from the very fact…” this, in a very fw words, is S’s argument that consciousness must involve a freedom from the universal determinism. It seems to be a very sketchy argument. What is distinctive of consciousness, consciousness is a consciousness of something other than itself, in order to be a consciousness of something it has to pull itself back from that which it is of. That is what he means by a nihilating withdrawal, claim is that this withdrawal that allows consciousness to be of its objects can’t itself be explained as one more cause or one more effect in the causal order of things. His claim then is that by the very logic of consciousness as a consciousness of something, consciousness must be free. This is the being of human beings. This nothingness which is also our freedom. Pg 60 “Human freedom precedes essence….essence is suspended in freedom….freedom impossible…” So, existence precedes essence, existence for S being this …consciousness. It is only on the basis of this withdrawal that is possible for us to attribute any particular content to ourselves, any essence.

Absolute Freedom and Facticity

Our absolute freedom causes us to be in anguish and we respond to anguish by falling into bad faith. Bad faith is the vacillation between facticity and transcendence. This appears to be inconsistent with Sartre’s claim that we all have absolute freedom by virtue of the nothingness that is consciousness.

I haven’t written anything in a while and the first piece of work I produce is about how I hate someone.

1) I’m gonna vent a little about Chelsea: I haven’t been too fond of Chelsea lately. Well, mostly because she tends to bitch and whine when she plays and give me lip when I call her out and then cry afterwards. This is extremely unimportant but my past interaction with her already sets my personal bias against her as treasurer. As much as she can, I imagine, be a good treasurer, I want to say not to her and just give the position to Jenny, which, after you told me I can double positions, I’ve done already. More importantly, I received an email today from Mike. I, along with the four e-board members, was CCed and the email was in response to Chelsea asking for a copy of last year’s budget. I’m a little…annoyed by her email because she completely circumvented me and Jenny. Mike is not the president anymore. We are, and if she really wanted to be the treasurer, which she did express interest in doing, I’m not sure why she didn’t give me her contact information when I asked so I can add her to clubpro. Personally, I’m whatever about not having on th e-board but I’m just pissed. Pissed. I want nothing to do with this bitch. I want her exiled, completely, but of course, that isn’t going to happen. But, really, still, I’m just, whatever. Am I just being a bitch here? Honestly. You’ve given me a ton of great advice and you seem completely capable. I just hate her. What is wrong with her? This shit is mine. Mine. I’m gonna run this shit with people who are competent. Fuck you. Fuck you you moppy faced bitch, you fucking bitch. That’s it.

I really need to let this go. I really need to let this go. Whatever, I’ll deal with her. This is part of life. This is a part of life. I’ll deal with. I’ll be sweet. Accommodating. Learning to spell again.

Cramming.

This is nowhere he has not been before. The clock ticks slowly to fifteen minutes to four. Florescent lights belie the passage of time. The world moves without him and is cryogenically frozen in a meeting room on the lower level of his library. His Macbook hums as he scrapes the bottom of his empty cranium for creativity. He has not put words on paper, attempted to fill a black canvas with words and nothing more in so long the sound of his own typing feels foreign, alien his own craft has become. There is panic in the clatter of his illuminated black laptop keys: has he lost it? What is it? The dry erase board is smeared with the remnants of marker, fuzzy smears of color left behind by erasers, pushed side to side on the greying board by the eraser, light as a feather. He is starting to abuse clichés. He wants to run off a cliff but the coffee has made him weak, subdued by still functioning, a zombie slowly losing his humanity.
Where is she?
Kiss me, she whispers, her breath tickling the fine hair of his ears, sending a small shiver down his back. Kiss me, she pulls at this shirt collar gently, a trail of her scent where her fingers touch him. Make love to me, she brushes her nose against his and he feels her warm breath on his lips.

Recovery, mostly essays and bits

Okay, first, the cat. I saw it. I thought of you. I thought of your cat. I had to link it. I’ll take your word for it if you say Russia isn’t cold in the summer. I trust you. But, what the hell is a white night? I have never, ever heard of that happening in Russia. It sounds really cool but I’d be so freaked out the first couple of nights. Would you even call them nights? Also, you play video games now? Which games? On what console? On the PC? TALK TO ME KAT ABOUT THE VIDEO GAMES. LOL And, yeah, I’m going to keep a journal and take pictures and document my entire cruise experience. I told Allen I might be self-conscious about wearing bikinis on the cruise and he told me everyone else there would be significantly larger and older than we are. He also said its really easy to get sick because there are so many people which sounds troubling.

But, anyway, the good stuff. Calling him Lima would be fantastic. I’d stop getting the little red squiggly things all over my message. I was hoping that comment would cheer you up, but I’m so confused as to why FB wants to auto-correct Liam and leaves everyone else’s names alone. Liam is a normal name. Zi, okay, my name can get auto-corrected, but Liam? Lol I’m still also confused about what happened between you and Liam. All I remember is that you hate Sarah with the four last names or something. Though, whatever happened back then doesn’t really matter

Hi
I woke up in the surgery
Thinking that I was still in ther surgery and shouldn’t be awake so I made noises trying to let people know that I was awake and should not be then I realized, oh, it must be over. I cried in the car going there because I was crying already and I was sad. But they made us wait forty minutes so I just got sleepy. I need to make an appointment for next week, post-op. Remind me. I called her a piece of shit. Lol that term is so in my vocabulary, it just came out and I was like, oops. She refused to talk to me UNTIL I said that and then she looked up and I was like, OOOH NOW YOU ANSWER. Like you, you get people’s attention by calling them names. I know so I do it well. I didn’t feel anything. Why would I want to be a doctor if this is whwat patients feel like. It was so nice. I woke up and was like, I LOVE THE WORLD. I LOVE EVERYONE. Are you still going to the thing?
We used to have these fights all the time. In middle school, in high school. Yeah, all the time. Just one day! Actually, two because I missed today’s class too.
Movie? Which one?